Week report

Finally... some time to write here. Better change the font too... I think it's too small for my own good.

Tuesday: (evening)
-- Was very happy that Yvette and Lar came to my grandma's wake and it's the first time I experienced friends going to any of my relative's wakes. I feel happy about it. I'm now part of the official choir for my grandma's wake. Tito Badong and his wife, Tita Deng, played the guitars while my second brother Kuya Arnel and his wife, Ate Belle, Tita Sioning (the family diva) and I sang.

Wednesday:
-- Still going nuts with the entire Alvin thing. Because of that I said some nasty things at Ragnarok to Gerr, Clarisse and Milo. Had to stay up very late since Milo kinda gave me therapy. It's good actually so he can still practice the stuff he learned in psychology. I wasn't able to be part of tonight's choir because I had to attend class. Looks like they missed me and they never really thought of me as a good singer. Well, I doubt they knew I was a tenor for the parish choir. Hehe

Thursday:
-- Decided not to go to school today mainly because I'm still not ready to be in the same room with Alvin again. I stayed and helped out at the wake and resumed my duties as a member of the choir (by popular demand). My relatives from the states wanted me to sing... was too shy to go solo. LOL. Going to the wake is bad for my diet. Too much food so I had to restrain myself. I had the fish tho so it's not so bad. I had to cheat a little tho by eating some donuts and cheeserolls from Mary Grace. Tita Vivi gave me 50 dollars to buy new shoes coz my old Blue Presto shoes has a big rip in the side. It lasted me for 2 years and it was my favorite pair of shoes. Hate to part with it but I'm also excited to get my new pair. Kuya Arnel suggested Merrel because of the Kevlar bottoms and stuff.

Friday:
-- Today is the day my grandma will be placed in her final resting place. She'll be buried above my lolo and beside tito Jimmy at Manila Memorial in Sucat. While the eulogies were being said I found myself holding back the tears. This didn't really help since after the final mass my voice was already shaky so I couldn't sing properly. Tita Sioning and Kuya Arnel already stopped singing coz they both couldn't take it. I realized that time that the most painful sound ever is the sound of your mother crying. I embraced her as we both wept but life goes on. After the burial ceremony, everyone was socializing nearby and the laughter started pouring again. Tito Cesar grabbed his camera and made all the couples in the family pose for the camera as if they were paid models. Tita Cesar was calling the shots and the poses were funny. After a family photosession everyone went to my cousin's house in Las Pinas for lunch. It was a great lunch and since I'm so tired I decided to cancel my diet for that day. I know I will regret it soon. Hehe.

Before going home, I stopped by SM Fairview to buy a new pair of rubber shoes. I got a nice blue and gray pair. Can't wait to try them out. I also got a massage and it was a nice deal for 400 bucks. It came with a bath, a sauna and 2 complimentary drinks. I think I needed it after a long week.

While I was inside the sauna alone I tried out something that I think helped me over come the entire Alvin thing. I started talking to the other 6 people in me (the characters I created for my story 8 years ago) out loud and they made sense. Sure we have people in our heads but if we use them to help us than to drive us crazy then things will be a lot easier on us. I large rock was lifted from me that afternoon so I was able to leave the massage place in SM Fairview with a smile on my face.

I called Alvin and talked to him that night to apologize and to tell him that I'm not going through a great phase right now. I told him I still love him but only as a friend now and it's going to stay that way otherwise I wont be able to open my heart to the next person who will make me happier than I ever thought I'd be. Things went well after that and I played Suikoden 4 until I felt sleepy.

Saturday:
Woke up feeling great again since talking to Ailyn, Rose, Jon, Heid, Meagan and Di helped a lot. I worked on thesis and the animation clip for Jana. I think I'll take my green Nissan pickup out for a spin tomorrow. I still have to go to mass and I'll see if I can meet Eric and play dance maniax again with him.

Mood: Playful

Listening to: Memory ~for you~ Fruits Basket OST

And I'm back

I woke up feeling a little better. Maybe all I needed was some rest. After eating lunch and playing Dance Dance Revolution Max2, I spent the next few minutes texting Gerr, Alvin, Ace and Milo apologetic messages.

Still have a lot to do...

Bitching about movies and stuff

This is going to be one of those ultra-rare moments that I will bitch in this blog so either leave or read. Unless you want to see me dark mode, read on.

God, I'm such a mess right now and I don't know why. I've been a he-bitch to most of my friends... I texted Gerr messages on how she should have resized images and files to make things easier and I just had to lash out on Alvin because he sent a delighted text about watching Meet the Fokkers.

I dunno what it is with movies. People ask why I haven't seen this movie or why didn't I watch it when it was still on the big screen. Because no one asked me to watch it. Okay, so I ask people to watch a movie let's say The Incredibles... these are the reasons I hear most of the time.
1) No money
2) No time
3) Already seen it with other people
4) Haven't seen it but would rather watch it with other people
The last movie I saw on the big screen was White Chicks with old highschool buddies. I haven't seen Spiderman 2 and someone calls me a loser for that. Maybe I am. I mean, come on, I just eagerly await for the release of the pirated dvd and watch it in the comfort of my own home... ALONE. "At least you can pause the movie and you don't have to bear with noisy moviegoers", says Alvin. Well he completely missed the point. "And don't you watch it with your family?", he adds. What family??? My brothers have families of their own so they all watch it and sometimes they even band together to watch it as a group without informing me. My mom watches movies with her friends. There is no such thing as family when it comes to watching movies.

Heck, I doubt there's even a thing called friendship when it comes to that. I ask my ex-bestfriend Jerry before to watch Treasure Planet and I even got premier tickets but he'd rather pass and stay home after thrilling me with 2 weeks of hype. I ask another friend to watch Spiderman 2 with me but he's seen it with his mom but he "promised" to watch it again and he'll text me when he's free. Of course I wait for 1 month until the movie was no longer showing. He could have told me that it wasn't going to happen. Then there's Alvin. "Let's watch The Incredibles together", we say. Then I heard he watched it with his friends. He says that we can watch it again but it never happened. Why? Because he's too busy playing those goddamned table top rpgs. I don't mind rpgs, in fact I love them and I used to play DnD as a monk. I just hate it when it gets in the way of friendships.

Maybe I'm just too naive... As usual people abuse me for that.

So why don't I watch movies alone then? I DO NOT LIKE TO BE ALONE COZ IT SUCKS AND I'VE BEEN ALONE AND LONELY FOR 25 FUCKING YEARS.

Now what's the deal with Alvin? Sure he dumped me and all but he wants to be friends. He even claims that he's there for me. Yeah right! Call me hardened but I FIRMLY believe that actions speak louder than words. I'm very torn with him now. I hate him. I don't want to see him anymore so things will be easier on me. But half of me still wants to be friends with him. Sarcasm helps only a little...

I ask God to help me... It's one of those days I'm at my lowest. I hope this doesn't happen again. Ace and Milo want me to rest now. Maybe things will be better tomorrow.

To my friends who are reading this now, I'm sorry...

Mood: Not in the mood for anything
Listening to: Mangekyou Kirakira by Rythem

Death in the family

My grandma finally passed away Friday afternoon at the age of 93. I had a fever last night so I couldn't go to the hospital no matter how I wanted to. My friends were very supportive through text and to me that's more than enough. I now officially have no more grandparents. :(

I hope I still find time to honor the commitments I made with friends, like the flash animation for Jana. I have until the 31st to finish that and it's a short flash animation of Yoda vs. Gollum. I hope I can finish it within the week along with the first 3 scenes of our thesis.

I just came home from Paz Funeral Homes and saw some of my old relatives from my mother's side. I wasn't able to see them during the holidays since there was no reunion at the mother's side. My cousins in that side of the family have fit bodies compared to those in my father's side who we're either horribly thin or uber fat. I was talking to some of my titas and I found out that homosexuality does run in the family particularly in the mother's side. It makes more sense to me now especially most of my male cousins are... well... either that or bi. At least I can talk about it more openly with mom now.

Mood: Out of it

Listening to: Harmonia by Rythem

3-day update

Things were a little too hectic for me this week so I wasn't able to post anything...

Wed
-- Gerr wore a skirt to seminar class. Milo was making weird comments about it that made Gerr whine "Milo wants to rape me...". It was funny, actually, since she shocked a lot of classmates. She absolutely hated it. We won a couple of freebie CDs from one of the guest speakers who works as a DJ for a local radio station. It was hella fun.

Thur
-- Worked out my lower body and sholder area in the afternoon. My grandma was hospitalized again and looks like her brain finally gave way. It crushed me since I just saw her the other day walking in living room smiling at me. I really thought she was finally getting better. I was out of it and feelings of sadness were mixed with anger when the mrt and lrt fucked up big time making me 45 minutes late for my mulbis1 class. That cost me a +1 in my final grade for blowing my perfect attendance at the 3rd week. I told the prof about my problem and he seemed to understand what I'm going through so he went easy on me the whole night. Alvin accompanied me on the mrt going home. He's very supportive and he was trying to make me smile the whole night.

Fri
-- Woke up early to finally apply for a non-pro driver's license. My legs hurt like hell after the workout yesterday. Finally got it after a few hours since Kuya Biboy, our neighbor and driver, accompanied me through the process. The drug test was funny. I didn't think I could pee in a cup. The driver's test was easy enough as I finished the test for only a few minutes. I thought I'd spend the entire day there but it took only a few hours from 11:00 am to 2:20pm. I can't wait to show it off to my friends on tuesday but I'm not happy about my picture. I look fat in my pic -_- (but then again, who looks good in his/her driver's license?). When I got home my mom and I left for the hospital to look after my grandma. Seeing her breathing through a machine was very painful for me since I can't take it when people I love are dying... but she's practically dead already. She needs to rest and I think she deserves it.

Mood: Sad

Listening to: Workshy's rendition of It's too Late

Soul...

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world so much so that you tend to live in your head most of the timeYou have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Multi-elemental!

Now this settles it... I'm multi elemental! I'm a fire hand, air sign, water demeanor, metal monkey XD

Your Element Is Earth

You are super productive and you are able to think anything through. Focused and super charged, your instincts are a good guide for your next step.

What's Your Element?

Endorphins are your bestfriend

I had another depression attack this afternoon. I dunno what triggered it but I'm beginning to miss my ex-bestfriend Jerry. I look back at the times we shared together and I wonder why I forced him to finally let me go. He was a lot of firsts for me. The first friend who defended me, who took me in his family and called me his brother, who shared his dreams with me, who I really cared about... and the first ever bestfriend in my life. He got too dependent on me and he was beginning to become impossible to handle that he was slowly morphing from bestfriend to leech. It was one of my worsts that I spent 40 minutes on my celphone talking to him saying goodbye while crying immensely. That was 8 months ago...

Eric and I started going for doubles again in Dance Maniax 2nd mix J-append. It was hellafun! It was one of those days that I felt great (amidst my cough) that Eric and I actually put on a show. It was kinda embarassing since there were a lot of people watching us... but my Libran trait kicks in. I love putting on a show. :D Eric is a gemini, however... but Librans and Geminis do well together. (It's a fact I swear! Besides, Eric is just a good friend)

I decided to text a couple of old friends about a get together. Keech, an old crush, texted me back and it's nice to know she's doing well. Too bad she can't go this sat since it's her brother's bday. That made me feel better. :) Played Dance Dance Revolution Max 2 and unlocked a couple of nice kick ass songs that are good for clubbing. I think I'll download the mp3s and use them for my portfolio exhibit next term.

A potential love life may blossom soon. I'm not gonna hope but I do wish something wonderful will happen.

Finished my workout and I feel great. Endorphins are your best friend. XD

Mood: Wonderful

Listening to: Bad Routine by DJ Spugna

I just updated the class egroup (since's I'm the organizer for it...) and our prof sent us this e-mail that really made me feel lucky. The quotation at the bottom really made sense and I feel like making it into my new mantra.

"- work as if you don't need money,
- love as if
nobody had ever hurt you,
- dance, as if nobody can see you,
- sing, as if nobody can hear you,
- live, as if the Earth
was heaven."

I wish it said who quoted it...

Dubbing with Jana was really good! Gerr and I were so shocked to such talent that it inspired us so much. At least now I know who to call and dub Dianne when my work gets published and an animated series is made. She's so good you guys should hear it, she just went through a difficult line and spoke as if there was no tomorrow. One take was all it took.

Today, my driving lessons ended and I'm happy and proud to say that I can now drive. YAY! But not too well yet. I need to practice and I want to get a new car. Preferably a Blue Honda Jazz (BJ will kill me if he finds out since it's his dream car). I think I'll take the pajero and practice around the Fairview area.

My muscles are still sore but I'm happy about them. It's a sign that my workouts are effective and I should expect some actual muscles to appear in a week or so if I keep up my training. If I don't, Eric will scold me to submission and it's something I can't lie about since it's a case of "the evidence is right before your eyes".

Mood: Happy

Listening to: Brazilian Anthem by Berimbau '66

Sick, sick, sick...

I'm sick right now... *sigh*. Throat hurts a bit, feeling feverish and a bit dizzy. The other night I didn't get any sleep at all. It was one of those Donald Duck nights when external forces made noise. It was absolutely annoying. If it's not the cat it's the dog, if it's not the neighbor fixing his motorcycle at 3 AM it's the nearby factory.

My arm and chest muscles are aching too. That really did it. Lack of sleep and the weather and classroom being very cold didn't help at all. Good thing Alvin was supportive. Maybe he really does need a friend and I need to accept that being friends aren't that bad. Gave him a hug and I told him I missed him. He replied "I'm always here just waiting for you". Things went nicely after that and it gave me a good night's sleep. Too bad I'm sick now when I woke up.

I have to be in Driving Class in 40 minutes. It's my last session and a bit very excited. Can't wait to get a license soon, YAY! Then I have to bring my laptop to school and meet with my friend Jana who's doing Dianne's voice for thesis. I hope things turn out well. Good thing Elaigh cancelled her dubbing session for Rose since she's sick too. I hope she gets well soon. I wanna go home soon afterwards and rest.

Haven't played Ragnarok in 5 days... Strangely, I don't miss the game that much. :)

Mood: Sick

Listening to: Sounds from the TV (my brother's watching NBA)

Driving vampires in dreams

Driving lessons today weren't so bad. I was happy to see that Mang Boy was the one that taught me today. Maneuvering and going reverse were pretty easy since I used to practice before. Friday's gonna be my last day and will very soon be a licensed driver! YAY! :D Too bad I can't get a new car since I asked for a laptop late last year and it's one of those things that's "it's either this or that".

I just realized that I wont be able to spend time with Milo, Mark, Ton, BJ and the others at Mike's condo like before because of my schedule. Maybe it's for the best since my cleansing period isn't finished yet. Actually it's more like it just began. It's like I'm going into a cocoon to focus on other things that I neglected last year. I'm avoiding people that became emotional vampires to me until I get things settled with myself since I'm turning into an emotional vampire myself. I don't want to be that type of person...

I had a weird dream last night... it's been a while since I had one so it was kinda fun. I dreamnt I was in Benilde and there's this cute girl that seemed to like me. I think she's hot and it's rare that I fall for a girl with short hair. I asked myself why not go for it and others were like telling me to ask her out. So there we we're, this nameless girl and I, embracing in a secluded hall at school and I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend. She said yes so I was like WOOHOO!! I wanted to text everyone I knew that I now have a wonderful girlfriend. But me being bisexual thought if this was what I wanted. I felt restless until I wished I didn't ask her out. Then there's this scene that we we're at the park and it was a magical moment where clouds and sparkling lights were around and for the first time I saw my girlfriend to be so beautiful that it made me cry.. and I fell IN love and this time it was real and I didn't want to let her go. Weird thing is, I soon find out she's pregnant and it wasn't mine but her ex's. To take the responsibility or not was the question... will I be able to take care of a child that wasn't mine? Then I woke up.

It was nice to be in a relationship even if it was a dream. It's sad when I think about it. It also raised a lot of questions about myself. Am I really bisexual? Am I gay, queer or straight? Only I can answer that of course but my friend Rojine told me that all I needed to do was pray and God will direct me to my true self. I'll still go with being bisexual until I find THE ONE I guess...

Mood: Mixed

Listening to: You are the Universe by The Brand New Heavies

Finished Megaman X8 the other night. It's actually easier than the rest of the megaman x games out there. So there I was, beat the game and after a huge sigh of relief I eagerly await the ending cg animation. BAM! It hung. Pucha, badtrip ako sobra. So this time I decided to play it again and beat it. I tried tilting the ps2 hoping it would work and it hangs again... Out of frustration, I decided to try it one last time but with me frivolously mashing the start button so the cg scene will skip and the game will continue so I can access and use the female counterparts of X, Zero and Axl. Fortunately it did and I'm now trying to play the game in hard mode. Kaso I wanted to see that cg so bad... Wawa naman si Axl... *sniff* sya pa naman fave ko.

Met with Yvette earlier and had merienda at Deli France in Greenhills. I had to give her something for her job interview for San Miguel Corp and to plan that mini-reunion. I was trying to see if she can find me a great voice actor for Jon's role in thesis. I hope meeting with my old friends from DLSU main can be fulfilling. Honeylette's good with music... maybe she can help me compose stuff on my organ... er.. keyboard.

Let my cat out the other day and to my surprise, other cats came flocking in the backyard. It's like a kitty dating convention. Buti pa pusa ko. He's getting all the action and pussy he can get! Maybe now the damn thing will pipe down at night.

Still have to do stuff for thesis. Ciao!

Mood: Busy

Listening to: For Fruits Basket - Fruits Basket Opening Song

Must get motivated

Didn't go to driving school today because I had to record something for Yvette. Honestly, I wish I get Man Boy again tomorrow... either that or I'll quit and practice on my own. I have brains. I'll use them!

Met with Eric at SM Fairview again and had dinner at Chef de Angelo. Since he bodybuilds and since he's the one who suggested the Body Sculpting Bible for Men book, we discussed it and he gave me great tips and advice. He even kept me from going for the cheesecake. Sob. Oh well, the end result means more to me than quick fixes.

We decided to play Dance Maniax at the arcade much to our annoyance, Topet is back. Eric hates the guy with a passion so much that he got a full combo of 1575 from all 5 songs. Whee! I'm so proud of Eric! XD I treated him to Starbucks to celebrate. :) We saw Charlou, an old classmate from Highschool, and her husband. She's already 8 months pregnant and she's expecting a girl. I almost slapped her when she said I became fat. -_-

Got into a pit of depression but Eric lifted me from it. Spent the last few minutes in SM at Chris Sports Plaza and bought myself 4 5-kilo weight plates and 2 dumbell handle bars. Tomorrow my new life begins so I need to sleep early too. I'll see if I can get the body same as the male Whitesmith's. Hehe...

Mood: Determined

Listening to: Everlasting Love by Gloria Estefan

Sucks to be single...

I didn't go to driving lessons this morning since I woke up at 9:15 and my class started at 9... @_@

Yvette texted and asked for help if I can record cooking shows on the Lifestyle Network for her application in San Miguel Corp. It took a great deal of willpower for me not to go gaga and run towards SM Fairview and binge at Congo Grille. How was I able to stop myself?
1) I'm on a diet
2) I feel like a loser eating alone... *sniff*
3) The money I'm gonna use on the food there should go to my date funds (if I find a date)

Yvette's been asking me when our next get together will be. I miss my friends from DLSU Main and it's kinda sad that they're all working now while I'm still stuck in my last year in CSB. She gave me Mel, Keech and Pam's cel numbers and I can't wait to contact them once I find a good place to meet. I'm happy for Lar that she's a DJ now on Magic. At least she's doing something fun and I'm very happy for her. Honeylette's doing gigs now and I hope she'll have time. I get to handle the girls while Yvette will round up the boys. I miss the guys too.... JP, Phil, Red, Brian and Alvin Limon (another Alvin). I just feel intimidated since they all have jobs now. I'll get there, I know I will. It's my fault for slacking off but then again the course I'm in now is something I genuinely love.

I met with Ace and Gerr at school at 1 PM for thesis. Ace was to do one of my character's voices "Ailyn" (the intellectual) and she did her job rather well and it was an experience for her since it involved A LOT of exasperated screaming and sarcastic retorts with flaming emotional comedy. Recorded a lot of outtakes too so it's gonna be fun listening to them. I have to do three voices for the thesis tho... the roles of Nick (it's me 17 years old), Jon (the laid back athlete) and Heidrian (the witty brat). I'll see if I can find someone to do Jon's voice tho...

After a tiring recording session we ate at Red Ribbon. It's a place of sin, I tell you. Their grilled ensaymada with melted butter was purely evil and with me being a lowly human being ate a small portion of it. -_- So much for willpower.

Ace and I went to Shangri La to unwind. Got to play Percussion Freaks 9th mix again after a long time and I got a bit rusty. Hehe, at least I was able to finish a level 67 song (Tamayura in Advanced mode on 2.5 speed and auto-bass). I missed the songs there and for a song named "I'm a loser", the song is pretty good stuff.

I wanna make my move on someone now but I dunno if it's something I need to do now or if things need to settle down first. Ace advised me not to do anything for the mean time but be a friend. I'd like to be friends with that person although time isn't really make it easy on me. Sucks to be single. *sigh*

Mood: Down

Listening to: Dreams in the night

Mixed...

Just finished finalizing the scripting in Flash for the arguments for our thesis. MAN ALIVE, I love my work :D

I DID NOT like the instructor I had in Driving lessons earlier. I was hoping it was Mang Boy but they give me this schmuck. I didn't even try to get to know his name. I hope I get someone different tomorrow morning. I had half the mind to walk out that hour. But I have to admit, he made things clearer. I just didn't like the way he taught. Too maangas... and I hate maangas people. >_<

Finally got good downloads tonight. I've been downloading mp3s from Final Fantasy Advent Children in hopes of getting the piano version of the main theme and I did! WHEEEE!!! Now to copy it into my mp3 player and try to copy it in the keyboard. It's been a while since I played something GREAT on my keyboard. I should start playing at least once a week again... I used to play all the themes from Final Fantasy 6 to X-2 dunno if I can still tho @_@

I wanna make someone happy nowadays. I miss treating someone out to lunch or dinner. *sigh* I hate being single but I have no choice. Just because I'm not finding the right person right now doesn't mean I wont find him/her in the future. Maybe being single right now is a blessing since I'm working on thesis right now... but then again I hate going out alone and eating alone... and what Mark told me makes sense:

"It's not the question whether you are ready
for the relationship or not, the question is will you act on it..."

Mood: Mixed

Listening to: Final Fantasy Advent Children - Final Fantasy VII Main Theme (Piano Version) XD

Praying...

So gosh-darned tired.

I read a few chapters of that Body Sculpting Bible and it's an amazing book! Not only does it focus on getting a good body but it also focuses on health and discipline. I hope I'll say hello to new me before the june starts. XD

Ate at Wendy's with Mark and I had a great time. (He just saved me from an afternoon with Alvin, of course I had a great time). We talked about gym, experiences with relationships and ragnarok (always the geeky moment). He gave me good advice about relationships and he's actually good company. Despite his irrationality lies a good friend that shows his heart differently.

Made myself 20 minutes late for Mulbis class so I don't have to sit beside Alvin. Got to sit beside his blockmates and for the first day meeting them things went fine. Looks like I have PR skills that I didn't know existed. Hehe.

Received a text from my sis in law. My eldest bro needs to relax more and work less or else his right side will become paralyzed or even worse. I'm very worried about my brother since he's the one who really inherited dad's explosive temper. I've been praying all throughout the mrt ride back to Quezon Ave station. I don't want another person in my family to die...

Mood: Worried

Listening to: Paper Clouds by S.E.N.S.

Second day of school

Before anything else, i'd like to share this picture:

This is a picture of a character class is Ragnarok: the Whitesmith. It's the true testament that I'm bisexual since I cried myself to sleep looking at this picture and I enjoyed it 200%. ]

*Ahem*

I hate my cat. I feel like putting him in a pot with a heavy lid or something. It kept on yowling last night so I didn't get any sleep until I realized that the sky was already changing to sky blue. It wants to go inside the house but no. My brother brings his 2-year-old daughter, a little bundle of joy and kitties and toddlers do not mix. Second, the cat peed on my bed. For two weeks I had to sleep on the floor since the stink didn't go away after 6 washes. I think I'll let it out tonight. The thing must be sexually deprived and he needs to find kitty playmates or something.

This afternoon I was panicking on my first day in Driving school. My instructor is this middle-aged man named Mang Boy. He was silent, subtle and the type that will hit you with a heavy plank if you annoyed him with a single mistake. I had to be frank with him so I told him halfway towards the tutorial that I was nervous. Haha, Mang Boy didn't seem evil as I thought he'd be. 5 minutes before the lesson ended I already made him laugh with an old experience about a guy who wanted to apply as a driver at our company. The guy drove from Quezon City to Bulacan and back with the hand brake up! His excuse to that? "Kasi po nasanay ako magpasada ng right hand drive fx sa monumento". AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Utot nya. Things didn't seem so bleak and I'm looking forward to my next lesson on friday.

Before going to school I decided to look for that book my friend Eric wanted me to buy. Since I'm in my desperate search for the lean body + 6 pack abs, he told me (not suggest but told) to buy "Body Sculpting Bible for men" by Villepigue and Rivera. The book cost me 900 bucks at A Different Bookstore in Glorietta 3 and prayed it was worth it and it should! (I was running around G3 like a moron trying to find the place).

Big surprise when I stepped into school and I saw Milo there with Gerr at the huts. I ran like a chipmunk on high and hugged Milo (after I penetrated his hard case shield). We had to part ways after a while since Gerr and I had seminar class that day. Hoo boy, I thought to myself since seminar classes would be those 3 hour blah blah festivals. Wow, am I in a big surprise. The class was a hoot! JR, Mecca, Christine, Carlo, Jason and Krissy (the official transvestite of the MMA student body) was there. The prof, Miss Geray, was funny too so I had one of the best 2 hours of my life. It's like I never had so much fun in a class before. She asked us to write names of people we want to appear in talks so I suggested the following:

• Carlo Vergara author of Zhazha Zaturnnah and One Night in Purgatory
• Jessica Zafra ... twisted (nuff said)
• Maverick and Ariel (Miss Geray LOVED the idea LOL) for the purpose of aesthetics and there is a possibility they bring a camera and include it as an episode for one of their shows XD Now who doesn't want a little TV down time?
• Melanie Marquez (3 hours of her speaking in English is a treasure)

Someone suggested Sharon Cuneta. LOL. I'm gonna bring my CDs of her and have them autographed instantly (me being a Sharonian XD)

After the class, I made Mecca and JR listen to "Three Little Maids from School". At least THAT brightened up their evening a bit more. Gerr and I met up with Ton and Milo in front of the Multimedia Labs. We we're talking and suddenly Justin comes walking near us. Gerr was so happy since she finally got Justin to see that Milo is our friend once more. I just found it funny that she was doing bellydances with her middle fingers raised up while chanting "fuck you bastard" at Justin.

I hope my class with Alvin wont be bad. I wish there are people there I knew so I can hang with them than listen to Alvin talk about how funny his other friends are, sick sick doujinshis and meaningless anime.

Mood: Ecstatic

Listening to: Twinkle Star (forgot the artist) from Percussion Freaks 9th mix

First day of school for the 3rd term!

@_@

That is my expression for the day! @_@

I was supposed to get my hair done at David's Salon but the guy who usually does my hair is out. I thought wednesdays was his day off... must have changed it. I could have my hair done tomorrow before my first lesson in driving. A bit nervous about but WHOOEEE!!! My first official driving lesson! @_@

Question is should I get my hair done coz Gerr think it's already fine. I'm wondering if she was sincere since she just drank a bottle of San Mig Strong Ice... @_@

Gerr and I had our first class in Multim3, our last thesis subject and after that it's supposed to be smooth sailing. This is supposed to be her last term too and boy am I gonna miss her. :( We were dismissed early since we didn't bring our stuff to present so we have to be prepared for next week. We just went down the "huts" and talked. Man, I really don't want to be blockmates with Alvin this thursday but I have to stop running away from it. Maybe there really is no problem and I'm just making a big deal out of it. @_@

We're a bit worried about Milo tho since he should have been back in the country by now. I'm just telling myself that his flight was delayed or flights are prioritizing tsunami related problems. Anything could happen... it's Bahrain after all. @_@

I went dizzy after eating at Tropical Hut for a snack. Dang. My body's not used to it anymore since I didn't eat at a fast food place the entire break. I must lay off fast foods now I guess. For my last attempt to eat fast food, I tried out the Beef Prosperity burger at McDo. It's GOOD YA! UND YUMMY! Unfortunately I can eat that anymore... okay fine, once or twice a month. It's not good for my diet. @_@

Oh and I almost forgot: @_@

Mood: Playful

Listening to: Mr. Bobby from Percussion Freaks 9th mix

Dazed

Today is the official last day of my vacation and I dunno why I'm so tired and my back is killing me. I feel like sleeping early and try jogging tomorrow morning at 6 AM.

Gerr texted and she's pissed to find out Justin is her blockmate. I don't blame her. If I was in her place I'd freak too. The guy just screwed the us over 2 years ago. It's funny tho, Like what Jannie said when we had pre-Christmas lunch the other day at Itallianis in Glorietta. "My God it's been two to three years at si Justin pa rin pinaguusapan natin!".It's a perpetual compulsion like a Magic card "Discuss and bad mouth Justin when 3 or more players in the field WAS his friend". Haha, and we did. CD, Ace, Gerr, Jannie and I just HAD to talk about all the inane stupidity the guy did and how he almost destroyed our friendship. I just hope Gerr can take it. It took us a year to repair the damage Justin did.

I'll probably freak out on Thursday tho. Alvin is my blockmate in Mulbis1 and I dunno if I can take it after what happened to us. Maybe I can transfer to a different time slot. Agh... I feel like I can't see him yet until I've finally become secure. Just dunno with what. Until I found a good relationship? Until I got a kick-ass job? I guess I just need a little more time to let it go.

I bought myself a new pair of glasses since the old one got broken and my eyes got worse. I was beginning to read "bawal ang matulog dito" to "bawal ang mangitlog dito"; and I was beginning to confuse people from afar. -_- Almost got me into trouble at the office.

Oh, I colored a new artwork and posted it in Deviantart. The link there is in the links section of my blog so please check it out if you have the time. It's been a while since I colored in photoshop after all the flat 2D animations I've been doing for thesis. I was bugging Clarisse in YM while Rye was motivating me while coloring. Aquarians are so good when it comes to arts.

Mood: Tired

Listening to: Robinson by Spitz

Spring cleaning!

Here I am taking a break from cleaning my room. One nice thing about cleaning a room is that you unearth stuff that you thought you'd lost ages ago! Like my CDs for example. Right now I'm listening to Bust a Move 1 OST (Bust a Groove in english... that ultra cool dancing game). I really wanted to play the PS2 version, Dance Summit but never got a copy of it. I doubt it was pirated so I ought to buy one online. ^_^

*Sigh* Want to play the first 2 ps2 games again... too bad they don't work with my PS2 anymore. An online friend has a working copy of it, I hope he lets me play with it when I visit him one of these days :D

I'm still trying to find my best yoyo but I did find my old boomerang! YAY! It's a nice boomerang my Ate Cecel got for me from Australia (which I thought our old house boy stole). Now if only I had a yard big enough... I think I'll ask a couple of friends to accompany me to the huge fields of Ateneo, UP or UST to play with it. XD

Well, that's it for now. Better go back to cleaning. Ciao!

Mood: Playful

Listening to: Waratte Pon (Shorty and the EZ Mouse in English) "Shorty's theme" - Bust a Move OST

I wanted things to be simple again...

I decided to use my last 2 days of freedom for some serious bumming. Shaman king for the ps2 is a hoot! I just don't like the battle sequences... but the cut scenes are a hoot. XD

I woke up this morning to the sound of my celphone doing the message alert tone with weird laughter. BJ texted and he wanted me to join his new guild in Ragnarok, Knights Immortal where he is the guild master. I had it with all the politics and let's make new guilds that will eventually lead nowhere and destroy friendships. I don't think I wanna join that since I don't think I have enough time to play this coming term.

The sentai hasn't been doing very well for the past few years. First there was 6 of us and everything was so simple then. Richard's the goofy Chinese guy, Ace's the bright and multi-talented lady, Gerr's the sarcastic tomboy, BJ's the abraisive and official pilot of the gang, Alvin's the weird anime otaku and I'm the fruity backbone of the group.

That was two years ago.

Richard left coz we got into a big fight. What did I say about do not irritate librans under pressure. Well, Richard is also Libra and he's taking his thesis and I bugged him too much. Took me a year to get over that. I think he's starting to forgive me tho. He's replying to my messages now. Then Gerr and Ace became a couple and they sometimes drift into their own little world. I don't blame them but I do envy them. What can we do? They are so much in-love with each other and I think it's beautiful. I just wish I can find someone too and I'd ask if we can double date. Alvin is.. well... Alvin. He's stll a kid and he'd rather hang out with his gaming friends... and besides, something happened to us just 2 months ago so he's not the person I'd like to see right now. BJ gets too moody and I can't handle it since I'm worrying about a lot of stuff myself.

I think the group already decayed and it's like everyone has their own agenda. It's a good thing the honorary members like Nix, Gail, CD, Milo, etc aren't involved. I wonder how they are doing. Milo's supposed to come back from Bahrain on monday. I missed that guy. :)

I wanted things to be simple again.

This year, SCREW THE POLITICS!!! I just wanna be my own person and be more free willed. So LO AND BEHOLD MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION!!!! (yeah, I know this has a 70% chance of not happening but I wanna be determined too)

1) I will be fit and much healthier than last year
2) I will procrastinate less... (eventually... joke XD)
3) I will finish college this December
4) I will be a good driver
5) I WILL find a great guy/girl (which ever comes first)

Mood: Determined

Listening to: We are the Stars (full version) - Opening song of Ragnarok the Animation (Oh God, NOT THE SCQ VERSION! Pls. LANG, UTANG NA LOOB! @_@ )