Re-evaluating my life
I had a good talk with Milo last night concerning my life so far for the past year... He helped me peice together the fragments of the puzzle I call my life.
Let's get one thing out in the open. I USED to be Bisexual. Why was I even one? It's a defense mechanism and I misinterpreted people's affections. I was desperate and needy for love.
I thought that if I go for both genders I'd get laid more or something. Fortunately nothing happened and I think God wanted to tell me something with that. Maybe I am supposed to be straight. Or better yet, maybe my entire issue right now does not revolve around the fact why am I still single.
It's not about why I'm still single. It's all about me as a person and how I should strive to become better. I spent days and nights wondering why I'm still single wondering if I repel people. It's not about being in a relationship. It's all about finally realizing who I am and my reason for existance.
Thankfully Alvin and Rye declined my offer/affection otherwise I wouldn't have realized that there are more important things that I should be dealing with right now.
Meeting some significant people in teambuilding made a lot of difference in me. I met this one specific person and the way we talked and related to each other was more than enough. It made me content and hopefully complete. I felt incomplete because I never felt a love from my dad or my brothers while I grew up. Then there's this guy who I just met but acknowledged my existance. Now there's nothing more I need. Let's just say I somewhat found peace.
BJ's right. I never hooked up with my crush from the yearbook but I made a good friend. :)
What's instore for me now? I'm straight again. :D But I'm not in a hurry to find THE ONE like before. My next mission is to finally use my talents to make it into the industry and make a name for myself. I wanna publish my works, comics and animations to the world as an artist with passion and a story to tell...
I just hope that whatever challenges comes my way, I'll be strong enough to overcome them.
Mood: Determined
Listening to: Hikari no Naka e by Maaya Sakamoto
Let's get one thing out in the open. I USED to be Bisexual. Why was I even one? It's a defense mechanism and I misinterpreted people's affections. I was desperate and needy for love.
I thought that if I go for both genders I'd get laid more or something. Fortunately nothing happened and I think God wanted to tell me something with that. Maybe I am supposed to be straight. Or better yet, maybe my entire issue right now does not revolve around the fact why am I still single.
It's not about why I'm still single. It's all about me as a person and how I should strive to become better. I spent days and nights wondering why I'm still single wondering if I repel people. It's not about being in a relationship. It's all about finally realizing who I am and my reason for existance.
Thankfully Alvin and Rye declined my offer/affection otherwise I wouldn't have realized that there are more important things that I should be dealing with right now.
Meeting some significant people in teambuilding made a lot of difference in me. I met this one specific person and the way we talked and related to each other was more than enough. It made me content and hopefully complete. I felt incomplete because I never felt a love from my dad or my brothers while I grew up. Then there's this guy who I just met but acknowledged my existance. Now there's nothing more I need. Let's just say I somewhat found peace.
BJ's right. I never hooked up with my crush from the yearbook but I made a good friend. :)
What's instore for me now? I'm straight again. :D But I'm not in a hurry to find THE ONE like before. My next mission is to finally use my talents to make it into the industry and make a name for myself. I wanna publish my works, comics and animations to the world as an artist with passion and a story to tell...
I just hope that whatever challenges comes my way, I'll be strong enough to overcome them.
Mood: Determined
Listening to: Hikari no Naka e by Maaya Sakamoto
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