Turon!

Dreams...

Lately I have been having weird dreams almost short of them being omens from the beyond. One particular dream that sent a chill down my spine is a dream that the devil was talking to me. It was a surreal world where my tasks were to commit acts of evil since I'm a devil too, I think. I was even given a huge spear. I did what I was told and after completing my acts of evil, everything resets and I start back from the beginning which means that my tasks kept on repeating themselves endlessly. That is until I decided to rebel and kill off the demons instead at the foot of a mountain.

You know what? The scenario didn't reset. I continued my journey up the mountain, down the mountain, through the forest and into the city killing every demon in sight with my spear... which was weird because most of those demons were very familliar faces.

The city itself was weird. A huge fountain was at the plaza where people throw their blood in while everyone struggled to crawl and beg. I dunno why but I just dipped the blade of the spear into the fountain and it absorbed all of the blood and light shone from the spear giving hope to all the people in despair in the city. That felt actually good...

I was about to continue my journey and I saw towards the horizon a glass staircase ascending towards the heavens. It was glorious and I couldn't wait to go up and see what was beyond. However, before I left the city the devil spoke to me again. I pointed the spear at him ready to attack him but he told me this:
"tsk tsk, hindi mo sinusunod ang utos ng panginoon natin. You succeeded in passing every test so far except for the first test of lust."
Instead of outright attacking me, he showed me a deck of cards and he made me chose one. The card said a warning that a disease will kill those close to me and who I care for. The devil asked me "alam mo ba kung kanino manggagaling ang disease?'

I knew that it will come from me.

The devil was about to infuse me with the disease but I woke up.

Interpretation: The devil was right about me not passing the test of lust without "restarting" from scratch. My past is shaded with the fact that I did sin but it took awhile to overcome that. It was the mountain. I'm not sure what going down the mountain and the forest meant but the city is where I built my repuation and created my sphere of influence. BJ said I was given the "spear of destiny" and a HUGE responsibility is upon me... it's probably an omen that I'm part of the holy war now. Using the "spear" I was able to shed light into those who know me. As for the disease... it's my rage. Beneath that exterior of smiles and green jokes lies rage without reason. I have to be careful not "contaminating" everyone around me or else it will spread like wildfire and it's probably true. Lots of people look up to me and I could start a good or bad ripple effect.

Sadly, it almost happened. The devil provoked me and I almost started a rebellion that can destroy the foundation of family I see now. Jenjen, Joseph and BJ know what I'm talking about. It was a rebellion based on hatred and it would have destroyed alot of lives.

Every night before I sleep, anxiety fills my heart awaiting the next omen that will guide or destroy me. The devil got to me first... but he wont own me in the end.

Shades...

I liked how I looked like at the launch. Hehe. I may not be the best dressed but I was one of the good looking ones. Naks! SYET! Yabang ko *lol* Nuff said.

pics can be found at my multiply site :) http://bluecarrot.multiply.com

The event was fascinating. I was expecting more people to attend but it was still a fun evening. I did NOT see any cocktails. I'm not even going to start with the first band. Robbie wanted to grab the mike and sing instead. I actually would... if only I was into punk. :p If they were singing Barry Manilow I wouldn't hesitate on stealing the spotlight. Hehe.

Here's a list of what I'm thankful for that day:
- I liked about the day is that I gained another "daughter" in the *blare of trumpets* SPO Royal Family aside from Sue (the naughty goth girl). Karleh joined our ranks as the ambassador of kink. Mwehehehehehe. Yes my darlings, make daddeh proud. Nyahahahahahahahahahaha >:)
- We got to dress up in Corporate Punk attire! Heehee. I wish we can do that everyday. :p
- Got to eat Lechon Kawali for free. :3
- Louella and the rest of the lit staff shone that night. Naks. :)
- CJ sang and Alana played
- I saw Sue get distressed... hehehe
- The photoshoot was complete madness!
and most importantly...
- I regained a weird but cool friend. :) (Happy birthday uli, tol! XD)

Well, that about wraps it up for the meantime :) To everyone reading this (from CSB), have a happy vacation. :

Mood: Tired but Happy
Listening to: Platina - Maaya Sakamoto
Now playing: Romancing Saga- Minstrel Song (ps2)

Nora Aunor nagpapabata?

Nora Aunor

Well, ang superstar na siyang pinakasikat noong mga 1970s, ay 50 years old na. Mayroon na siyang mga fine lines sa paligid ng kanyang mga mata, laugh lines sa paligid ng kanyang bibig, mga dark spots sa balat niya gawa ng allergy sa mga cosmetic na ginagamit niya. Kailangan na niyang paputiin ang mga dark lines sa leeg at kilikili niya.

Dahil dito nagpupunta siya for treatment kay Ellen Lising, may-ari ng Ellen’s Aesthetic Center sa Timog Ave., Quezon City. Si Lising, isang aesthetician, ay mayroon nang 20 years experience sa pagpapaganda ng mga kabababihan.

Sinabi niya kay Nora na magmumukha siyang 15 years younger kung susundin niya ang mga treatment na rekomendado para sa kanya. Isasailalim siya sa facials, laser treatment at micropeel treatment upang alisin and dead skin cells sa buo niyang katawan.

Ayon kay Lising naging mahirap ang pagsunod ni Nora sa mga treatment niya dahil malimit lumiban ang aktres sa kanyang mga schedule. “Kaya kalimitan ulit kami ng ulit sa mga ginagawa para sa kanya. We have to start from scratch again pag dumarating siya,” sabi ni Lising. “Kung gusto niya ng results, dapat maki-co-operate siya.”

Lising cannot make miracles. “I can only en-hance a woman’s beauty, make her look younger than her age, through facials and laser treatment. Pero walang perfect solution. Hindi ko maaalis ang mga linya sa mukha, but only to minimize them. Still and all I can bring back the bloom in a middle aged women.” Ang mga artistang naging customers na ni Lising ay tulad ng mga middle-age but beautiful Melanie Marquez, Alma Concepcion, Elizabeth Oropesa.

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galing sa
http://www.philippinestoday.net/2004/August/ent-3_804.htm

I find it harder to think of titles than anything else... @_@

Like what I told Pope over YM:
Nick: ... damn, I just realized I can't use "but you've got a girlfriend/boyfriend" comeback for arguments anymore
Pope: bakit naman?
Nick: it only works when the person using it is single XD

Yup that's right. Romance is in my air... (and hopefully this scatters around too, for my dear younger sisters Joanah and Jenjen, I hope and pray they find their loved ones someday). My beloved and I will spend our 2nd week in a loving, healthy and KINKY (joke) relationship by tue next week.

Wow... 2 weeks. I can't wait for the next month, next year... *sigh* Finally, in a relationship that actually feels 2 way!!! 25 years of waiting was soooo worth it.

Portfolio's going crazy and I'm getting a lot of mental blocks lately but it'll pass. I just need to create the basic framework and it's all smooth sailing from there. :)

I'm going geek mode for PS2 again since BJ brought me Sakura Taisen V. Love that series. :D

If you want to add me on your multiply account, go here http://bluecarrot.multiply.com

Listening to: Sakura Taisen V opening song - Chikyuu no Senshi (Warriors of the Earth)
Mo0d: Longing...

More news from the funny farm

I feel happy today... very happy actually. :)

Weeks ago I was such a mess. Now I feel like I can take on anything! Before I say why, just wanna point out a few things:

- Diana, a good friend from highschool and part of the Sailorteam, will be leaving for Bermuda today to work. I'll miss her and her taray moments. Kung kelan pa kami maghihiwalay dun pa kami naging close

-I am annoyed with another member of the Sailorteam. I will not disclose her name but she wants me to act as her "fiance" so she can avoid marriage proposals from guys at her office. Guys who are actually nice, down to earth, kind and loving. Honestly, I think she enjoys the rush of the chase. She's going to die alone and a virgin if she doesn't stop this nonsense.

- I celebrate my laptop since I finally named him! Yes, my laptop's name is RABBIT!!! Why? According to BJ, it is maintained by a Carrot (me), can be quick when it wants to be and it induces creation.

- I have a new companion too. Say hello to Cammy, my Graphire 3 Wacom Tablet. God, I love that tablet!!!! What Pope said was right, it did show my line art and compared to my old tablets, this one is now officially one of the best things I have in my life.

- I'm already in the process of making my new website. Just have to pay the monthly bill but I'll be moving pretty soon to -secret-.com. It'll showcase my works, my blog, my short stories, downloadable weird videos and songs, etc... Hopefully I'll give birth to it next month.

Okay.. now back to why I am very happy... SECRET!!!

Mood: Loved
Listening to: Taisetsu na Mono by Road of Major

Poem time XD

Beginning
- by Nick

I see myself beneath the darkness around
shivering with discontent
like a lost kitten without direction
Then once a stranger picked me up
and gently he embraced
a softer light appeared
turning darkness into a magical red night sky
crystalline stars gave birth to hope
filling me with tenderness
showering me with bliss
unable to contain myself
through one simple kiss
that marked the beginning
of a new found way home


Why I wrote this? Nothing much... Hehe :p

Oct 2

funny how I'd name this post oct 2... this date is a bit awkward for me...

This is my ex-bestfriend's birthdate. One of the few people that probably changed my life in more ways than one...

Growing up I never really had a best friend since most of my old "bestfriends" either left me or they weren't sentimental enough to see the importance of a bestfriend. That was until I turned 19 and met him. We were both out of school youths, I was soul searching while he was working at a local arcade. Dance Dance Revolution probably brought us together but what really kicked in is our desire for companionship. Since I was older by a year, I ended up advising him about a lot of stuff especially how scared he was when he thought he got someone pregnant.

Later on we became very close to the point he was proud to introduce me his family in Bulacan and show me how he grew up. When he introduced me to his old friends, they shunned me. I really didn't care so much but still, he defended me and took my side. I didn't have a dad anymore but his father opened his house to me and welcomed me as part of his family.

Soon we even talked about our futures and I was surpised to find out I was part of it. No one has done that for me before. He took care of me and even treated me to food whenever he gets his pay. Sure we get into fights about his smoking and my being too childish but we worked things out quickly. Even after I told him I was bi, he didn't judge me. He called me his "angel".

Unfortunately he lost his job and he tried so hard to get one but he couldn't make it. He lacked skill and his dreams were too big. I guess it all went downhill after the first time he asked me for some money. It created a chain of frustration to the point I was wondering if he was just using me. I became his "bank". The only times we would meet usually revolve around how he has this idea of starting a business so he needs cash. Me, being the fool who loved so much, helped out.

I wanted it to stop so at one point it did. He tried to resume our old friendship but it was different now. One thing led to another and we eventually became more than bestfriends. Yeah. This guy was the first guy in my whole life. Sadly, he was still financially troubled to the point that whenever he texts or calls, I get frustrated. So frustrated that it's all ready tearing me down. How bad was it? He's already dead weight.

So after building up my courage and resolve, we talked on the phone. After 1 hour of both of us crying on the phone I finally said goodbye and left him.

To everyone else it was a blessing but to me it was heartwrenching. I know it was for the best but it hurt then. He did show me what a true friend can do but it saddened me so much why our friendship ended that way. 5 years...

It's been 2 years since then. I'm doing quite well now. I still wonder where he is or what's he doing right now and there are times that I miss him. But now I'm more or less content. God showered me with better people who became my bestfriends. I read Carlo Vergara's One Night in Purgatory and it reminded me abit of him.

I think about it and if it weren't from him I wouldn't have seen the value of friendship or love... and I wouldn't have known not to fuse money with friendship. I wouldn't be a better person. Setting aside the pain, I'd like to thank him still and I wish him good luck with life...

Mood: I want to sneeze
Listening to: Somewhere in Time piano instrumental