Do I need my prozac again?

It's been 1 month since I moved in to my new home here in Taft and it's been one hell of a rollercoaster ride.

Some of the SPO people have been to the place and they loved it. :) Well it is indeed homey. We'll be expecting aspiring photographers to spend time in the condo for some nice shots of Makati at night.

Unfortunately, my mindset is having trouble adjusting to it. I got used to being alone at my home that I find myself doing things I don't want like blowing up temper-wise or crying. I don't miss my home or anything but I just couldn't find time to be with just myself anymore. I don't mind people coming over or hanging out with friends but sometimes I need the space so I suddenly bolt away and hide or something... and this upsets people around me...

There's a new form of stress and I don't know how to deal with it properly. I'll just take it one step at a time until I become normally placid again. As for now, I'll try to be optimistic once more and hope that things will be better with each passing day...

Mood: Mentally tired
Listening to: the sound of the wind

ps. This blog needs an overhaul... badly!!

Leaving home for a while...

In a few hours I'll be moving to a new place in Taft Ave. near my college.

*sigh*

I spent the last few hours walking around the house and silently looking at my room trying to reminisce.

Mixed emotions of jubilation, sadness and anxiety swirl in my mind and heart. Honestly, even though I constantly wished to move to a new place, it still pains me to leave my home. The place where I grew up, where I experienced a lot of cake and shit, and where I went away in a world of my own. Suffice to say, I was the king of my domain.

Some parts of me are still undergoing adolescent phases and leaving home is something I thought I was prepared to do. Fragments of being a spoiled brat still haunt me.

Admittedly, I'm scared shitless. But also hopeful. Maybe living with school mates will teach me new things like how to be more responsible. It's gonna be tough. Well, maybe.

Looks like a brand new adventure is in store for me and I'm not fully equipped... but once this journey ends I'll be fully equipped for the next adventure.

Mood: Mixed
Listening to: The silence of my room

Almost no time to blog na

well... ayun. The title says it all. Bakit nga ba?

First of all, my schedule:
Mon - 4:50pm - 9:00pm
Tues - 9:40am - 11:10am
Wed - 9:00am-12:00pm then 4:50pm-5:50pm
Thur - 9:40am-11:10am then 2:00pm-5:00pm
Fri - 9:00am-12:00pm then 4:50pm-5:50pm

Yes. I'm a fool for choosing morning classes amidst my reputation of being a late sleeper. Am I expecting any failed subjects by the end of the term? Let's hope not. After all, this IS my 2nd to the last term before I finally graduate.

Being lazy to wake up for class is a "luxury" I cannot afford anymore.

Being irresponsible is also a luxury I'm giving up.

On Jan 4, I was promoted as one of the top editors or "top ed" for the Benildean. Congrats to Louella and Joanah for being top eds too. The three of us now will undergo training and after 2 weeks, we will be finally given our respective roles.

Accepting the responsibility itself is a very big honor. It clouded my mind abit during the last weeks of December thinking that by becoming an associate editor because of Jenjen's recommendation my life will change. It'd be hectic, yes. But it'd be more fun and it'll help me be more assertive and responsible as a leader.

So far, everything seems to be doing well. Hell week is currently upon all of us. I need to check some more articles for editing, check illustrations and phots and watch over the layouting process.

Now with all this responsibility and tight schedule, you'd think I'm a moron for mixing this all up. Well, I'll be finally moving next week to a condo a block away from school. It's actually cheaper and less taxing to do that especially with the rate of gas + parking.

2006 is a mark that I should be looking at things in a more mature angle. It's gonna be harder but personally I should have been more responsible years ago. But I wont give up the child in me... Not now, not ever.

Mood: Hopeful
Listening to: Haru no Uta (Song of Spring) - Spitz