Driving vampires in dreams
Driving lessons today weren't so bad. I was happy to see that Mang Boy was the one that taught me today. Maneuvering and going reverse were pretty easy since I used to practice before. Friday's gonna be my last day and will very soon be a licensed driver! YAY! :D Too bad I can't get a new car since I asked for a laptop late last year and it's one of those things that's "it's either this or that".
I just realized that I wont be able to spend time with Milo, Mark, Ton, BJ and the others at Mike's condo like before because of my schedule. Maybe it's for the best since my cleansing period isn't finished yet. Actually it's more like it just began. It's like I'm going into a cocoon to focus on other things that I neglected last year. I'm avoiding people that became emotional vampires to me until I get things settled with myself since I'm turning into an emotional vampire myself. I don't want to be that type of person...
I had a weird dream last night... it's been a while since I had one so it was kinda fun. I dreamnt I was in Benilde and there's this cute girl that seemed to like me. I think she's hot and it's rare that I fall for a girl with short hair. I asked myself why not go for it and others were like telling me to ask her out. So there we we're, this nameless girl and I, embracing in a secluded hall at school and I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend. She said yes so I was like WOOHOO!! I wanted to text everyone I knew that I now have a wonderful girlfriend. But me being bisexual thought if this was what I wanted. I felt restless until I wished I didn't ask her out. Then there's this scene that we we're at the park and it was a magical moment where clouds and sparkling lights were around and for the first time I saw my girlfriend to be so beautiful that it made me cry.. and I fell IN love and this time it was real and I didn't want to let her go. Weird thing is, I soon find out she's pregnant and it wasn't mine but her ex's. To take the responsibility or not was the question... will I be able to take care of a child that wasn't mine? Then I woke up.
It was nice to be in a relationship even if it was a dream. It's sad when I think about it. It also raised a lot of questions about myself. Am I really bisexual? Am I gay, queer or straight? Only I can answer that of course but my friend Rojine told me that all I needed to do was pray and God will direct me to my true self. I'll still go with being bisexual until I find THE ONE I guess...
Mood: Mixed
Listening to: You are the Universe by The Brand New Heavies
I just realized that I wont be able to spend time with Milo, Mark, Ton, BJ and the others at Mike's condo like before because of my schedule. Maybe it's for the best since my cleansing period isn't finished yet. Actually it's more like it just began. It's like I'm going into a cocoon to focus on other things that I neglected last year. I'm avoiding people that became emotional vampires to me until I get things settled with myself since I'm turning into an emotional vampire myself. I don't want to be that type of person...
I had a weird dream last night... it's been a while since I had one so it was kinda fun. I dreamnt I was in Benilde and there's this cute girl that seemed to like me. I think she's hot and it's rare that I fall for a girl with short hair. I asked myself why not go for it and others were like telling me to ask her out. So there we we're, this nameless girl and I, embracing in a secluded hall at school and I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend. She said yes so I was like WOOHOO!! I wanted to text everyone I knew that I now have a wonderful girlfriend. But me being bisexual thought if this was what I wanted. I felt restless until I wished I didn't ask her out. Then there's this scene that we we're at the park and it was a magical moment where clouds and sparkling lights were around and for the first time I saw my girlfriend to be so beautiful that it made me cry.. and I fell IN love and this time it was real and I didn't want to let her go. Weird thing is, I soon find out she's pregnant and it wasn't mine but her ex's. To take the responsibility or not was the question... will I be able to take care of a child that wasn't mine? Then I woke up.
It was nice to be in a relationship even if it was a dream. It's sad when I think about it. It also raised a lot of questions about myself. Am I really bisexual? Am I gay, queer or straight? Only I can answer that of course but my friend Rojine told me that all I needed to do was pray and God will direct me to my true self. I'll still go with being bisexual until I find THE ONE I guess...
Mood: Mixed
Listening to: You are the Universe by The Brand New Heavies
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