Back from the storm
Ahh... looks like I have a lot of catching up to do... I'll tackle this by the topic...
Portfol
Should I even consider going on? The program was near perfect and it was completed before the due date. Unfortunately I also needed collaterals that should be STATE OF THE ART. Wow, I did NOT expect that so I had very little time to make my collaterals as good as the program. To cut a long story short, I failed due to the fact that Ms. Barbs was strict with deadlines.
In some way I have to thank her for that. Why? Punctuality is one of my weakest points. It had to happen to teach me a lesson in the long run. If I didn't realize this the hard way I'll embarass myself in the outside world. A little enlightenment from Sir Leo and Ms. Barbs... I feel that I dissapointed them since they know I am capable of great things and I didn't deliver. It's more of an insult to myself if I put it that way.
I have to strive to reach a new level of me.
Rage Attacks
Recently my mental and psychological defenses have been waning leading to excessive frustrations and break down. Unfortunately due to a huge family misunderstanding between relatives at a cousin's bday party, I went berzerk and threw several objects at people while screaming curses threatening to kill everyone. This got everyone's attention. At least the older folks seem to sympathize with me more and the young ones keep their distance.
Still, the damage has been done and I don't like me going berzerk. Looks like after strengthening my resolve about my life mission, "demons" started appearing to keep me from being a better person.
Lately, I've been reading the bible again and it's kinda enlightening me. This is a sign that I'm dwindling in my growth so I should focus once more and set my priorities straight.
Perspective
Connected to my rage attacks, I've been thinking about how things in college are kinda distrupting my dreams. Suddenly a diploma is nothing but a key to open a door to either a call center or nursing.
I feel like dropping out of school to prove a point that you can survive as long as you dream and work hard. My mom thinks that I have an idea going on and she'll support me even if I decide to push through with my ideals.
Suddenly I'm an idealist.
The offer is tempting but I still want to finish college so I'm not a burden to my mom. But she told me that she's always proud of me and I'm not a burden. I just realized how much I love my mom and she does understand me.
Work
Sir Kokoy seems to enjoy my work so I have an entire month to finish everything for the play. I'll try to finish it within a week since I'm aiming for punctuality WITH quality.
Me thinks this will be my last racket for the meantime until I graduate.
SPO
Just last week, I was promoted from Design Staffer to Training and Recuitment Head. Sounds new right? HAHAHAHA! I'll be sort of incharge with all the Probational Staffers, making sure that everyone works while I jot down their strengths and weaknesses. I'll also need to coordinate with other section editors in dividing their workload and organize workshops. More on that, people can talk to me about problems for advice, comfort hugs and such. This probably goes for all the staffers too. Time to use my abilities to help people as a "rebellious" servant of God. :D
Listening to: One Survive by Mika Nakashima
Mood: halfway enlightened
Portfol
Should I even consider going on? The program was near perfect and it was completed before the due date. Unfortunately I also needed collaterals that should be STATE OF THE ART. Wow, I did NOT expect that so I had very little time to make my collaterals as good as the program. To cut a long story short, I failed due to the fact that Ms. Barbs was strict with deadlines.
In some way I have to thank her for that. Why? Punctuality is one of my weakest points. It had to happen to teach me a lesson in the long run. If I didn't realize this the hard way I'll embarass myself in the outside world. A little enlightenment from Sir Leo and Ms. Barbs... I feel that I dissapointed them since they know I am capable of great things and I didn't deliver. It's more of an insult to myself if I put it that way.
I have to strive to reach a new level of me.
Rage Attacks
Recently my mental and psychological defenses have been waning leading to excessive frustrations and break down. Unfortunately due to a huge family misunderstanding between relatives at a cousin's bday party, I went berzerk and threw several objects at people while screaming curses threatening to kill everyone. This got everyone's attention. At least the older folks seem to sympathize with me more and the young ones keep their distance.
Still, the damage has been done and I don't like me going berzerk. Looks like after strengthening my resolve about my life mission, "demons" started appearing to keep me from being a better person.
Lately, I've been reading the bible again and it's kinda enlightening me. This is a sign that I'm dwindling in my growth so I should focus once more and set my priorities straight.
Perspective
Connected to my rage attacks, I've been thinking about how things in college are kinda distrupting my dreams. Suddenly a diploma is nothing but a key to open a door to either a call center or nursing.
I feel like dropping out of school to prove a point that you can survive as long as you dream and work hard. My mom thinks that I have an idea going on and she'll support me even if I decide to push through with my ideals.
Suddenly I'm an idealist.
The offer is tempting but I still want to finish college so I'm not a burden to my mom. But she told me that she's always proud of me and I'm not a burden. I just realized how much I love my mom and she does understand me.
Work
Sir Kokoy seems to enjoy my work so I have an entire month to finish everything for the play. I'll try to finish it within a week since I'm aiming for punctuality WITH quality.
Me thinks this will be my last racket for the meantime until I graduate.
SPO
Just last week, I was promoted from Design Staffer to Training and Recuitment Head. Sounds new right? HAHAHAHA! I'll be sort of incharge with all the Probational Staffers, making sure that everyone works while I jot down their strengths and weaknesses. I'll also need to coordinate with other section editors in dividing their workload and organize workshops. More on that, people can talk to me about problems for advice, comfort hugs and such. This probably goes for all the staffers too. Time to use my abilities to help people as a "rebellious" servant of God. :D
Listening to: One Survive by Mika Nakashima
Mood: halfway enlightened
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