Waffle's World

Assorted Nuts online comic!

2008-09-18T01:39:00.002+08:00

Wow, it's been like 2 years since I last posted something here. It's good to know it's still alive... at least I can do some reminiscing.

Anyway, visit my online comics! Click on the image below. :)

goodbye old blog

2006-05-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

yes, after months of not being able to post I have to say farewell to this account. I'll still keep it for the memories...

starting next week, my new blog will be at http://humancelestials.com

It's also my new website featuring my artworks, blog, comic strips, stories, musings, etc...

when will it open?
estimated grand opening will be on May 15 :)

see you guys there!

Johari!

2006-03-29T19:16:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, visit this one :)

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Waffle_Nick

Oh yeah! Visit our exhibit ok? Check out this site for details!

http://www.geocities.com/continuumexhibit

Zaturnnah!!!

2006-03-04T15:11:00.000+08:00

Yes, I may not have gotten to reserve for a ticket for this hit comic turned musical by Carlo Vergara but thank God for waitlist! The musical was simply divine. Enough about the words, just view the pics :)

- Wilma Doesnt as Dina B and the gang... getting it on with Joseph XD

- Ricci Chan as Didi and us ... ampogi ni Caloy *lol*

- Agot Isidro as Queen Femina Suarestellar Baroux

- Me with Tuxqs Rutaquio as Ada and Eula Valdez as ZsaZsa Zaturnnah

- Me with two of the Amazonistas. Deeda Barretto, the one who played Vilma S. (the one on the right), was spectacular. (Wah, blurred sya)

Sadly, I was expecting to see Mr. Carlo Vergara himself. Too bad. I wish I went to the first showing. :p I bought the soundtrack and it's worth the buy. :)

Mood: Ecstatic
Listening to: Nakakalokang Palakang Kokak (ZsaZsa Zaturnnah ze Muzikal OST)

Do I need my prozac again?

2006-01-31T21:07:00.000+08:00

It's been 1 month since I moved in to my new home here in Taft and it's been one hell of a rollercoaster ride.

Some of the SPO people have been to the place and they loved it. :) Well it is indeed homey. We'll be expecting aspiring photographers to spend time in the condo for some nice shots of Makati at night.

Unfortunately, my mindset is having trouble adjusting to it. I got used to being alone at my home that I find myself doing things I don't want like blowing up temper-wise or crying. I don't miss my home or anything but I just couldn't find time to be with just myself anymore. I don't mind people coming over or hanging out with friends but sometimes I need the space so I suddenly bolt away and hide or something... and this upsets people around me...

There's a new form of stress and I don't know how to deal with it properly. I'll just take it one step at a time until I become normally placid again. As for now, I'll try to be optimistic once more and hope that things will be better with each passing day...

Mood: Mentally tired
Listening to: the sound of the wind

ps. This blog needs an overhaul... badly!!

Leaving home for a while...

2006-01-23T09:37:00.000+08:00

In a few hours I'll be moving to a new place in Taft Ave. near my college.

*sigh*

I spent the last few hours walking around the house and silently looking at my room trying to reminisce.

Mixed emotions of jubilation, sadness and anxiety swirl in my mind and heart. Honestly, even though I constantly wished to move to a new place, it still pains me to leave my home. The place where I grew up, where I experienced a lot of cake and shit, and where I went away in a world of my own. Suffice to say, I was the king of my domain.

Some parts of me are still undergoing adolescent phases and leaving home is something I thought I was prepared to do. Fragments of being a spoiled brat still haunt me.

Admittedly, I'm scared shitless. But also hopeful. Maybe living with school mates will teach me new things like how to be more responsible. It's gonna be tough. Well, maybe.

Looks like a brand new adventure is in store for me and I'm not fully equipped... but once this journey ends I'll be fully equipped for the next adventure.

Mood: Mixed
Listening to: The silence of my room

Almost no time to blog na

2006-01-17T08:30:00.000+08:00

well... ayun. The title says it all. Bakit nga ba?

First of all, my schedule:
Mon - 4:50pm - 9:00pm
Tues - 9:40am - 11:10am
Wed - 9:00am-12:00pm then 4:50pm-5:50pm
Thur - 9:40am-11:10am then 2:00pm-5:00pm
Fri - 9:00am-12:00pm then 4:50pm-5:50pm

Yes. I'm a fool for choosing morning classes amidst my reputation of being a late sleeper. Am I expecting any failed subjects by the end of the term? Let's hope not. After all, this IS my 2nd to the last term before I finally graduate.

Being lazy to wake up for class is a "luxury" I cannot afford anymore.

Being irresponsible is also a luxury I'm giving up.

On Jan 4, I was promoted as one of the top editors or "top ed" for the Benildean. Congrats to Louella and Joanah for being top eds too. The three of us now will undergo training and after 2 weeks, we will be finally given our respective roles.

Accepting the responsibility itself is a very big honor. It clouded my mind abit during the last weeks of December thinking that by becoming an associate editor because of Jenjen's recommendation my life will change. It'd be hectic, yes. But it'd be more fun and it'll help me be more assertive and responsible as a leader.

So far, everything seems to be doing well. Hell week is currently upon all of us. I need to check some more articles for editing, check illustrations and phots and watch over the layouting process.

Now with all this responsibility and tight schedule, you'd think I'm a moron for mixing this all up. Well, I'll be finally moving next week to a condo a block away from school. It's actually cheaper and less taxing to do that especially with the rate of gas + parking.

2006 is a mark that I should be looking at things in a more mature angle. It's gonna be harder but personally I should have been more responsible years ago. But I wont give up the child in me... Not now, not ever.

Mood: Hopeful
Listening to: Haru no Uta (Song of Spring) - Spitz

Akemashite omedetou gozaimasu!

2005-12-31T23:37:00.000+08:00

Wow! It's been a whole year since I started blogging! The year has been kinder to me than last time... I think I was having new year at Rune Midgard while playing Ragnarok online. /swt

Anyhoo... let's try to balance out the year of the cock .. er.. rooster then!

Things I'm not thankful for:

- weaker health
- getting into a driving accident
- losing the time to work out
- procastination
- not having enough time to greet friends in deviantart
- getting into fights and letting my pride take advantage of me

Things I'm thankful for:

- Getting into a very important and loving relationship
- Actual dating
- Meeting new friends I'd treasure in the SPO (SPO ROYAL FAMILY FOREVER!!!)
- Making people happy
- Giving encouragement to friends
- Getting encourgaed by friends
- Being part of the SPO
- Realizing my potentials in life
- Redesigning character costumes
- Giving more depth to my 7 different sides
- Sentai reuniting once more with the return of Richard
- Milo getting a girlfriend
- BJ learning to take risks and learning love
- Ace and Gerr getting a job
- Diana and Charisse finding jobs abroad
- Pope and Jgo getting it on :p
- Failure in Portfol but teaching me a valuable lesson and rising into an even better artist
- Learning how to drive... driving DOES get you one step closer from being single
- Jazz and opening up to new forms of music
- Getting closer to God
- Being wiser
- Dance Dance Revolution 9th mix
- Online shopping
- The family business is still going strong
- Ayutthaya at SM Fairview!!!
- Leading a better and clean life without lies
- Not manipulating anyone anymore

Things I hope for this 2006:

- I become a better artist and person
- I finally graduate soon
- Stronger and passionate love with my beloved
- I get an apartment
- I get a job that can support me and my love
- I get better a percussion freaks and guitar freaks
- I get all original DVDs of Sailormoon and Friends
- I get an original copy of Kingdom Hearts 2 and Final Fantasy XII
- More stronger bonds between friends and family
- Meeting new friends
- A new car!
- Better profits in our family business
- LEGALIZE SAME SEX MARRIAGES HERE IN THE PHILLIPINES!!!

Hopefully the year of the Dog will be a better year for everyone. Happy New Year and thanks everyone for making this year a meaningful one. :) Love you all!

Mood: Ecstatic
Listening to: We Are by Terra

Belated Merry Christmas post

2005-12-27T21:15:00.000+08:00

Portfol:

I got a 3.5 for all my efforts. I'm satisfied with it but there's always something in me that hoped I got a 4 for it. Oh well... at least all I have left to worry about it Exhibit. The parting words the panel said to me gave me great encouragement. Not exactly world domination but... atleast I'll make sure that everyone who know me will be proud of me in the near future.

Christmas:

Christmas this year was better than last year. We may not be that many unlike before but having Christmas with family is way better than spending it alone while texting and chatting with other bisexuals online. Whee... Like that ever made me feel complete. I got a nice pair of Dupe orange sandals from kuya Joel, a white tee from Kuya Arnel, boxer shorts from my aunties and a cash envelope from my mom containing a VERY generous amount of money.

Even the Christmas parties are better (save for that boo-boo I made during the OSA presentation). I got chicken stuffed toys from BJ and Jenjen, a bitchy t-shirt from Jgo, condoms from Di... (kinky!), Corkboard/whiteboard from Kim and an original dvd of 13 going on 30 from my sweetie. I also got a cool orange bag from Tomato. I cried during the party tho since I got sad that Jenjen, Jgo, Kim, Jaja, Irene and Di will be graduating. I was happy that time too since someone else was happy too... someone dear to me.

Speaking of which, that person took me to dinner on an all you can eat salad with steak and seafood. It's the first time anyone has taken me to dinner and it felt nice...

The eternal dreamers mini-party was very nice too. Gerr got me this kinky keyboardist t-shirt, Milo got me a black shirt with a cool insignia and Ace got me Card Captor Stickers and Notebook. Hee... I'm so happy for Milo that night coz he brought his gf along! Chad is nice and her chemistry with Milo is just too cute. :3 Cheers to Milo and Chad. (Chad is a girl btw...)

Reunions and all that crap:

I dread reunions. It's that time of the year when nosy and insensitive relatives get the privilage of asking you questions like "may girlfriend ka na ba?" or "graduate ka na ba?" and stuff like that.

Both reunions from my father and mother's side happen right after Christmas. This time, the reunion on my mother's side went first. It was a crappy time at first but it got better towards the end. One of my uncles have this fun way of giving out aguinaldos that is played out like a raffle system. He calls how much money is at stake and he draws one of our names from a ballot box. The amount of money can be as ridiculously low as 25 centavos and as high as 500 pesos. Every year I was usually the unlucky one who went home with 5 pesos, 20 pesos or even 10 cents. This year, I got the 500 :D Whee!!!

Maybe the night wasn't so bad after all.

Sick:

*sigh* I think I'm getting too stressed and fatigued for my own good. I had a fever that almost went up to 40 degrees. It was horrible coz I was freezing so much and at one point I started to puke blood. After alot of medication and medical help my condition was stabilized and looks like I'll be healing soon.

I think with all the driving and lack of sleep plus the stress and fatigue is finally getting to me. I'm not getting that much nutrients from what I eat so looks like I need to take care of myself, pronto. I need to get back to working out again... and hopefully I'll be getting a new apartment soon near CSB.

As much as I hate to admit it, I dont like travelling and driving anymore.

Listening to: Kiss me Sweet
Mood: Dizzy

strange things are happening...

2005-12-10T02:02:00.000+08:00

The wheel of fate and I

Funny about how things seem to go your way at first then end up going wrong next. Take monday for example. I was overjoyed to find out that Portfol panel defense has been moved by 9 days from the first date given. The news made me into a raving lunatic jumping bean with glee. 3 hours later I found myself in a state of shock since I got into a car accident. I suffered half of emotional trauma and half humiliation since I hit something. Good thing the guy in the van was nice...

Boohoo at the movies

This is the first time I ever experienced watching a movie in the cinemas for 3 straight days with my beloved.

Chicken Little : true testament that majority of 3D movies are nothing but sight gags without the proper presentation of the foundation of the movie itself which is the story line. I think paying 120 bucks at Pioneer was a waste. Fortunately since I saw that with my beloved it was worth it. We could have done better stuff inside the cinema if it weren't for the Japanese family beside us and several couples we offended.
Just Like Heaven: now this is where the worth from paying 120 bucks at Chicken Little paid off. I loved this movie. Gripping story line, sweet and tender moments, psychological angles, nice romantic twists, jiving comedy, Reese Witherspoon and Mark Ruffalo starring in it (not to mention the lighter side of spirit apparitions). It's all in the package. I'm a sucker for chick flicks. This made me jerk a tear or two. It was a very fun date and we strolled all over the mall until 9:15.

Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Olivarez: Now this made me cry. A very touching story and it hit me right in my full-sized aortic pump. Seriously, I highly recommend watching this one and screw you if you're a homophobe. Saw this with Bordge and BJ along with my beloved. Teehee. And it was the perfect day to end the horrid day.

Encounters with WTF!?

I don't get this at all... Recently my ability to sense and see paranormal activity has increased and I am not liking what my senses tell me. Floating heads, men in red, "misplaced" shadows, spirits hitching a ride inside the vehicle, "fake" cats, etc. Even more stranger, why do we see these things around the Cainta area particularly Vista Verde? Was there something that happened in that place years ago? Why all the undead activity? Even BJ is getting annoyed with it and if only we could close it our gifts/curse. These things apparently are even breaking through my barriers... especially that damned cat. It broke my barriers...

I suggested if Spirit Questors can handle these but BJ protested against it since those people use occult as a weapon similar to those of the metaphysical. I'll just have to rely and strengthen my barriers that run on faith and prayer...

Mood: ZOMG!

Listening to: Chikyuu no Senshi - Sakura Taisen V opening song

I hate thinking of titles

2005-11-28T00:25:00.000+08:00

I used to think that being in a relationship means that your status quo in society will be elevated. Sure, the first two weeks in my relationship with my beloved was like

"ZOMG!!! MAY JOWA AKO!!!! FINALLY!!!"

Lately I've been thinking about the events that begin to unfold in our lives as a couple. I had to admit that what happened between us wasn't planned at all. Those who knew about it may even think that it was too quick or too easy. At some point I thought about it too.

Getting into fights can be healthy actually. It made us understand each other more and my purpose with that person. We really are placed together to make each other grow into better people... and I'm happy with that. It made me love that person even more.

Incidentally... I have a major crush on one of the people from FRIENDS because of that person.

Anyhoo... it was a hectic weekend. I just passed an article to my superiors and finally submitted my Christmas artwork so I'm off Jaja's hit list. -whew- Got a bit cranky too... so I'm sorry to anyone who I might have offended.

Good thing I wasn't born a girl or I'd be very unbearable during my monthly periods. Add another bitch into this world. But that's ok. I'm a he-bitch anyway. *lol*

Speaking of friends, I congratulate Joanah, Faitha and Jam for a job well done on getting their thesis endorsed. I wish you good luck on your defense. I also congratulate Jgo for using the school's legal system to take care of uber-bitch. Nyahahahahaha...

I was lucky to find a copy of FRIENDS season 10 at Astrovision last sat. It was well worth it. The final episodes of my most favorite sitcom made me cry and the gag reels were a hoot. It was nice watching the cast interviews where they say their final thoughts on the show. I want to complete the rest of the FRIENDS original dvds... I have season 7 too. 2 down, 8 to go.

DVD wish list -origs dapat- :
- Xanadu
- FRIENDS seasons 1,2,3,4,5,6,8 and 9 (puro pirated yung meron ako e)
- Shrek 1
- Madagascar
- Romy and Michelle's highschool reunion (ultra rare here in the phils)
- Sister Act 1 and 2
- Ferris Beuler's Day Off
- Oliver and Company (disney)
- Cinderella (disney)
- Mulan (disney)
- Prince of Egypt
- Miss Congeniality
- My Best Friend's Wedding
- 13 going on 30
- Liar Liar
- Bruce Almighty

well, that's all for now.. I guess.... :p

Mood: Playful
Listening to: Over the Rainbow by Parquets

Stuff from blogstuff.com

2005-11-20T17:32:00.000+08:00

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child.
Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.
You cherish all of the details in life.
Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

You Are Mud Pie

You're the perfect combo of flavor and depth
Those who like you give into their impulses

What Kind of Pie Are You?

You Are 13 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh.
You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum.

Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

Arty Kid

Whether you were a drama freak or an emo poet, you definitely were expressive and unique.

You're probably a little less weird these days - but even more talented!

Who Were You In High School?

Your Birthdate: September 26

You lucked out the the skills to succeed in almost any arena.
Put you in almost any business or classroom, and you'll rise to the top.
You're driven and intense, but you also know when to kick back and cooperate.
Your ability to adapt to almost any situation is part of what's going to make you a success.

Your strength: Your attention to detail

Your weakness: You can be a little too proud of your successes

Your power color: Turquoise

Your power symbol: Arrow pointing up

Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your French Name is:

Alain Bergeron

What's Your French Name?

after weeks of having no time at all...

2005-11-20T00:02:00.000+08:00

whew... I finally found the time to write here again... sorry for the delay... It's been a very busy month. Brr... it's getting colder now and my body's reacting to the change in temp so I'm getting the sniffles at random moments of the day.

Screwy Keyboard
- I dunno why it is impossible to simultaneously press the left shift or ctrl buttons + the letters "b", "g", "f", "r" and "t". My equillibrium has been shot and my speed typing and short cut key orientation 101 has been quartered. My left hand's magic has been ruined so I can't work fast with Photoshop or Flash until I get the hang of using the right shift and ctrl buttons. *sigh*

Parquets
- I've been hunting for mp3s of old pop'n music classics through Limewire. As if fate or/and the other guy who's supposed to be sharing the files were teasing me, my most favorite song ever in all of "Pop'n music-dom" is sitting idly in my pc with only 83% for almost a week now. It's the full version of the song too so imagine my irritation.

Over the Rainbow by Parquets. A Japanese pop group known for their "airy" and childlike music... and to those who remember Tonde Buurin (Super Boink here in the Phils), they're the same group who sang the opening song "Ai wa kakkowarui".

Out of "desperation", I ordered one of their albums straight from cdjapan.co.jp and I should be expecting the cd in 3-5 working days. Hopefully I dont have to pay anything at the post office or heads WILL roll.

Gerr's bday "feast" XD
- the gang and I ate at Sbarro at Megamall with Gerr treating. It's the first time I experienced getting served with an actual whole pizza from Sbarro. Ace and I were disappointed that Spinach pizza wasn't available. I lurve that pizza. :3

What really rocked that meeting was that Richard joined us and it's been 2-3 years since we last saw each other... and the last time we saw each other was not too happy either. BJ had to leave earlier tho. Boohoo. CD joined us after dinner. Milo, Ace, Gerr, Richard, CD and I hung out the arcades tho before going home. It was pretty cool. We plan to go shopping at St. Francis next next week for a pre-Christmas shopping thing.

Portfol
- I'm pretty psyched that my portfol schedule has been changed so I dont have to worry about completing it until december. I could finish everything now in a day or 2 hoping that everything works according to my plan.

well... hopefully...

All I need to do is to show my designs for collaterals and hope they get approved. I have to face a certain amount of embarassment tho since I will be buying that album of Jolina Magdangal with the CD encased in a tin can. I'll spray paint the can and put in designs... unless someone suggests a place where I can buy those without any designs.

Mood: tired...
Listening to: Atlantic Spotted Dolphin (it's an actual song)

Turon!

2005-10-29T01:51:00.000+08:00

Dreams...

Lately I have been having weird dreams almost short of them being omens from the beyond. One particular dream that sent a chill down my spine is a dream that the devil was talking to me. It was a surreal world where my tasks were to commit acts of evil since I'm a devil too, I think. I was even given a huge spear. I did what I was told and after completing my acts of evil, everything resets and I start back from the beginning which means that my tasks kept on repeating themselves endlessly. That is until I decided to rebel and kill off the demons instead at the foot of a mountain.

You know what? The scenario didn't reset. I continued my journey up the mountain, down the mountain, through the forest and into the city killing every demon in sight with my spear... which was weird because most of those demons were very familliar faces.

The city itself was weird. A huge fountain was at the plaza where people throw their blood in while everyone struggled to crawl and beg. I dunno why but I just dipped the blade of the spear into the fountain and it absorbed all of the blood and light shone from the spear giving hope to all the people in despair in the city. That felt actually good...

I was about to continue my journey and I saw towards the horizon a glass staircase ascending towards the heavens. It was glorious and I couldn't wait to go up and see what was beyond. However, before I left the city the devil spoke to me again. I pointed the spear at him ready to attack him but he told me this:
"tsk tsk, hindi mo sinusunod ang utos ng panginoon natin. You succeeded in passing every test so far except for the first test of lust."
Instead of outright attacking me, he showed me a deck of cards and he made me chose one. The card said a warning that a disease will kill those close to me and who I care for. The devil asked me "alam mo ba kung kanino manggagaling ang disease?'

I knew that it will come from me.

The devil was about to infuse me with the disease but I woke up.

Interpretation: The devil was right about me not passing the test of lust without "restarting" from scratch. My past is shaded with the fact that I did sin but it took awhile to overcome that. It was the mountain. I'm not sure what going down the mountain and the forest meant but the city is where I built my repuation and created my sphere of influence. BJ said I was given the "spear of destiny" and a HUGE responsibility is upon me... it's probably an omen that I'm part of the holy war now. Using the "spear" I was able to shed light into those who know me. As for the disease... it's my rage. Beneath that exterior of smiles and green jokes lies rage without reason. I have to be careful not "contaminating" everyone around me or else it will spread like wildfire and it's probably true. Lots of people look up to me and I could start a good or bad ripple effect.

Sadly, it almost happened. The devil provoked me and I almost started a rebellion that can destroy the foundation of family I see now. Jenjen, Joseph and BJ know what I'm talking about. It was a rebellion based on hatred and it would have destroyed alot of lives.

Every night before I sleep, anxiety fills my heart awaiting the next omen that will guide or destroy me. The devil got to me first... but he wont own me in the end.

Shades...

I liked how I looked like at the launch. Hehe. I may not be the best dressed but I was one of the good looking ones. Naks! SYET! Yabang ko *lol* Nuff said.

pics can be found at my multiply site :) http://bluecarrot.multiply.com

The event was fascinating. I was expecting more people to attend but it was still a fun evening. I did NOT see any cocktails. I'm not even going to start with the first band. Robbie wanted to grab the mike and sing instead. I actually would... if only I was into punk. :p If they were singing Barry Manilow I wouldn't hesitate on stealing the spotlight. Hehe.

Here's a list of what I'm thankful for that day:
- I liked about the day is that I gained another "daughter" in the *blare of trumpets* SPO Royal Family aside from Sue (the naughty goth girl). Karleh joined our ranks as the ambassador of kink. Mwehehehehehe. Yes my darlings, make daddeh proud. Nyahahahahahahahahahaha >:)
- We got to dress up in Corporate Punk attire! Heehee. I wish we can do that everyday. :p
- Got to eat Lechon Kawali for free. :3
- Louella and the rest of the lit staff shone that night. Naks. :)
- CJ sang and Alana played
- I saw Sue get distressed... hehehe
- The photoshoot was complete madness!
and most importantly...
- I regained a weird but cool friend. :) (Happy birthday uli, tol! XD)

Well, that about wraps it up for the meantime :) To everyone reading this (from CSB), have a happy vacation. :

Mood: Tired but Happy
Listening to: Platina - Maaya Sakamoto
Now playing: Romancing Saga- Minstrel Song (ps2)

Nora Aunor nagpapabata?

2005-10-20T17:15:00.000+08:00

Nora Aunor

Well, ang superstar na siyang pinakasikat noong mga 1970s, ay 50 years old na. Mayroon na siyang mga fine lines sa paligid ng kanyang mga mata, laugh lines sa paligid ng kanyang bibig, mga dark spots sa balat niya gawa ng allergy sa mga cosmetic na ginagamit niya. Kailangan na niyang paputiin ang mga dark lines sa leeg at kilikili niya.

Dahil dito nagpupunta siya for treatment kay Ellen Lising, may-ari ng Ellen’s Aesthetic Center sa Timog Ave., Quezon City. Si Lising, isang aesthetician, ay mayroon nang 20 years experience sa pagpapaganda ng mga kabababihan.

Sinabi niya kay Nora na magmumukha siyang 15 years younger kung susundin niya ang mga treatment na rekomendado para sa kanya. Isasailalim siya sa facials, laser treatment at micropeel treatment upang alisin and dead skin cells sa buo niyang katawan.

Ayon kay Lising naging mahirap ang pagsunod ni Nora sa mga treatment niya dahil malimit lumiban ang aktres sa kanyang mga schedule. “Kaya kalimitan ulit kami ng ulit sa mga ginagawa para sa kanya. We have to start from scratch again pag dumarating siya,” sabi ni Lising. “Kung gusto niya ng results, dapat maki-co-operate siya.”

Lising cannot make miracles. “I can only en-hance a woman’s beauty, make her look younger than her age, through facials and laser treatment. Pero walang perfect solution. Hindi ko maaalis ang mga linya sa mukha, but only to minimize them. Still and all I can bring back the bloom in a middle aged women.” Ang mga artistang naging customers na ni Lising ay tulad ng mga middle-age but beautiful Melanie Marquez, Alma Concepcion, Elizabeth Oropesa.

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galing sa
http://www.philippinestoday.net/2004/August/ent-3_804.htm

I find it harder to think of titles than anything else... @_@

2005-10-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

Like what I told Pope over YM:
Nick: ... damn, I just realized I can't use "but you've got a girlfriend/boyfriend" comeback for arguments anymore
Pope: bakit naman?
Nick: it only works when the person using it is single XD

Yup that's right. Romance is in my air... (and hopefully this scatters around too, for my dear younger sisters Joanah and Jenjen, I hope and pray they find their loved ones someday). My beloved and I will spend our 2nd week in a loving, healthy and KINKY (joke) relationship by tue next week.

Wow... 2 weeks. I can't wait for the next month, next year... *sigh* Finally, in a relationship that actually feels 2 way!!! 25 years of waiting was soooo worth it.

Portfolio's going crazy and I'm getting a lot of mental blocks lately but it'll pass. I just need to create the basic framework and it's all smooth sailing from there. :)

I'm going geek mode for PS2 again since BJ brought me Sakura Taisen V. Love that series. :D

If you want to add me on your multiply account, go here http://bluecarrot.multiply.com

Listening to: Sakura Taisen V opening song - Chikyuu no Senshi (Warriors of the Earth)
Mo0d: Longing...

More news from the funny farm

2005-10-05T12:05:00.000+08:00

I feel happy today... very happy actually. :)

Weeks ago I was such a mess. Now I feel like I can take on anything! Before I say why, just wanna point out a few things:

- Diana, a good friend from highschool and part of the Sailorteam, will be leaving for Bermuda today to work. I'll miss her and her taray moments. Kung kelan pa kami maghihiwalay dun pa kami naging close

-I am annoyed with another member of the Sailorteam. I will not disclose her name but she wants me to act as her "fiance" so she can avoid marriage proposals from guys at her office. Guys who are actually nice, down to earth, kind and loving. Honestly, I think she enjoys the rush of the chase. She's going to die alone and a virgin if she doesn't stop this nonsense.

- I celebrate my laptop since I finally named him! Yes, my laptop's name is RABBIT!!! Why? According to BJ, it is maintained by a Carrot (me), can be quick when it wants to be and it induces creation.

- I have a new companion too. Say hello to Cammy, my Graphire 3 Wacom Tablet. God, I love that tablet!!!! What Pope said was right, it did show my line art and compared to my old tablets, this one is now officially one of the best things I have in my life.

- I'm already in the process of making my new website. Just have to pay the monthly bill but I'll be moving pretty soon to -secret-.com. It'll showcase my works, my blog, my short stories, downloadable weird videos and songs, etc... Hopefully I'll give birth to it next month.

Okay.. now back to why I am very happy... SECRET!!!

Mood: Loved
Listening to: Taisetsu na Mono by Road of Major

Poem time XD

2005-10-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

Beginning
- by Nick

I see myself beneath the darkness around
shivering with discontent
like a lost kitten without direction
Then once a stranger picked me up
and gently he embraced
a softer light appeared
turning darkness into a magical red night sky
crystalline stars gave birth to hope
filling me with tenderness
showering me with bliss
unable to contain myself
through one simple kiss
that marked the beginning
of a new found way home

Why I wrote this? Nothing much... Hehe :p

Oct 2

2005-10-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

funny how I'd name this post oct 2... this date is a bit awkward for me...

This is my ex-bestfriend's birthdate. One of the few people that probably changed my life in more ways than one...

Growing up I never really had a best friend since most of my old "bestfriends" either left me or they weren't sentimental enough to see the importance of a bestfriend. That was until I turned 19 and met him. We were both out of school youths, I was soul searching while he was working at a local arcade. Dance Dance Revolution probably brought us together but what really kicked in is our desire for companionship. Since I was older by a year, I ended up advising him about a lot of stuff especially how scared he was when he thought he got someone pregnant.

Later on we became very close to the point he was proud to introduce me his family in Bulacan and show me how he grew up. When he introduced me to his old friends, they shunned me. I really didn't care so much but still, he defended me and took my side. I didn't have a dad anymore but his father opened his house to me and welcomed me as part of his family.

Soon we even talked about our futures and I was surpised to find out I was part of it. No one has done that for me before. He took care of me and even treated me to food whenever he gets his pay. Sure we get into fights about his smoking and my being too childish but we worked things out quickly. Even after I told him I was bi, he didn't judge me. He called me his "angel".

Unfortunately he lost his job and he tried so hard to get one but he couldn't make it. He lacked skill and his dreams were too big. I guess it all went downhill after the first time he asked me for some money. It created a chain of frustration to the point I was wondering if he was just using me. I became his "bank". The only times we would meet usually revolve around how he has this idea of starting a business so he needs cash. Me, being the fool who loved so much, helped out.

I wanted it to stop so at one point it did. He tried to resume our old friendship but it was different now. One thing led to another and we eventually became more than bestfriends. Yeah. This guy was the first guy in my whole life. Sadly, he was still financially troubled to the point that whenever he texts or calls, I get frustrated. So frustrated that it's all ready tearing me down. How bad was it? He's already dead weight.

So after building up my courage and resolve, we talked on the phone. After 1 hour of both of us crying on the phone I finally said goodbye and left him.

To everyone else it was a blessing but to me it was heartwrenching. I know it was for the best but it hurt then. He did show me what a true friend can do but it saddened me so much why our friendship ended that way. 5 years...

It's been 2 years since then. I'm doing quite well now. I still wonder where he is or what's he doing right now and there are times that I miss him. But now I'm more or less content. God showered me with better people who became my bestfriends. I read Carlo Vergara's One Night in Purgatory and it reminded me abit of him.

I think about it and if it weren't from him I wouldn't have seen the value of friendship or love... and I wouldn't have known not to fuse money with friendship. I wouldn't be a better person. Setting aside the pain, I'd like to thank him still and I wish him good luck with life...

Mood: I want to sneeze
Listening to: Somewhere in Time piano instrumental

I AM an Eternal Dreamer

2005-09-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

As you've all noticed, I was at that point where I was about to lower my sails of my ship in the sea of life.

I was this close to become a quitter. A "has been". A lost shimmering soul fading away.

I just realized how lucky I am to have friends with their ships silently sailing beside mine. I am still part of this small hopeful group called Eternal Dreamers... They never gave up on me the same way I never gave up on any of them and now they are willing to offer a hand if ever I had trouble steering...

My birthday marked the first time the sentai became one... and it also marked the beginning of the Eternal Dreamers...

Ace, BJ, Gerr, Milo... these people who stood by me through every crap I went through for many years still didn't give up on me even though I thought their ships have sailed on far from mine. Camaraderie, strength of will, brilliance, group dynamics and theraphy... these make us one. Even beyond the group of Eternal Dreamers sailed ships with their own quests offering laughter, friendship, comfort, love, etc... most of these people are from the Sailorteam and the SPO people.

I didn't realize but if I look from a bird's eye view of the sea of life, I have a whole armada sailing around me.

This post is a huge thanks to everyone... all my friends. I can't write down all of you but you know who you are.

Looks like I wont be quitting school or the SPO anymore. Hehe, BJ's right about his reply to my last post. What's life without a few challenges? Sure they're tough, but we're tougher!

I am a foolish dreamer ... and I am proud to be one because it keeps my sails bright and my heart young.

Mood: Rarin' to go
Listening to: Only Lonely Glory by Bump of Chicken

I need to be free again

2005-09-28T14:08:00.000+08:00

I used to be a loner...

One of the perks of being a loner is that your decisions will not affect others. No one is involved. Lately I've been hanging out with a lot of people and I've grown fond with most of them. My red string of fate is connected to scores of people now. I enjoy the company I get and the love I feel but I miss being alone.

I am free-willed and free spirited. Are these strings of fate tying me down? I hope not.

Lately I have been in a foul mood that I don't know what to do or think sometimes. I've been neglecting my job and studies. This is not right.

I know what to do and how I will live my life but due to a constraint called College, I get annoyed and I feel my growth is stunted. All my life I lived without relying on the "things I learned" from school. I can't write anymore, I can't compose songs anymore, I can't draw anymore... fuck. I don't know myself anymore.

Ace gave me one of the best birthday tributes tho. I taught people before to see the whimsical side of life. Why can't I do that for myself? Why can't I be like that again?

I miss me.

BJ told me that if I needed to give myself to think, I need to start form square one. I need a reset. I need to get away from alot of things...

Maybe I'll quit the SPO, maybe I'll quit school soon... maybe I'll move to the states next month to find myself.

Whatever I do with my life now... I just hope I regain that light I lost along the way...

Mood: I dunno what to feel
Listening to: Silence

Survey from Jgo... :D

2005-09-24T01:47:00.000+08:00

galing kay Jgo... hehe, wala lang

FACT 1:
- Name: Nick Barrameda
- Birth date: Sept 26, 1980 (lapit na noh?)
- What are you doing now: nagpapa-antok

FACT 2: Your?
- Most overused phrase(s): "hweh?", "ay...", "ay wala na..."
- Thoughts first waking up: gusto ko pa matulog...
- Usual bedtime: 1-3 am
- Most missed memory: when I used to be more freewilled and carefree

FACT 3: Preferences..?
- Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi (Diet)
- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
- Cappuccino or Latte: Latte

FACT 4: Do you?
- Smoke: dati...
- Sing: sa videoke, when I feel like it, pag nagdrdrive
- Have a crush: uu naman
- Do you think you're really in love: ahihihihihihihihihihi
- Want to get married: yes (mapalalaki o babae man basta mahal namin isa't-isa)
- Believe in yourself: but of course
- Get motion sickness: pag umiikot ng mabilis
- Think you're attractive: minsan... pag ok hair ko feeling ko gwapo na ako XD
- Think you're a health freak: somewhat
- Get along with your parents : yup... I love my mom so much
- Like thunderstorms: as long as the lightning bolts wont hit me
- Play an instrument: keyboards... konti drums

FACT 5: In the past month, you?
- Drank alcohol: nope
- Gone on a date: sadly, no (miss ko na makipag-date)
- Gone to the mall: oh yes, lalo na pag 20th of the month pag ok na uli credit card ko. Nyahahahaha.
- Eaten sushi: yup, dont like it dat much... except for salmon
- Been on stage: yep

FACT 6:
- Age you hope to be married: 28-38yrs old but whenever is fine.
- Number of Children: ... 4 sounds nice (adopted or reproduced)
- Names: for girls (Aeris, Raine, Terra and Flare), for boys (Xenon, Aqua, Rocky and Vern)
- Describe your Dream Wedding: either sa sea side or sa garden... tapos may parlor games sa reception :p
- What do you want to be when you grow up? animator/comic artist/good husband/proud father

FACT 8: In a girl/boy you would want?
- Best hair color: black or brown... if other colors ok lang as long as nadadala
- Short or long hair: any as long as hindi kalbo
- chinito, mestizo or moreno: basta kyot :p
- gwapo/maganda o matalino: pwede bang cute at mapagmahal
- dark or fair: basta kyot nga e :p
- Gone skating: (napaka out of place nitong tanong na to a) Yes, ice, inline and skateboard :p

FACT 9: List the number of:
- People u trust with your life: as countless as the stars above
- cd u own: 500 na ata or more...
- Piercings: none
- Tattoos: none

FACT 9: What..?
-song are you listening to now? Aerith's theme - Piano Version
-What time is it now?: 2:11 am
-What is ur fav subject?: anything to do with illustration, sketching, rendering, animating or drawing.:)

Embracing my other sides...

2005-09-21T23:14:00.000+08:00

A Libran without his balance

Lately I noticed that I've been very moody that I feel like my 6 other selves are having a Mardi Gras in my brain without the paper mache heads...

An old friend of mine, who used to be a harbringer of the holy order turned dark a few months ago. Probably because he kept on denying the darkness in him. A few weeks ago I chose to stop denying the darkness in me and embrace it as a part of me. It takes a while getting used to but I found myself more aggressive now than before. Unfortunately, my tolerance levels also went down.

Plus... my primary motto of "I am what you are to me" has reached new heights. Probably because I've been screwed up for the past 25 years that now I dont seem to care anymore. If you dont want to talk to me then to hell with you. I wish I'm not hardened yet... but I hope I can control this dark side of me.

All I have to do now is find my equillibrium and it'll be better. A libran without balance is like a eating a hamburger without the patty.

The official driver of the Sailorteam

As the mini title says, I am now the official driver of my highschool barkada. I'm just happy that I was able to drive from Novaliches to Los Banos and back safely.

Diana is now going abroad for work so we all decided to go to Los Banos as a "final for now" bonding trip as a group. Too bad Gjil couldn't make it due to religious activites (not that I'm bitter about it but I find most organized religions to have unnecessary activites). There's seven of us who joined in: Bunny, Diana. Alithea, Charisse, Marie, Mike and me.

The trip was fun (save for the part the girls talked about Pinoy Bigbrother on the road). We stayed at City of Springs for only 2,600 which included a nice spacious room with aircon, a minibar, cable tv and a jacuzzi. Food was great since we spent only 300 for all of us by buying rice from a carinderia, bbq sa kanto and good old puto bungbong. :p Good company, nice atmosphere, good food... what more could u ask? ( A bf/gf sounds nice, hehehe). Videoke was fun too... I think we spent 200 on the machine we totally hogged.

I had to sleep more tho since I need all the energy to drive back to Manila.

Farewell Artemis

My blessing of a pure white kitten has been cut short. I dunno why or how he died but I came home to see him lying on the ground barely breathing with his blue eyes looking at me silently. Panicking, I went online to find a way to save him. Gerr found me a great site on how to make a formula to save a dying kitten. I tried my best to save him but he died the next morning...

I'm gonna miss him so much. I have a feeling he waited for me to come home before saying goodbye...

And the Magic Flute saga continues...

I finally got my downpayment for the Magic Flute project for the Phil Opera Company. YAY! I wont telln how much or else people will flock to me asking for a treat. Too bad. My birthday's around the corner so just wait for that.

I few more additional revamped scenes and I'm done!!! This will be my last freelance work until I graduate.

Rose for a Pianist

Before getting my paycheck, I stopped over Rockwell to park since wala parking sa Kalayaan from morning to afternoon. Pope was having a craving for the Hot Chicken Floss bread from Breadtalk so I bought him one since I needed to go to school to pick up BJ and give Caloy a CD (which I completely forgot in the car).

I got delayed going to school tho since I saw this old lady playing the piano. She was good and her groove is light jazz so it really made me feel like sitting down nearby to listen. She played lovely Frank Sinatra songs. After a while I found myself already clapping after each song. I requested for her to play The Way You Look Tonight and she played it magnificently. I went over to Holland Tulips and bought her a red rose as a sign of appreciation for such talent and honor to have experienced her music.

Mood: Tired
Listening to: Heidrian and Rose arguing about her choice of outfits

2005-09-05T17:33:00.000+08:00

A lot has happened these past few days... hmm... I'll just point out the important ones: :D

MTV Music Awards:

Thanks to Ate Belle I scored lower box tickets. :) I asked out alot of people but only 5 can go with me since I only had 6 tickets. The fortunate ones to go with me were Jenjen, Caloy, Charles and Joseph. Di or Santi wanted to go but due to circumstances... well... so ayun, sayang ang isang ticket. We did see Brian, Aaron and Renito in Araneta.

It could have been a great awards night if not for the sound system which sucked big time.

Wasted si Charles so he was nodding off. Caloy and I were going nuts in our seats especially when Francine Prieto appeared. Hehe. Cindy Kurleto was very pretty too. The bands that played like Hale, Radioactive Sago Projects, etc were ok as well as the powerful percussive performance of Gary Valenciano and his son. The gang had a pic with Rex Navarette after the show. Too bad, I wanted a pic with Francine.

The show ended at around 12 so everyone was feeling hungry. We met Santi outside Araneta and we had ourselves a little road trip. We went to Timog and ate at one of the cheapest full service Chinese restaurants ever. I forgot the name of the place but I did treat the guys for 2 bowls of Yang Chow fried rice, Beef with broccoli and Lemon Chicken.

R'meo luvs Dewlhiett:

Joseph, Pope, Jenjen and I watched this jologs adaptation of one of Shakespeare's timeless classics. It was a riot. I'd gladly recommend this play to all my friends. Joseph and I wanted to invite more people but some found the ticket price expensive. Di was right tho that the 200 peso ticket was well worth it.

Earlier tho, I took Jenjen, Pope and Joseph to Rockwell help Jenjen buy an mp3 player and to check out the new and improved Fully Booked. Joseph didn't want to leave. Hehe. The new layout was large and it felt more like a library than a bookstore.

After the play we ate at Dencio's near CCP. I treated again... It's almost becoming a pattern already for me to treat people. I love doing that...

New Phone:

I got a new phone since my old 3650 conked out on me. It served me well for 2 years and 3 months. My new phone is a 3230... and looks like we'll be bestfriends.. hehehe. I am going to be paying 1,200 pesos a month for the next 18 months to pay for it. It's all good I think, the money coming in from miscellaneous rackets are coming along nicely. I just hope I can save too for the future.

Di and Jr... making binyag my new phone. It's the first shot ever taken ^_^

Gumaganda daw si Di sa phone ko :)

I dunno what Jaja is doing.. hehe

La lang... cute ko no? :p

Emotion:

After much research and searching I was able to find that song from that video Avigs brought into out lives: The beloved "chinas-locas.wmv" (It's Korean so why Chinas??)

They look normal here...

Come on.... :))

I wanna marry the girl on the left just to see how are kids will act

Course Cards:

I'd rather not talk about it but I was greatly depressed about it. I feel the whole MMA system is collapsing so I'm greatly unmotivated with the whole thing.

I wanted to quit school and start working.

Thankfully a lot of my friends cheered me up. Thanks goes to Jaja, Jgo, BJ, Jr, Nep, Sir Randy, Caloy, Karla and Pope. It really meant a lot to me.

Sentai mini-reunion:

BJ was feeling out of it and we we're starting to miss the old gang. I texted Gerr, Ace and Mike to arrange a mini-reunion for BJ. Mike said he was feeling sick so only Gerr, BJ and Ace made it. :(

Gerr, Ace and I met at Libis at around 11 AM to look at Toei. Good Lord, I want to work there too. They told me not to scream when we enter the "Pearly gates". After seeing the huge tarp of Sailorvenus I wanted to cry like a little girl. I SOOOOOOOOO wanted to take it home. X3

After that, we went to Rockwell to do some damage. (Btw, Ace drove and I'm very proud of her). I treated (YET AGAIN) at Chinese Monk and we had a great time. BJ brought his laptop with him so we got to see that silly video "chinas-locas" once more. We raved about it, hehe and we SOOOOOOOO want to make a website for it. Nyahahahahahahahahahahaha.

We played at the arcade and sang Japanese songs by Bump of Chicken, Do as Infinity, L'Arc n Ciel, Koda Kumi and Utada Hikaru. Too bad my favorite song by Mika Nakashima wasn't there.

BJ at the guitars

Gerr and Ace playing that sugar coated highly cutesy Taiko no Tatsujni 7 game

Gerr and Ace :p

Ace and me :p

Sleepover part deux:

There were a lot of people who were supposed to come along but due to circumstances, well...

Di and Joanah, Rambutan Models care of Meggee :p

Anyhoo, it's good thing these people made it :) :
- Pope (he had to be there, it's his birthday the next day so we had to be there to greet him)
- Jgo (wow, she actually pulled it off! I'm so happy she's there)
- Joanah (another wow! she texted me earlier saying how happy she was to be allowed to come, I'm so happy too)
- JR (like the first slumber party, he slept through it like a log)
- Johnny (enjoyed the PS2 like crazy again, too bad he left earlier with JR to layout)
- Alwin (we lived in Q.C. to so he dropped by to join on a little fun. Too bad he left early too)
- BJ (he acted like the 2nd in command. We enjoyed his dreamcast a lot)
- Di (our beloved EiC spent most of the time watching feel good movies... which felt good ^_^)
- Josh (the masted chef lives on! I still can't get enough of his chicken poppers!)
- Joseph (he forgot the Hello Kitty alarm clock but it's ok. He enjoyed a certain "toy" so much he spent a portion of the night spinning with it)
- Vinci (he graced us with his prescence once more! He took over the kitchen with Josh)
- Caloy (the general laughter came from him. His cheerfulness powered up the party by 10 fold)

So what did we do? Dreamcast galore with Sega Tennis, Powerstone 2 and Monopoly. Movie watching with feel good movies like Head Over Heels, Bridget Jone's Diary and You Got Mail. Late night road trip to 7-11 to buy ice cream and snacks. Food trip courtesy of Josh, Vinci, Jgo, Pope, BJ, Caloy and me.

The pics can be found at Jgo's blog: http://witchesandfacades.blogspot.com :)

There's gonna be a part 3 of course. I wonder who will be the host for part 3? I just hoped that more people came along tho. I just wished they talked to me about it. I'm very approachable and if you got something to say, say it.

Artemis:

I have a new cat!!! WHEEEEE!!! X3. He's so cute and fluffy and... pure white!!! I named him Artemis as that of Sailorvenus', A.K.A, Minako's companion cat Artemis. I've always wanted a white cat. He's so adorable and terribly playful. He loves to sleep beside my right ear which I can't stand since I'm too ticklish in that area. :)

Book Fair:

One of those impromptu trips. Heehee. Joseph, Di, BJ and I went over to World Trade Center to visit the book fair. We would have arrived earlier if only I didn't leave my license over at the guard station at Joseph's subdivision. We wondered why the subdivision number thingy on the dashboard. Oh well... Di pa kasi ako kumakain nun kaya tanga mode nanaman ako.

I bought two books... Paulo Coelho's Warrior of the Light and A Primer on Pinoy Wordplay which was funny. I was looking for hard bound copies of David Edding's books but I found none :(

We went to Blue Wave afterwards for some dinner (I didn't treat this time :p) at Max's then after dropping Di at her home, we guys went over to Rockwell to buy Artemis some cat food since I intend for that kitty to grow big and fluffy ^_^. I was trying to teach Joseph how to play the drums and listen to the beat. Looks like he has a long way to go... like I did. It took me a long time to finally get the concept of playing Percussion Freaks. He'll get there. I have lots hope in him. :)

Mood: Playful
Listening to: Emotion by Yu Chae Young

At dahil lokaloka si Ace

2005-09-01T01:48:00.000+08:00

GUSTO

Gusto ko ng: -- Yang chow fried rice
Gusto kong maging: -- tagapagtanggol ng mga naaapi
Gusto ko si: -- sekwet
Gusto ko sanang: -- lumipad
Gusto ko yatang: -- pumatay ng mga taong kinaiinisan ko
Gusto ko lang na: -- magmahal.... ahuhuhuhuh
Gusto ko pa ng: -- madaming pera

ANO

Anong palayaw mo: -- nick, nicky, nicky boy
Anong ginagawa mo ngaun: -- nag"rorosary" BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (jhok)
Anong gagawin mo mamaya: -- matutulog
Anong plano mo sa sabado: -- maghabol ng manok
Anong kailangan mong tapusin ngaun: -- work sa POC
Anong pinag-kakaabalahan mo: -- my novel and comix :*

AYOKO

Ayoko ng: -- taong plastic
Ayokong maging: -- mahirap
Ayoko si: -- mahirap na at malaking scandal to kaya hindi ko na sasabihin
Ayoko sanang: -- maging boy-toy
Ayoko yatang: -- tumandang nag-iisa
Ayoko lang na: -- inuunderestimate ako
Ayoko pang: -- tumanda

KAILAN

Kailan ka ipinanganak: -- 09-26-80
Kailan ka unang nakipag away/sabunutan: -- grade 3 (suntukan)
Kailan ka nagsimulang magsinungaling: -- sperm pa lang ako sinungaling na ako... why do u tink buhay ako ngayon?
Kailan ka nagsimulang magpacute: -- refer to my answer above
Kailan ka unang nagka crush: -- kinder ako... 2 silang cute na girls :*
Kailan ka unang umibig: -- wala kayong mapapala sakin sa tanong na yan <--- tama
Kailan ka unang nabigo: -- ... saan?

SINO

Sino ang una mong hinangaan: -- si Steve Armstrong at si Red 1
Sino ang una mong naging crush: -- nalimutan ko na name nila
Sino ang taong hindi mo makakalimutan: --marami
silang ganyan. baka sila limot na ko <-- totoo...
Sino ang kinakatakutan mo: -- si Almighty

HINDI

Hindi ako nag: -- tatatakbo ng hubo't-hubat in public (contrary to popular belief)
Hindi ako mag: -- hahanap ng relasyon muna
Hindi ko kayang: -- tumambling
Hindi ko yata: - kayang kumain ng madami uli
Hindi ako: -- mapakali
Hindi ko kailangan ng: -- taong hindi pumapansin sakin
Hindi dapat mag: -- isip na pumatay ng tao
Hindi na kailangan pang: -- akoy ibili ng turon (pero gusto ko pa rin)

SANA

Sana ay: -- magkatotoo ang 6 kong personalities para hindi na ako lonely
Sana akoy: -- makahanap ng tunay na pag-ibig
Sana lang: -- matuto na ako magbasa ng nota sa musika
Sana naman: -- mahanap ko na ang aking kasiyahan
Sana dapat: -- hindi na ako tamad
Sana huwag: -- ako maubusan ng kaibigan
Sana bukas: -- malaya na ako sa inis
Sana sa susunod na linggo: -- ako'y kampante na
Sana sa susunod na buwan: -- masmaligaya na ako
Sana sa susunod na taon: -- nasa Seattle na ako!

I need a vacation

2005-08-19T17:36:00.000+08:00

I need a vacation. Honestly. And as for that rude and pointless comment on my last entry, fuck off!! this is a family place...

whee... that was fun!! Now I can have happy corn in my pocket again! ^_^

School:

I have two terms left on my school year and I'm getting bored with everything. I have to agree with a good friend on YM last night. Everything is getting too monotonous. Professors are indeed failing to support and inspire students to the point that everything seems futile.

I'm not supposed to fall into that same mindset that most MMA students in their 3rd and 4th years are now facing but I can't help it. I feel as if my dreams are slowly slipping away as I try to please the system. This shouldn't be so. I came into CSB with the hope of making my dreams into reality by learning valuable things. I did learn a lot but not from any professor but through experience from hardships, friends and philosophy.

Maybe I should switch my style. Everyone says I have a gift to draw people closer to them... I should learn to focus that strength and turn it into something that inspires others. Hell, if the system wont inspire us then maybe it's time for all of us to find inspiration from within us.

Working:

Almost done with my work for the Phil Opera Company. I already signed a contract about my pay and it seems I'm getting something good. Can't wait to spend it... heehee... well, spend a fraction of it at least.

Leisure:

I'm planning to buy a new shirt and a book. I had my eye on getting the huge hardbound copy of C.S. Lewis' Chronicles of Narnia but I found something better after going through Fully Booked one night after spending time with Gail and BJ at Rockwell (it was BJ's bday, heehee). I've always enjoyed reading David and Leigh Eddings' stories and it's nice to know he came up with a new one. My gas money was spent buying Book 1 of the Dreamers. I got home anyway :p

The book was interesting and it was still about Gods and men and how humanly they can both be. Fortunately the silly humor and sarcasm was still there. :p I just wish that the Eddings' earlier works like the Belgariad and the Mallorean will be made into a movie like Lord of the Rings. It's my opinion but I just found LOTR boring... Eddings' are the only fantasy writers who ever made me laugh out loud.

Dating:

Yes, an old acquaintance named Al (who is also bi) decided to set me up with one of his guy friends. Al set up me up with "W", a slim chinito guy with a cute dimple. Yes only one since his other dimple was more prominent than the other. Since I'm usually game on the dating scene I decided to give it a go. 10 minutes later, W called me on my celphone until we got to talking on my landline.

He's a nice guy and the conversation was going well until the question "How old are you?" came up. I answered 24 turning 25. He was like "oh". After writing the book on love, I was already aware that he wasn't too happy to know my age. "Why?" I asked.

I'm too young for him.

Ohohohohoohhohhhohohohohohohohhhohohohhohoho...

I felt like the tides have turned since most of the people I get jiggy with are younger than me by more than 3 years. Now this guy is 28 and he kept insisting that I was young.

Obviously this guy hasn't seen me yet. Bwahahahahahahahahahahaha.

40% of the conversation was thrown into convincing him that age shouldn't be a factor. After all, as what Jenjen and I say:
"MERE NUMBERS!!!"

Side note on Dating:

I'm the type of guy who gives people a chance... unless of course you spent the last few months stalking me on my celphone and that's NOT the right way to get into my pants (figuratively speaking of course). If you wanna go out just say so. :p

Shopping:

Still awaiting for my credit card to be reactivated since I reached my limit AGAIN this August. I have my eye on some nice new fashion. How I wish I was 5'10" so I can pull more metrosexual stunts with clothes and dating. Blah blah blah. I just have to be content with 5'6" me.

By the by, my new nick name is SNUGGLE BUNNY!!! thanks to Gail... which I find better than what Jgo calls me.

This gives more reason for most of my female friends to molest me. Wunderbar.

I've been seeing lots of nice pink shirts in People are People and Folded n' Hung but since I'm the "Blue guy" I'll refrain from buying more pink. Besides, it feels like I'll be raining on Robbie's parade in the SPO so I'll leave it to him to bring pink into the office.

Personals:

Would you trust someone with this e-mail subject:
"Looking for friends with benefits"

Good luck, buddy.

Anyhoo... I've currently making new drawings to set up for the 10th anniversary of Assorted Nuts for next year. Wheee!!! It's been 10 years guys! :p

Oh, and I'm playing keyboards again... hopefully I can compose new stuff soon. :)

Mood: Moody!
Listening to: Seiya no Omoi - Arisawa Takanori (such a beautiful piano piece in less than 2 minutes)

and Nick goes down the hole

2005-08-14T14:05:00.000+08:00

WHOEVER SAID THAT CHERIFER
SLOGAN THAT
TALL IS COOL
SHOULD JUST DIE!!!!

*sigh*

here I am again, the higher powers that be are testing me...

Maybe I'm really bi...

Circumstances are going against what I believe is my path in life...

But I wont deny what happens. If I get it on with a guy then I wont deny it.

and I'm still responsible for my decisions... and I wont cry anymore...

---------

In other news...

Bati na kami nung friends ko. :p

At dahil mahal nya tayo....

2005-08-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

Masaya ako ngayon kasi mahal nya pala tayo:

Yes, MAHAL nya po tayong lahat...

so mahal ko rin sya.

La lang...

Ahihihihihihihihi :D

How well do u know me?

2005-08-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

This is a test I made... hehe. Gotta hand it to Zeerohuy. :p

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

Lesson learned portion

2005-08-04T04:03:00.000+08:00

Ah.. Emotional Hell... rash judgements and self-pride create more havoc. Unfortunately damages have been done and only time can tell if they will heal.

Judgemental me

It's in my nature to attack when attacked. I am sorry but I had to react. Why? Because my whole being was on the line. The entire issue here is if people think that I'm making rash decisions about my life then people should tell me about it. I'd rather talk about it person to person. It's also something I should learn to do.

Just because I said I found a new barkada does not imply that I have left old friends. Why the misconceptions? We are all entitled to meet new friends. Especially now that the sentai is busy with their own devices. Some of us are working while some of us are busy with thesis.

Like what BJ said, things have changed and we can't really turn back time to how things were. Change doesn't mean it has to be bad.

I dont want to get the impression that I dont care about old friends because I DO! Like what Richard told me, "Meet new friends but always treasure old friends". As much as possible I reach out to the people I met before. Altho what I dont get is that why am I the one who usually reaches out first....

Maybe my sudden outburst is just me saying "I miss everyone... why doesn't anyone tell me anything anymore?"

If only I can place everyone I care for inside a huge room, that'd be great.. so I can tell everyone how much they mean to me.

New Friendships

If this is about me finding new barkadas, it's something that will happen to all of us. I have multiple barkadas throughout the course of my life. From the "3 amigos", "Sailorteam", "DDR Fairview", "Manila Game Dancers", "Block A51", "Sentai", "Isengarth clan" to "SPO gang", I haven't forgotten all of them and up to now I still think about each and everyone.

Diversity makes us grow as human beings. Everytime I meet with these old barkadas we laugh again together and it's ok if we talk about new friends. Experiences are shared and people grow from it.

Art Style

I'm happy to say that my art style is somewhat improving. I'm practising vectoring right now (altho Robbie says that I'm not exactly doing vector graphics... malay ko ba. Teach me then, o great one :p ). Anyhoo... the new styles kinda open my eyes to facial proportioning and hopefully in a few months I'll be better.

Meagan is turning out to be an even bigger hottie than Rose... O___o

I just hope than I still retain my soul inside these drawings... and the message to inspire embedded in them.

SPO - Probies division

The new people joining our ranks as the new generation of the Benildean Press Corps are remarkable. People like Bordge, Josh, Robbie, Donn, Raine, Caloy, Carla, CJ, Vida, Des, Jainie, Vail, Darlene, etc bring new life to the office. Sometimes even too much life. *lol*

The EB calls them my children. So what do I call them then? Children of the Blue Carrot?? Hehehe... I'm getting fond of most of them and it's kinda sad to think that I'll be gone in 2 terms... I wish I can get to know all of them.

Baka ibili nanaman ako ng turon nila Caloy and Carla. Hehe...And If Robbie is reading this, yes, sumisipsep ako (right back at you, man!) :D

SPO - In General

The office is now my haven from the degrading and demoralizing system of CSB. Sadly, when everyone in the office would rather work in the SPO than go to class then something is DEFINITELY wrong with the school system.

For one thing, the encoding system is fucked up BIG TIME! I won't go into details since Jenjen or JM will be writing an article about it.

Speaking of which, the Fashion Design course are having their marketing week so Plaza V is like a mini-gakuensai. It's funny tho that the food tend to sell more than the trinkets and clothes they are selling.

Grad pic

I look like a girl in my grad pic. Nuff said. Altho everyone looks feminine anyway *lol*. I need a few more copies of the small pics. Lots of people are asking for them. Hehe... Pope says I look younger tho. Haha! That earned him a free cheese pinipig ice drop!

Mood: Light headed...
Listening to: Nagareboshi e (Search for your love) by the Three Lights

Betrayed

2005-08-01T02:41:00.000+08:00

I feel betrayed in alot of aspects right now. How? People who I thought were my friends say things behind my back.

Suddenly my decision to become straight is a sin. How so? Is it because I'm not being true to myself? Is it because I deny who I am? Let's say I am not being true to myself. Does that make me any less of a human being? Does it mean that I'm being stupid? I am aware of my decisions and I have to be responsible enough to take it like a human being. I don't do things out on a whim. I'm not a child.

So now they hate me for becoming straight or how I've become. I am aware of the consequences. Who says that a person can change overnight? It'll take a while or even it might last forever. I don't care. It's my life and it's something I must believe in even if it's going to be painful. I have my reasons for choosing my paths in life and I'll stick by it. There's always a higher purpose for me and I plan to find and achieve it.

Whatever crap I go through, I'm still responsible for it because this is my life. This will probably be the same thing I'll teach my kids... if I ever do have kids.

I seem to remember how they've slowly eased their lives away from me until a wall has been erected. Do they even consider how much I feel right now? Do they even talk to me about it? Do they even know how much it hurts to know that whenever I change that I am judged for it? Do they know how painful it is when I am left alone while everyone enjoys a great time?

I'm beginning to feel that whenever someone displeases that person or goes beyond the standard character mindset that person built around that person, he becomes "Justin". Now I know why a wall was built. I'm someone people just can give up on no matter how much hope I place in them.

But I dont hate them. They are welcome to judge me and place their opinions. They have the right to do so.

And I won't feel bad. This is something that had to happen. Only God knows why but I'll believe in Him. I'll admit. I'm a pathetic selfish coward. But it's okay. I know my flaws. Now I'm doing something about it.

It's my fault for being eager in wanting to find a relationship, so I wont be left behind, so I wont be a geek, so I wont be lonely. Maybe this is what was needed to happen. I need to strengthen my resolve and focus on what my purpose is. Maybe because of that, I am needed to be lonely. But I keep on missing the point that I'm not alone. I've been blessed by hundreds of friends who subtly teach me diversity and life. Love takes on many forms and finding your one true love is not the only purpose we exist.

Magic number 7 kay Jgo

2005-07-28T22:55:00.000+08:00

Galing kay Jgo. Hehe, since love ko din number 7... O ayan ha, sinagutan ko to :p Pakilala mo naman ako kay Azrael :D

Seven things that scare you:
1. Spiders
2. Loneliness
3. death of loved ones
4. sexually aggresive people (towards me)
5. being left out
6. my ideas being stolen
7. losing any appendage

Seven things you like the most:
1. My Imagination
2. My mp3 player :p
3. Friends
4. My laptop
5. Friends
6. Freedom
7. Life <-- korek ka dyan Jgo :D

Seven important things in your room:
1. BED!
2. Huggy pillow :3
3. Electric fan
4. Laptop
5. Component system
6. Keyboard
7. Art materials

Seven random facts about you:
1. optimistic, nurturing and friendly
2. has multiple personalities
3. irritable but lovable :p
4. loves to write and draw
5. a very big dreamer
6. loves chickens, rabbits, cats and penguins
7. dreams to fly and weave clouds

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. Publish my stories and inspire people
2. Marry a wonderful person who'll support me and have 4 kids
3. Make lots of money for my family
4. Travel around the world <--- :D
5. Complete all episodes of Sailormoon and FRIENDS on original DVD
6. Release a CD with all songs made by me
7. Make peace with my enemies

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. Supportive and optimistic
2. Open minded
3. magaling magluto
4. reasonably malambing
5. good conversationalist
6. loves to try new things
7. Madaling patawanin

Seven things you say the most:
1. Eh?
2. WAI!!!
3. pocha
4. HAH!?
5. wushuuu...
6. AY!
7. nyeta..

Seven celeb crushes (whether local or foreign)
1. Jennifer Aniston
2. Hilary Duff
3. Francine Prieto
4. Komatsu Ayaka
5. Hama Chisaki
6. Keiko Kitagawa
7. Tomiko Van

Seven people you want to see to take this quiz:
1. Pope
2. Eunice
3. Jr
4. Jenjen
5. Gerry
6. Jaja
7. Ace

Back from the storm

2005-07-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

Ahh... looks like I have a lot of catching up to do... I'll tackle this by the topic...

Portfol

Should I even consider going on? The program was near perfect and it was completed before the due date. Unfortunately I also needed collaterals that should be STATE OF THE ART. Wow, I did NOT expect that so I had very little time to make my collaterals as good as the program. To cut a long story short, I failed due to the fact that Ms. Barbs was strict with deadlines.

In some way I have to thank her for that. Why? Punctuality is one of my weakest points. It had to happen to teach me a lesson in the long run. If I didn't realize this the hard way I'll embarass myself in the outside world. A little enlightenment from Sir Leo and Ms. Barbs... I feel that I dissapointed them since they know I am capable of great things and I didn't deliver. It's more of an insult to myself if I put it that way.

I have to strive to reach a new level of me.

Rage Attacks

Recently my mental and psychological defenses have been waning leading to excessive frustrations and break down. Unfortunately due to a huge family misunderstanding between relatives at a cousin's bday party, I went berzerk and threw several objects at people while screaming curses threatening to kill everyone. This got everyone's attention. At least the older folks seem to sympathize with me more and the young ones keep their distance.

Still, the damage has been done and I don't like me going berzerk. Looks like after strengthening my resolve about my life mission, "demons" started appearing to keep me from being a better person.

Lately, I've been reading the bible again and it's kinda enlightening me. This is a sign that I'm dwindling in my growth so I should focus once more and set my priorities straight.

Perspective

Connected to my rage attacks, I've been thinking about how things in college are kinda distrupting my dreams. Suddenly a diploma is nothing but a key to open a door to either a call center or nursing.

I feel like dropping out of school to prove a point that you can survive as long as you dream and work hard. My mom thinks that I have an idea going on and she'll support me even if I decide to push through with my ideals.

Suddenly I'm an idealist.

The offer is tempting but I still want to finish college so I'm not a burden to my mom. But she told me that she's always proud of me and I'm not a burden. I just realized how much I love my mom and she does understand me.

Work

Sir Kokoy seems to enjoy my work so I have an entire month to finish everything for the play. I'll try to finish it within a week since I'm aiming for punctuality WITH quality.

Me thinks this will be my last racket for the meantime until I graduate.

SPO

Just last week, I was promoted from Design Staffer to Training and Recuitment Head. Sounds new right? HAHAHAHA! I'll be sort of incharge with all the Probational Staffers, making sure that everyone works while I jot down their strengths and weaknesses. I'll also need to coordinate with other section editors in dividing their workload and organize workshops. More on that, people can talk to me about problems for advice, comfort hugs and such. This probably goes for all the staffers too. Time to use my abilities to help people as a "rebellious" servant of God. :D

Listening to: One Survive by Mika Nakashima
Mood: halfway enlightened

I need Extra Joss!!!!

2005-07-05T16:05:00.000+08:00

*yawn*

It's been two weeks and I'm soooo firggin tired. So tired, my eyes are dropping like flies on bug spray hey-day.

- Design studies for the magic flute is due in a week... Mustn't dissappoint Sir Kokoy or my name will be ruined in the industry. *sob*
- Comic strips are due almost every week and I need to produce some more for myself too. Good thing the idea flow for comic strips is good. All I need is some time to make these comic strips...
- Work on my novel. Ahh yes, Jenjen is insisting that I finish atleast half a book soon so she can read it. Nice to know I have a fan ^_^
- Finish my portfolio which is due in a few days. I'm more or less done with the frame work. Just need to put in the pics and videos and I'm all done.

I SHOULD have the time to finish all of these in a snap but I can't because I'm sooo tired nowadays. I wonder why? Is it the weather? Is it because I'm stressed from living so far away from home? I hate it. It distrupts my working habits... and I love to work.

Lagok kaya ako ng isang coleman ng Extra Joss?

I spent 2 days making the Green Harvest Awards and Grin Harvest Awards for 2005 and I'm glad that the people liked it... well... I thought they'd kill me after the presentation. I just realized I have a LOT of blackmail worthy pics of some people at the SPO. Bwahahahahahahaha...

I was nominated for "Crush ang Bayan", "Huling Hirit" and "Comeback King/Queen". I won the comeback king award tho :p

Anyway, pics time! :p

Me and my younger siblings...
BJ - the second child... evil "daw" at it's finest.
Joanah - the "to the next level" sister of the group
Jenjen - the princess... Cherifer twin number 1
Pope - the ... twisted guy... Cherifer twin number 2
...

Jgo and I... my new "girlfriend" *lol* joke :p. Magagalit nanaman si Joanah.

Ayan muna... :p

Listening to: Spice Up Your Life by Spice Girls
Mood: Rabid

A Japanese song translated

2005-06-20T22:11:00.000+08:00

Well, with a little help from this site: http://www.greatestjournal.com/users/virginears/6064.html
I was able vividly word fit the Japanese song that made me cry. Thanks to virginears, Brian Stewart & Takako Sakuma for the romanji, translations and the site. (I had to add a little more flavor to the translation tho with the message of the song still in mind)

Here it is. Tell me what you think. :)

Sakurairo Maukoro by Mika Nakashima

Cherry blossom colors dance on air
There I was all alone
Feeling foolishly, unable to
contain the feelings in my heart

When the young leaves' colors change
Feelings will soon overflow
Time soon looses all of its meaning
As I drifted towards you

Around us are these ever changing trees
That watched our time together
But like them we will soon change
No one stays in the same place
So softly, is what they are teaching us

Soon the leaves' colors change once more
while I stood by your side
letting the days pass us by
changing our feelings into love

I only ask these ever changing trees
To safely guard memories that I have
So I want to see once more
What time took away from us
I'll softly rustle your leaves again

Nothing in this world stays the same
For time will soon carry us away
But the only thing I know
and what I could be sure of
I'll gently embrace the time that I have now

Covered by the snow in Wintertime
Feelings may go astray
Just like the footprints on the snow
will silently soon fade away

So all I ask oh ever changing trees
To safely guard memories that I have
For in them our times are etched forevermore in eternity
Within them is where I want to live

Around us are these ever changing trees
That watched our time together
But like them we will soon change No one stays in the same place
So softly, is what they are teaching us

Cherry blossom colors dance on air
I'll be here all alone
Thinking of the days I spent with you
I'll cherish them in my heart

Hindi ako natutuWA!

2005-06-17T20:02:00.000+08:00

Tatawa na ako

-- start intro song --

Basketball... Basketball...
ang sarap sarap mag basketball
Ang lapad ng court
Ang linis ng court
Ang luwag ng ring ng basketball
Pwedeng mag-dribble
Bago ka mag-shoot
Pwedeng shoot sabay Dribble

Basketball... Basketball...
Tayo'y maglaro ng basketball
Kung gusto mo'y whole court
Kung gusto mo'y half-court
Kung gusto mo sa Pasig dun maraming court
Pwedeng limahan
Pwedeng tatluhan
Kung gusto mo ay one on one

*I-shoot mo, I-shoot mo
I-shoot mo na ang ball
i-shoot mo na ang ball
ang sarap mag basketball
I-shoot mo, I-shoot mo
I-shoot mo na ang ball
i-shoot mo na ang ball
ang sarap mag basketball

Basketball... Basketball...
exercise namin ang basketball
papagurin ka
hihingalin ka
lalabas ang pawis mo sa basketball
Bawat shoot ay 2 points
Minsan naman 3 points
Hindi ko kaya ang 4 points

repeat* 2x

--- end song ----
(alam ko marami pa pero tama na muna... dumudugo na tenga ko)

May stalker ako
PUNYETA!!!
wala na bang ilalaki ang font ko???

text ba naman sakin eto:
"Dami mo p rin pla commitments, kya pla wla k n time 4 love & sex,
balak p nman kta ligawan, hehe. Ready 4 it?"

at plus! Lalaki to, mind u.

Tatawa na lang ako.

I dont mind whatever your sexual preference is, just dont hit on me and we'll be fine. :D

Ang hirap talagang maging gwapo

Gwapo nga ako, bakla naman nagkakagusto sakin

in other news, masaya ako sa aking Portfolio. Wala nga lang si Monica kaya hindi ako masaya.

hahahahaha....

Discovered the beauty of Soulive... Me likey the band. Brass Jazz is GOOD ;D

Naghahanap pa rin ako ng poster ng "Sablay ka na Pasaway ka pa" with Mikey Macapagal-Arroyo, Ethel Booba, Salbakuta as the Buraot boys and

introducing:

tan-tan-taaaaaaan... *insert fanfare of ur choice

GERRY BOY ESPINO!

whoever the @&#*&&#@#*( is this creep.

Bakit ko hinahanap? Birthday gift ko para kay BJ.

Happy b-day nga pala sa mga may bertdei dis JUNE!!!! Merry Christmas!! XD

Still on the look out for that new sensation: Turtle's Dance with matching video para saking collection.

Ang saya noh? 10k worth na mp3 player at ang laman ay hits from Biba-hat-beybs, Eypril Boi Rehino and Bhong Nabaro

Nagsayang lang daw ako ng pera...

HAHAHAHAHAHA...

tatawa na lang ako

Mood: Masaya! hindi ba halata?
Listening to: Hitorigotomitaini Aishiteta

Recollection of another helter skelter week

2005-06-13T11:41:00.000+08:00

Where do I begin?

Been having odd outbursts of temper and mood swings. I dunno if it's because I'm being empathically overwhelemed by my friend's negative feelings or it's the sudden change in the weather. Maybe I need to let my aggressions out once in a while. I dont feel teh balance.

Studies:
I am not that happy during Mulbis2. Dunno why. I can't connect properly with the class. Digivid's going somewhat well and midterms is near. I know what to do. :D Peforts is so-so. I get to annoy Eunice at least. :)) I'm an artist not an athlete! Portfol is still fun thanks to my blockmate, Monica. Midterms is due soon so I need a working interactive frame by this week.

Arcade Gaming:
Whoeeee! I'm getting good with the drums and I cant get enough of playing Twinkle Star on guitars and Termination on drums.

check out my max combo! :D

BLiP2 Photoshoot:

if only I had the height, pwede na ako model :))

Eunice... the new definition of cute (peace tayo Eunice :D)

Jenjen, the camera loves her as usual :p

Jaja and Jgo... wag nyo aasarin si Jgo na lalaki sya a. Uumbagin nya kayo. :p

Me and Pope, feeling Japanese, ready for action!

Me and my tall "younger siblings", Jen and Pope... also ready for.. "action"??

"Fotogs" Charles, Meggee and Noel with Ms. BLiP herself, Jenjen XD

Group shot XD SPO people and the two models :D

Play ni Di:
My new home away from home. Watched Di's play "Rite of Passage" with Jenjen, Pope, CJ, Sir Randy, Vinci, Dustin, Johnny and JR last saturday at 8pm. Very tasteful and enjoyable. As usual CJ was giddy. :)) If you saw it too you'll know why. Since hindi dumating si Jerome, the responsibility to make the review fell upon the intrepid heads of Pope and I.

the best I can do...

I will not look at my chicken puppet the same way again. Mind you, I chase chickens for the exercise, not as an outlet of horniness and loneliness.

Speaking of chickens...

Truck in front of my pick-up. Poor chickens off to the slaughter house. Why not let me chase you instead? :D

ang cute ni JM and Maria :))

Very photogenic of Di with Maria

Everyone loves my cock... este... Chicken Puppet ^_^

Adventure!

After the play, the gang went to Bluewave to eat at Hotshots.

Here's JR playing with those number thingies and the rubber duckie (with a weird face) like a little kid

Since it was late we decided to go home na. Pope, Jenjen and I were sleepy already. We took Sir Randy and Jenjen to Taft and I was supposed to take Pope home all the way to Rizal but just our luck... nawalan ako ng preno. Pope and I had quite an adventure, going in circles, making wrong turns that brought us back to Taft from Edsa, getting stuck in barricaded areas, getting scolded by the authorities, etc. Took Pope to the FX station in Shaw so he can go home. Fortunately we both got home in one piece. Haha, it was one helluva day! It was scary but I enjoyed it nonetheless. If I was alone I'd be spazzed out, good thing Pope was there. /no1

Miscellaneous:

Me, Jenjen and Joanah at Mc Cafe... la lang. Dapat dati pa na-post :p

Talaga lang naman... my Saturday experience

2005-06-07T14:51:00.000+08:00

Saturday A.M.

Wow, I was able to wake up very early for my meeting with a potential client. I drove all the way to Shangri La to meet with Aia's dad, Kokoy Jimenez, at Starbucks. The job: animated backgrounds for a children's play using flash. The concept was so interesting I wonder why I didn't think of it in the first place.

Mr. Jimenez briefed me a bit with how he wanted the backgrounds to appear as so I could work my magic. Yes. The theme was similar to The Beatle's Yellow Submarine video. I hope I can do well in this one. My reputation is on the line.

The meeting was fast and efficient leaving me with enough time to flounder about in Shangri La. Floundering was fun especially when I discovered that Shang Quantum Powerstation finally got Guitar Freaks 11th and Drum Mania 10th with session mode capabilities. NYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! The machines were mine for the playing for an hour and a half. :D

Played all time favorites like
- Termination
- Twinkle Star
- Mr. Bobby
- Sobakasu
- Sailing Day
- Tentaikansoku

And discovered new ones like
- Puzzle *
- Prism

* sung by Eiichirou Taruki, the same artist responsible for Mr. Bobby and I am a Loser. Honestly, I'd go to Japan and stalk this guy. If I had a uterus, it'd do somersaults and backflips just listening to him. XD I'd learn guitar and sing these songs to a potential girlfriend (after translating them of course)

Saturday Afternoon

I commuted to school from Shang, leaving the pick up at a parking lot at Shang. I uploaded the review I made of I love Sushi for Heaven and Hell's Kitchen. Introduced Super Bomberman 5 to the masses of SPO causing them to stray from the work they were supposed to do. Sheesh. >_<

Accompanied Joanah and Jenjen to Glorietta to deliver an issue of BLiP to Folded and Hung. We assimilated Joanah into the Bread Talk fever. Tried new breads this time like that Tornado bread with black pepper chicken teriyaki inside. XD

I would have enjoyed the afternoon but the multitude of homosapiens running around the mall combined with the sheer weight of carrying a heavy laptop made me lose the will to live during that hour. Thankfully Joanah and Jenjen gave me the strength to carry on (kaya matuwa kayong dalawa!)

The MRT trip from Ayala to Shaw Blvd was ghastly. I wont talk about it anymore.

Saturday P.M.

Ahhhhhh... my first experience in getting stranded from 6:00 pm to 9:30pm under heavy traffic caused by a major downpour.

I hated the motorists especially this damned taxi who visiously tried to cut in front of me. Ang TANGA TANGA TANGA TANGA TANGA NYA. Sobra. AS IN!!! Nakita na nga nyang BAHA ilusob ba naman ang kotse sa baha! Sige may-I-try naman ang GAGO. Ayan dahil sa katangahan tumirik kotse nya. TANGA!!! Hu-well... naka pick up ako at buti na lang four lanes sa EDSA kaya na-cut in front of him din ako.

Pffffft. Mega award ko sya for Gawad Angking Katangahan. (sabi nga ni Didi kay Ada sa Zhazha Zaturnnah)

Thankfull I am an optimist. Yes, an optimist. I was able to find happiness inside the pickup. I had some left over bread from Bread talk, mineral water, my new Creative Zen Micro 5gig mp3 player and my celphone. Eunice, Mike, Jen and Pope kept me company throughout the night so I'm very thankful for them. Thanks guys ;D

Charisse, Marie, Diana, Thea and Mike were waiting for me at SM Fairview so I managed to get there in one piece. I stood before them a broken and miserable man. They felt so sorry for me that it earned me a free dinner courtesy of Diana. :*

I took them to their homes from SM and flopped down my bed when I reached my own home.

Mood (during the time): Mixed
Listening to (during that time): I completely forgot

Element test! HA! FINALLY!!

2005-06-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

Your element is Water: Understanding, intelligent,
quiet and calm. You know who you are and no one
can change that. Usually quiet but only because
your listening, don't let anyone think you
haven't got an opinion! Your not quiet because
your shy or sad, your usually quiet because
your thinking. Your answers are well planned
and helpful so people generally seek your
advice. Your the perfect balance between
solitary and outgoing. But sometimes you need a
little time to yourself to sort out your
emotions and figure things out. You understand
the phrase 'sticks and stone' and rarely let
things get to you, whats that important for you
to have to get so upset over? You know what you
want out of life but are simply taking your
time and enjoying things. To you your life is
fine as it is, you can always change things
later if your not happy.

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Your Hidden Power Is Water

You have a rather calm soul, but when tempted
will get pissed off at those who bug you. You
do whatever you can in your powers to help
those of your allies and have a okay taste for
human kind, but you find them rather annoying
on occasions.

Gem Stone: Saphire, Eye Color:Ice
Blue,Hair Color:Dark Blue that's long
that goes to your waist.

Quote:If you wait for me
Then I'll come for you. Although I've travelled
far, I always hold a place for you
In my heart. If you think of me, If you miss me
once in a while, Then I'll return to you. I'll
return and fill that space in your heart

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Ideal religion quiz

2005-06-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

You scored as Buddhism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Buddhism. Do more research on Buddhism and possibly consider becoming Buddhist, if you are not already.
In Buddhism, there are Four Noble Truths: (1) Life is suffering. (2) All suffering is caused by ignorance of the nature of reality and the craving, attachment, and grasping that result from such ignorance. (3) Suffering can be ended by overcoming ignorance and attachment. (4) The path to the suppression of suffering is the Noble Eightfold Path, which consists of right views, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right-mindedness, and right contemplation. These eight are usually divided into three categories that base the Buddhist faith: morality, wisdom, and samadhi, or concentration. In Buddhism, there is no hierarchy, nor caste system; the Buddha taught that one's spiritual worth is not based on birth.

Buddhism

83%

Islam

83%

Christianity

75%

Hinduism

67%

Paganism

63%

Satanism

63%

Judaism

54%

atheism

33%

agnosticism

21%

Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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Plans, news and realizations

2005-05-29T00:51:00.000+08:00

As much as I wanted to do a part 2 of "Dont be afraid of ze love" it's been days and new thoughts that made laugh and scream appeared before me...

News:

I'm now a part of the Design staff, finally after 2 years of waiting. Unfortunately it's also my last term so I only have one year to grace the design staff with my presence. Boohoo.

Watched Madagascar with Jenjen, BJ, Charles, Meggee, Vinci and Gail on saturday. Got a pic with the penguins! YAY! Just check Jenjen's blog for that pic XD

Jenjen is my new padawan for music games (dance maniax, ddr,drum mania). May she rise to the occasion and be a better game dancer/musician than any of us... *lol*

Plans:

Will be very busy for the next few weeks because of several projects:
1. Still working on revamping my novel. Adding new elements, revamping, etc. Putting more depth in characters without giving it a totally serious look.
2. Making a new line up of comic strips for the Benildean. This will be fun. It's gonna be hard to show their personalities in a span of 8 to 10 strips.
3. Need to come up with 50 quality works for Portfolio. I am very happy that Sir Dan is my prof. Received a bit of reaction when I showed the class my basic design.
4. Need to interview Sir Dong Fajardo for the next issue of BLiP.
5. Need to do good in my job as a food reviewer. BJ and I will be doing food reviews now with him being the demon and me being the angel. It's gonna be cute.
6. Need to finish and render all the comic strips for Jaja. I hope ht epay is.... ahem... good... (for the I-pod/Creative Zen 20GB mp3 player fund)
7. Have to meet with Aia's dad for the job they want me to do. I hope it wont interfere with my schoolwork so much but the job is so much interesting I wanna do it.

Realizations:

I am a very hard man to be with in terms of relationships. The last thing I need is a clingy person or an emotional leech who'll cry and whine at every disappointment. Just because something didn't push through DOES NOT mean it'll never happen. I should know these things clearly... because I used to be clingy and one of my ex's is a leech.

Don't get me wrong. I can be very committed but not beyond reason. Relationships should be based on trust, unselfish love, supportive devotion and humorous kink. Always the humorous kink! I am a tiger in bed... bwahahahahahahaha.

I am a lover and a big one at that but I am also two things: a dreamer and an artist. I am capable of accepting people and I know the meaning of the word compromise. But I need the freedom to dream so my imagination can soar and my art will grow. I refuse to be part of a relationship that constrains me or else my dreams and imaginations will cease it's growth. Relationships shouldn't be based on fear and selfishness.

Like what Jen and I believe, we should be in a relationship for the sake of being in love not out of desperation.

I just hope that who I end up will make me mature into a better artist, who'll I'll share my dreams with and vice versa, be kinky with and will help me become a better person.

Mood: Busy
Listening to: Sumayaw Sumunod rendition of Sexbomb Girls

Do not be afraid of ze love (Another weekly report)

2005-05-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

Monday: May 16, 2005

First day of the Frosh Orientation. Decided to help out with the festivities. Completely forgot to wear Red so after being carefully scolded by the SPO people (they will rue the day they did that) I scooted down to Addidas and bought myself a lovely red shirt (40% off). ^_^ I love that shirt, btw. I never really liked Red so much but it made me rather sexy that day. I wont bother placing in the pics since Jenjen already has it up on her blog. XD

There were many cute female froshies. Too bad they're WAAAAAAAAAAAY young for my age. I think I'll begin lying about my age since most people think I'm only 19-20.

*lol* Yes, I'm vain.

We enjoyed the wedding booth and I was able to lure miss Kato from the MCO all the way to the wedding booth. Hehe, sir Randy tried to escape his fate but Sam was quick enough to spot and drag him down to the booth. It was a lovely wedding indeed. :D

I did a good deed on this day but I'm not telling what XD

Tuesday: May 17, 2005

Didn't go to school today. I know I was supposed to help out but I was too tired from travelling all the time. I've been driving all day and I think I needed the rest.

Bought Dynasty Warriors 5 for the ps2 and I love it to bits. Too bad I my nephew and my 2nd brother loves the game too so I had to wait for my turn before I could play. If only I had another dual shock controller. Jen, Vinci, Luthfi and Johnny will be glad to hear about this. XD Trying to get Pope to play the game too if only we had time that is. Since school will be starting next week I doubt we'll have time for anything.

Wednesday: May 18, 2005

Went to school again but with BJ this time so we could do a video on the SPO people for the SPO recruitment booth. The colors of the day are yellow and orange. I don't mind the colors except when they're on me. BJ absolutely hated the colors. XD

Still helped out with the wedding booth. Saw more cute froshies like Edden. *sigh* Too young. BJ just had to chant that cartoon network Mucha Lucha commercial "LEGAL!" "ILLEGAL!" all the live long day.

Did another good deed XD

After that, spent the rest of the day at the office trying to be as productive as a horny teenager at a Mardi Gras collecting beads. (Did that come off right?). You should check out the ads I made out of all the funny pics we found of the SPO people. I'd post samples if BJ, Jen and Jgo allow me *lol*

Ate at I love Sushi with Joanah, Ross, Jr, Jen and BJ since it's gonna be one of the restaurants I'll be reviewing for the second BLiP issue :D I hope I do well. :)

Just when I thought fortune is at my peak, my pick-up's Steering Belt got busted so BJ and I had to wait at Mike's place. Thanks Mike :D Got home at 12am since we had to wait for another ride and the tow truck with the company mechanics. BJ spent the night since it was too late and we ended up playing Dynasty Warriors 5 until 4am.

Thursday: May 19, 2005

Went to school with the intent of adding two more subjects but due to the long line and the incompatibility of the schedules I decided to go to the SPO and hang out. Fortunately Di told me I didn't have to enroll to Ordev-2 just to take recollection 2. I wanna take the retreat with most of the people I know like with either Mike and the others or with the SPO gang. Pope's kinda torn too. Who can blame us? The SPO is a happy bunch and I love them (is expecting subsidy to increase by the end of the term). *lol*

ANYway...

Went home earlier to see Star Wars 3 with Kuya Joel, his wife Ate Malou, their children Martin and Marriane and my nephew Jayjay. It was a nice movie and it made me want to watch episodes 4, 5 and 6 once more. Ate at Jollibee afterwards and Kuya Joel and I discussed the philosophical values of Star Wars and how episode 3 affected the mind set of all the characters on the later episodes.

Sarsi is now served at Jollibee!! HAPPY!!! ^_^

My dinner would have been peachy if it weren't for that stupid waiter who just had to horse around with another waiter therefore making him spray chlorox at my food. Almost went nuts again since I have Ate Malou and Kuya Joel to back me up on this. Good thing they replaced the meal for free.

To be continued....

Mood: Exhausted
Listening to: A Song for You by the Carpenters

Emergency GA and Slumber Party!

2005-05-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

the emergency GA that morning was productive. I cant believe they made me Audio Visual head for the coming launch this June. It's gonna be exciting!! The atmosphere this time at the SPO is actually more livelier than before and I actually enjoy hanging out with these people. Too bad this is my last year at college.Saw friendly faces once more like Joanah, Jgo, Charlotta, Tasha and Pope. I had fun being makulit at some people that day like Charlotta and Eunice. Takot nga lang ako baka nasobrahan ako sa kulit. XD

Will be working with Jan and Sam for the intro video and the animations. Hope I can kick ass. :D

The Karilyon was finally finished. Kudos to Ross, Faith, Ricky and Aries. Saludo ako sa inyo. :)

After all the pleasantries was the much awaited Slumber Party at my house! YAY! Unfortunately due to the late announcements, only a few people were able to make it. Johanna, Renito and Brian could have made it. :(

Roster of people who made it:
- BJ (drove the van! 2nd bro! thanks pal)
- Sir Randy (syempre sya nagyaya din e)
- Vinci (everyone's favorite kuya)
- Jenjen (shobe!)
- Di (si 2nd mama, Darna!!! *lol*)
- Pope (younger brother!!)
- Philip (bottomless pit no.1)
- JR (master!)
- Ross (Filipino editor ng bayan)
- Johnny (layout dude!!)
- Luthfi (humabol sya and he brought cake!! We luv u Luthfi)
- Dustin (Yearbook staffer pero one of the gang na rin)

The road trip took awhile since we had to drive the van and the car has very bad handling and speed. Bought food stuffs sa SM Fairview and they acted like tourists especially inside Ace hardware. I think it was Vinci who was doing the Japanese tourist impressions while Sir Randy went into decorator mode. It was a riot. *lol*

It was already 10 pm when we arrived here at my home. I prepared Tacos while BJ bought two garlic pizzas from Shakey's. Everyone was so hungry so the food quickly disappeared. Vinci gave light to the dinner table with his perverted jokes which will eventually send him to hell. *lmao*

After eating some of the people played Soul Calibur 2 while some of us played Twister!!! Galing ni Philip. Parang si Spiderman!

The activities were divided like a fraction of the gang played PS2, some played cards, some slept already while some watched movies. Played my very first game of Bluff and it was fun. I wasn't much of a liar so I couldn't play it properly. Buti na lang di ako natalo *lol* Dustin finished first and then me. It came down to the two bluff veterans BJ and Vinci.

Played against Pope and BJ on the PS2. Had fun playing The Rumble Fish, King of Fighters 2003 and Guilty Gear XX. Pope was sooooo cool at Guilty Gear XX. I bow down to him at his superiority! I'm not worthy! :D

As for the movies, we watched movies like Euro Trip, Suicides (a disturbing art film where people commit suicide in front of the camera), View from Top, Dodge Ball, Not Another Teen Movie and Into the Woods (a funny musical about getting several fairy tales together in one story). Didn't really watch Euro Trip, Suicides and Not Another Movie. Weren't too good for my tastes unfortunately.

Johnny and Luthfi discovered the joy of playing Dynasty Warriors. Even Jen and Vinci got hooked. :D Dianne made a drink consisting of Gin, Sprite and Blue Gatorade.

Since most of the sleeping places were occupied and we needed the peace, Pope and I slept at my room while the others slept at the living room. Jen and Di were supposed to sleep on my bed while Pope, BJ and I occupied the floor but BJ fell asleep on the couch, Di got knocked out because of the drink and Jen got interested with Dynasty Warriors. I gave Pope my Brush Pen and a box of 36 pastels from Mungyo (a good brand). He's got a lot of potential and as artists, we need to help each other grow. I look forward to the day where he'll achieve his goal of progression.

Luthfi and Johnny woke me up since they had to leave earlier than the others. Dustin, Pope and I were the first one to wake up then Sir Randy and BJ. Bj took pics of all the people still sleeping. I should post the pics here but due to the vulgarity of their poses I will not or else they will kill me. *lol* Had breakfast of scrambled eggs, strawberry pancakes, suman and sweet pandesal. We had to wake Ross up to cook the spaghetti he volunteered to prepare. It was really good. Thanks Ross! :)

Ross and me preparing in the kitchen. I'm taking care of the noodles while he chopped the ingredients like onions and hotdogs.

Pope helping us out in the kitchen

While the three of us prepared the pasta, BJ and Sir Randy worked on the grill outside. The porkchop steaks they grilled were great! :)

Proud si Sir Randy sa kanyang porkchops

BJ attempting to taste test hot off the grill

After the meal, everyone just started to relax. Yung iba natulog uli while yung iba naglaro ng PS2. Si Vinci tuloy gusto na magka-PS2! Hehe. It was around 4 and still the people lounged around until Sir Randy told us that they should be going home.

- candid shot sa living room namin - :D

It was nice having my friends sleepover my house and it was really fun. Can't wait until the next sleepover at whoever's house. :)

Mood: Tired but Happy
Listening to: Precious Moments (I wanna see you again) by True Kiss Destination

hectic summer and it's still too hot

2005-05-11T18:27:00.000+08:00

I hate the heat. It forces me to sleep naked. Bwahahahahahahahaha >:) joke

Saturday:
Went out with my old highschool buddies, Jayps and Eric. It's the first time Jayps saw me drive, hehe. I thought he was going to bring a helmet. Eric made us wait at Libis tho since he works at Citibank. XD Played Guitar Freaks 11th mix at Eastwood Mall. The machine there is great with only 15 bucks per game and 5 songs! WOOHOO!!!! I love Twinkle Star, Sailing Day and Mr. Bobby. Bought Go Nuts Donuts by myself. They can ruin a person's diet.

Went to Rockwell again afterwards to play some more. We had the running gag that day to play Mushiking :)) Eric treated us to Chinese Monk that night since his bday is coming up. :D We had a fun night.

Sunday:
Mother's day! We celebrated at Super Bowl of China. Got top priority since kilala na ako dun. Bwahahahaha. Beat that Kris Aquino! Dapat sa Tsim Tsai Tsui kami kaso nakipagaway pa kami ni Kuya Joel and Ate Malou dahil ubos na lahat ng gusto naming food. Kaya pala pilit ng pilit yung waiter na ordering namin yung mga MAHAL na specials. 800 pesos for a Peking Duck! Buti sana kung gawa yung duck sa ginto! It's the second night I ate Yang Chow Fried Rice for Dinner.

Lumalaki nanaman tyan ko.

Monday - Wednesday:
Worked at the SPO for the remaining 3 days. Honestly I have no idea what my primary role is there. Pinag-eedit nila ako, pinag-dedesign and pinag-lalayout. I dont mind it tho. I think it's fun. I feel like I can give so much to the SPO but I'm worried that my studies will affect it. Syempre top priority ko parin ang studies. Jaja hired me to do some work too like re-drawing comic strips her friend made. Very interesting since I'll be using western cartoon styles to draw the characters. It's something new to me but I'll do my best.

I love the SPO gang and I hope that I can help them.

I once received a fortune cookie and the words still haunt me:
"Accept responsibilities and you will rise to the occasion and become the leader of men"

Maybe it's high time I did.

Congratulations to everyone for the printing of Horizons and Blip! *applause* Karilyon na lang!

Thursday:
Enlightened with what happened last night. Looks like I found a great songwriting partner. I just hope we do great stuff together. :)

Another Japanese song made me cry this morning. Mika Nakashima's Sakurairo Maukoro... I downloaded both the video and the mp3. It's so sad and beautiful. I'll try to translate it during my free time.

Didn't go to the office today but I had to work on some legal documents for the Family Business like signing paperwork and helping clean the house since tomorrow's the SPO slumber party. You guys should see the poster Jaja made :)) Sir Randy went nuts *lmao*

Mood: Thinking
Listening to: Yuki no Hana (snow flower) by Mika Nakashima

Out of it at deviantart

2005-05-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

I'm still out of it at deviantart... call it a little bit of trauma from what happened to my first DA meet... it just made me realize a lot of stuff I have been neglecting or have been taking for granted.

First of all, my reasons for drawing. Is it this obsession from getting 10000 page views? Shouldn't I be drawing for the love of my art instead of wanting to impress people?

Second, is my art style actually growing? Am I giving my characters enough life? Should I take my art style to a new level and not let anime be the premise that depicts art as art?

Third, am I taking the necessary steps needed to achieve my dreams? Shouldn't I be focusing on finishing writing my novel than moving on to other stuff?

Sure my primary style of drawing is anime, particularly shoujo. But it's my style. I shouldn't be ashamed of it. It captures the essences and gives life to the characters and stories I created.

I may not be as great an artist as most people here but is greatness measured through pageviews or the way it's anime or it's cute? Of course not. Art is about giving life.

I should recapture that focus so I could begin to create life no matter how crude my art style is. It shouldn't matter as long as I know it's mine.

Sorry about the so called summer projects but I need to deal with this issue first before moving on. It's high time actually start finishing what I started... 8 years ago....

Mood: In deep thought
Listening to: Sore ga Ai deshou - Fumoffu Opening Song

Damn this heat

2005-05-05T11:28:00.000+08:00

My body's currently out of it. As much as I'd like to draw and play with my new tablet, or go to school and work on the school paper, I can't. I'm sick with headaches, a sore throat and a runny nose. What caused this is probably fatigue and the fact that it's so friggin hot this summer. It's inhuman! It's like there's a huge warm blanket draped around you everywhere you go.

Tuesday May 3, 2005:

Went to school to go to the gym with some of the SPU people and hopefully work on the school paper some more. Kainis nga lang since the main file for Adobe Pagemaker got corrupted or something so Faith had to piece together the different articles into one huge file again.

Around 2:00 we headed to the gym in a larger group now. :) Jen, Ross, Geline and I went on ahead while Vinci, Jaja and her sis followed later. The gym was chaotic since Sir Bong wasn't there to oversee the workout schedules. The entire women's basketball team was there and they reek of testosterone. I mean, damn. They walk around with only their bra's on as if it were nothing to them. What is it with Girls in the women's basketball team? They suddenly turn into lesbians or something.

Sir Bong told us that unless we are athletes we cannot use the gym until school starts. Bummer. Now to find a new place to work out for the time being.

Back at the office, I tried to help Faith with her work but she seems to handle it pretty well. We had fun with an FHM magazine tho and to quote Jaja: "the Princess Exposed". (inside joke) I dont believe self respecting girls would just send in smutty stories to entice guys. That's just low. Regarding that pic I took of Jen at the gym last week, let's just say we ran around with Jen chasing me because Sam and Vinci wanted a copy of the dreaded pic. Basta ang gulo! Sam even went inside the girl's bathroom just to scare the living daylights out of Jen. Things mellowed down for a while when Vinci, Jaja and I made charicatures of Sir Randy. Need to work on the eyes. To top off that day, I just found out that our beloved Editor-in-Chief, Dianne, has a "kiliti in everywhere". If Vinci and BJ hadn't restrained me Di would have hyperventilated. It was fun. I like ticklish women. Bwahahahahahaha.

After everything settled down, Vinci asked us to go with him to this Chinese Restaurant near his house. I forgot the name but it has an all you can eat buffet for only 160 bucks. Sadly only BJ, Sir Randy, Vinci, Dianne, Jen and I got to go since the pick-up was big enough to fit only 6 people. Jaja and Jr wanted to go too pa naman pero makikinood lang at hindi kakain. The Yangchow fried rice was good and it had little daing bits. I'd type here the stuff we talked about but I swore an oath that nothing leaves that table. :)

We visited Vinci's house and talked about creepy stories. We wished Sam was there or he'll either have a fit with the mess or have an orgasm with the mere thought of cleaning that place.

The enchanted kingdom trip wont push through tho but they're thinking of having an SPU sleepover at my house this summer. Sana matuloy XD Si Sir Randy may gusto din e *lol*

Wednesday May 4, 2005:

Start of my sickness. But I needed to finish one task I've been meaning to do for the longest time: Clean my Room. Good thing BJ showed up to help me. He's such a good chap XD. Unfortunately we didn't get to finish the entire room in one day. That's the thing about owning a big room. You need to fill up that space but it in the end it's too much stuff to handle. I fixed my desk, my sktechpads and my CD collection. Need to work on my cabinets and my anime collection figurine set-up. It's not as good as Milo's but it's adequate for me. :D

Aia met me on YM and she's offering me two jobs. I wish I can do them well this summer.

--- still not finished with the emoticons XD ----
Mood: So-so
Listening to: Himawari (Sunflower) - Someday's Dreamers OST

Azumanga Daioh Quiz!

2005-05-05T11:16:00.000+08:00

You are Kagura-san! Ignore this picture!
Athletics, inner strength, and understanding
life is what keeps you running. Literally.
You are a very active person. You love sports.
You love life. Most of the time. It's very
hard to break your spirit, although you
sometimes have to work to keep your chin up.
But you always succeed in the end. You
could've been straight out of Battle Athletes,
you love sports so much. Consider a career in
athletics. You adore the physical realm, and
love being in it. Your theme song would be
Chocobo music. And behind all that brawn lies
a brain. A very intelligent mind, in fact.
You're not book smart, and don't do great in
school, but you have a lot to say. Even then,
you rarely get the chance to say it. Still, in
some ways, you are that part of the group which
keeps it together. You are one who is kind
even to your enemies. You have many friends,
but you enjoy the company of an Osaka, and you
two often help eachother through the hard parts
of life.

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Boy's day out, yearbook and DA meet

2005-05-01T14:17:00.000+08:00

Let's start off with the Boy's Day out... We call it boy's day out because it's that day Gerr and Ace couldn't make it.

Thursday

The original plan was supposed to go Puerto Galera but things regressed from that to Batangas to Laguna until it the verdict reached just going to my house. But Gerr and Ace had last minute changes so they couldn't make it. So ayun... Rockwell na lang. 5 boys in a mall with cute asian girls walking about. What could happen? :D BJ was being the hyperactive kid that time, Mark being the only guy of the bunch who's not single assumed the role of being mr. cool, Ton was still Ton... though I know something's bothering him that time and I'll not talk about it here, Mike was... odd, well I... assumed my role of being somewhat aloof (I think).

Ate at Bread Talk again and for the 3rd time, Mt. Fuji Swirl wasn't available. Poor BJ. After a few rounds in the arcade, we watched Guess Who (after debating on which movie to see, Mark wanted XXX2 while I tried to insist that we watch that movie with Sandara Park *lol*). Good movie that had substance and the subtle placement and resolution of each main character's issues made it really worth while. Got into a bit of trouble at first since we were noisy due to the 80's songs being played before the movie. They didn't show the trailer of Pink Panther again... :(

Mike, Ton and Mark had to leave early arond 5:30 for various reasons. BJ and I roamed the mall abit and talked serious matters while dining at Chinese Monk. Saw Richard Guttierez... geh.

Friday

Finally! I finished gathering all requirements for the Yearbook. Finally got my pictorial stub! Hope I dont loose it unlike SOME PEOPLE. :p joke. Saw my friend there. Her smile can brighten anyone's day. Seriously!

Helped out in the ofice for a while until 5:30 since the people at SPU got invited to Ate Rizza's child Erin at Mc Donalds Greenbelt. Boohoohoo *cries* k lang. I needed to go home early anyway.

I looked at a note I got from deviantart.com saying there's gonna be a workshop by the Artist's Den people. I wanted to meet some people from DA so I can improve on my art and hopefully meet new people. Good thing Pope wanted to go too so I texted a few more people hoping they could join too like Gerr, BJ, Ace, Milo and Rye.

Saturday

Made it to megamall but I wuz late due to parking. Saturday at Megamall with a 3-day sale. Whoop-dee-do. Well Ace and Gerr couldn't make it -_-, Milo had some family business to take care of, BJ was.. well... misunderstanding with dad ata and Rye... hehe, trauma daw with some of the people.

Pope was late too so since we couldn't make it to the 12pm workshop, we decided to hang around and wait until it was 3 to meet with the DA peeps sa Bowling. Till then we hung out and it was great. Got dehydrated from talking too much. The guy had a lot of thoughts in his head. He "convinced" me to buy the Li Kohran Sakura Wars figurine. *lol* it was on sale anyway and a great deal too from 600 to 250. :D Pope and I waited for the rest of the DA people to show up sa Bowling area and when they did... getting to talk to them was another thing. *lol* I wanted Pope to talk first because he's taller but he said that I should talk first because I was older. After a looooooooong period of standing... we got to talk to some of them although it wasn't what we hoped to see.

The artists there were great but they give the impression that they are drawing just for the sake of being impressive. Their portfolios were great and very top notch. But I didn't feel life in them. I dunno if it's me but it's probably the result of 8 years with working on a story while creating characters that had life though they're only seven. My main focus is probably to tell a story and the art and drawings are there to support it.

The last few minutes were a bit... surreal since we ended up talking to these two girls about cosplay, Naruto and Shaman King. Pope was showing tell tale signs that he wanted to leave. We did leave and we ranted all the way to National Bookstore.

One thing we learned is to avoid becoming artists that evolve around the premise that anime is what makes art art. We didn't find what we were seeking tho but I had a great time. Pope if you're reading this, thanks pal! /no1

--- will not have mood pics for the time being since I'll be making new ones ---
Mood: Enlightened
Listening to: Hitori gotomitai ni Aishiteta by Dorlis

Highway star and some Thai food :p

2005-04-24T12:25:00.000+08:00

I had a fun morning...

There I was leisurely taking my time at Sm Fairview looking for a new pair of socks and some weight lifting gloves for the gym. I had some digital pics developed at Picture City and ate Spicy Pork at Pilo. It was around 12:50 that I casually walked towards my pick-up to drive over to school to work on layouting for the Karilyon and join Vinci and the others to go to the gym at AKIC.

Around 1:05 did I suddenly realize that my pick-up is coding and I have less than an hour before I get creamed by the cops.

Moving like a snake, I zipped and zoomed past numerous obstacles (miscellaneous careless jeepneys, buses, taxis and fxs... and some pedestrians too... ) in a race against time. 2 o clock, I reached that parking space near Benilde without getting my ass burned. Another reason why I hurried was because I needed to pee and I held it in for a whole hour.

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha...

The entire fiasco probably made me a felon to those jeeps, buses and fxs. Pope said that I shouldn't mind it since they deserved the madness anyway. Think of it as a public service where as I gave revenge in behalf of all those annoyed decent motorists (and pedestrians) plagued by the inhumanity of jeep/bus/fx drivers.

Nyahahahahahahahahahahahaha...

I love driving. :D

So there, the whole afternoon was mellow. Vinci, Jenjen and I went to the gym. I'd post that pic of Jenjen with the dumbbells but she'd kill me if I did. *lol* She couldn't keep a straight face the whole time she did her workout routine. I helped spot Vinci with the barbells... something I never thought I'd ever do.

Helped with the layout after the gym thing since I'm back as a layout staffer. :) I have a few terms left in my stay in college and the SPU has been kind enough to me so it's the least I could do to show my appreciation since I'm not that going to be busy anymore during my last few terms.

Going home was better since there isn't much traffic from Taft to Novaliches. I constantly meowed and screamed Japanese phrases inside the car while making weird faces to annoy or freak-out the other motorists.

I swear I'm not going to eat another Oriental Rice Bowl from KFC. That thing has so much fat content I just balloon up after eating it. I'd rather eat at Ayuthaiiya that great Thai restaurant at SM Fairview. It's one of those few restaurants that know me. *lol* BJ and I usually eat there if we have money. For 300 bucks we get great ulam and a plate of their delicious Spicy Chicken Fried Rice. It's also the only restaurant I know where the head chef actually goes out and greets the customers. He always makes our food spicy since we like spicy food :) I just couldn't get enough of it! Yum! I think I'll go there tomorrow to eat.

Mood: Playful

Listening to : Helpless by Taeko

Re-evaluating my life

2005-04-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

I had a good talk with Milo last night concerning my life so far for the past year... He helped me peice together the fragments of the puzzle I call my life.

Let's get one thing out in the open. I USED to be Bisexual. Why was I even one? It's a defense mechanism and I misinterpreted people's affections. I was desperate and needy for love.

I thought that if I go for both genders I'd get laid more or something. Fortunately nothing happened and I think God wanted to tell me something with that. Maybe I am supposed to be straight. Or better yet, maybe my entire issue right now does not revolve around the fact why am I still single.

It's not about why I'm still single. It's all about me as a person and how I should strive to become better. I spent days and nights wondering why I'm still single wondering if I repel people. It's not about being in a relationship. It's all about finally realizing who I am and my reason for existance.

Thankfully Alvin and Rye declined my offer/affection otherwise I wouldn't have realized that there are more important things that I should be dealing with right now.

Meeting some significant people in teambuilding made a lot of difference in me. I met this one specific person and the way we talked and related to each other was more than enough. It made me content and hopefully complete. I felt incomplete because I never felt a love from my dad or my brothers while I grew up. Then there's this guy who I just met but acknowledged my existance. Now there's nothing more I need. Let's just say I somewhat found peace.

BJ's right. I never hooked up with my crush from the yearbook but I made a good friend. :)

What's instore for me now? I'm straight again. :D But I'm not in a hurry to find THE ONE like before. My next mission is to finally use my talents to make it into the industry and make a name for myself. I wanna publish my works, comics and animations to the world as an artist with passion and a story to tell...

I just hope that whatever challenges comes my way, I'll be strong enough to overcome them.

Mood: Determined

Listening to: Hikari no Naka e by Maaya Sakamoto

From the Teambuilding experience

2005-04-22T01:53:00.000+08:00

I just came back from the SPU teambuilding seminar April 18 to 20. I had fun and it was one of those few times that I didn't care about running halfnaked around the beach *lol*

This could take a while so I'll break it down:

April 18... Day 1:
I was feeling nervous since when I stepped into the office before departure I hardly knew anyone there. I had second thoughts of not coming along actually but since Jaja and the rest of the powerpuff girls were there I thought, what the hey.

After 2 hours of bus time we arrived at White Cove beach resort Batangas. Save for the lovely beach, this place had weird building layouts. The pool was half finished so it kinda sucked in a way. Not planning to go back here unfortunately. Honestly, unless you're in a group of 80 plus people, this place will not be fun.

Seeing that BJ and most of the guys I'm close with are facilitators I decided to find a buddy or a companion to be with. Met this guy named Pope (real name Gian) and the guy was pretty cool. Thankfully we got the same room assignment. Strangely tho... the guy reminds me of one of my characters for Assorted Nuts, Jon.

The group I got assigned with was fun. There's Jaja (ever kulit and number 1 talent), Jc (promotor ng ka-jologan sa group), Janice (kala mo tahimik pero tindi humirit), Jam (she's one cool girl), Tasha (very fun, muntik na magtangakang magnakaw ng big umbrella sa resort), Julie (she lead us to salvation!), me (the resident artist) and Charlotta (the group mascot na sobrang kulit). We called ourselves Charlotta's Angels because of our groupmate Charlotta. Haha! She probably hates me for it in a way since I came up with the name. Buti na lang game na game sila.

"Charlotta, Charlotta, Ang Sarap sarap maging angel mo
pwedeng gumiling, pwede magswimming, pwedeng sumisid, pwedeng magmasid"
-- our beloved Cheer composed by JC, sung to the tune of Basketball *lmao*

This proved to be quite outrageous since andaming na LSS dito. :D

Nighttime came and the room we stayed in felt like it was a Christian fellowship thing. I'm not complaining but I didn't expect JM and Renito to be religious people. I'm glad tho since I think God put me there to hear the good word and to give me insights on how to be straight.
Funny tho since Renito and JM was trying to convince BJ to pull down his pride. Honestly, I think he needed it and it's up to him whether he listens or not.

April 19... Day 2:

I started working on our small group yearbook by plotting the outlines and drawing the group portraits. Good thing they loved it. :) Vinci and Sam asked me to do drawings for the Lord of the rings jack and poy game. It was fun tho I didn't know how to draw orcs. Haha. We didn't win there tho but we had a blast especially since Jc gave life to the word "Shield". Another thing that marked a place in the hearts of those in the teambuilding. Hehe.

I didn't enjoy the next activity however with all the bidding. I dunno if I was tired or if I was out of it but I got pissed off with BJ that time since he was acting like a powertripping maniac. Didn't talk to him throughout the entire day except during dinner time when I started using my negative energy towards something constructive like making him the butt of my jokes. Bonded some more with Pope tho. Very nice guy and we had a nice friendly chemistry too. Wish we could get to know each other more. Good candidate for bestfriend. Hehe.

Fortunately, the group kept me busy and kept things fun. We got late for the Series of Unfortunate events so we had to be punished. 15 reps of pushups for the guys.. dunno about the girls but they had to squat tho. We didn't care tho. I had a feeling we were the only group who was the least aware of what's going on. *lol* I loved that game since it was the only time I ran across the beach with out a shirt and with pride. HAHAHAHAHAHA...

I genuinely loved our group. We hardly became serious but we still kicked ass and we laughed a lot giving us great group dynamics. Our skit on Finding Nemo was brilliant and we won best musical score thanks to Jc's choreography, Charlotta's dance and Jaja's singing :D

After that, we retreated to our rooms. Still not talking to BJ since I needed time to cool off. Pope and I bonded some more by not joining the rest of the guys in the common room and just talked on the terrace. That kid has a lot of insight and I like people who start conversations that made sense.

April 20... the last day:

It's the day when everyone relaxed at the beach after Mike Mariano's talk. It was fun and refreshing. I wanted to teach Charlotta how to swim but she wouldn't let me. Too bad. We would have stayed in the beach some more but then jelly fishes came. Grrr... That's oughto do it.

We left at around 1 after a lot of picture taking. I'll post my pics soon once I get them scanned or imported. It was a lot of fun since I made new friends. Weird since their impression of me before was I was this quiet serious introvert. Gulat sila nung temabuilding since I was soooo makulit. Hehe.

I also realized this is my last teambuilding. I hope I can come next year as a facilitator. :)

Listening to: Open your Mind (Ah my Goddess TV Opening theme)

Mood: Tired but Happy

Megaman Battle Network Quiz @_@

2005-04-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

You're Roll.EXE. Operated by Mayl, you're a
kind-hearted Navi who isn't as much known for
straight out battling, but your caring, healing
power. You have a pet PopUp virus by the name
of Rush, who you absolutely love, and you are
MegaMan.EXE's closest friend.

Which MegaMan Battle Network 1 NetNavi are you?
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Sailormoon nostalgia

2005-03-29T16:14:00.000+08:00

~You're Sailor Venus!~ Mina is a 14 year-old who
fought crime alone in France before joining the
Sailor Scouts as their fifth member. She is
easy to get along with, and quickly made
friends with everyone else. Mina and Serenity
spend the most time together, because they are
so alike and share the same interests. Likes =
volleyball, birds, and gymnastics. Dislikes =
mushrooms, police officers, and show-offs. Best
quality = leadership.

.:Which Sailor Moon Character Are You?:.
brought to you by Quizilla

You are pretty and talented. You are liked by everyone, but you don't have a lot of close friends. You are really ambitious when it comes to your goals in life.

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Which PGSM character are you?
Quiz made by
Linnie

During the holy week...

2005-03-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

Is it me or did something change here ib Blogspot?? O_o

Anyway, I'm a bit groggy. The easter weekend still haunts me a bit. A mixture of good and bad events...

Thursday
- Watched Kate and Leopold and 13 going on 30 on DVD. Loved those two movies. Cried at 13 going on 30 and took notes on being a gentleman from Kate and Leopold. Hehe. I'm glad I watched these movies. I need to do a lot of catching up to do movie-wise!

Friday
- made a few new artworks for Deviantart. Trying to make renditions of all the sailormoon characters. Will start posting my comic strips everyweek too for more hits XD

Saturday
- drove my mom to Edsa Shangri La Hotel for an overnight stay with Kuya Joel, his wife Ate Malou and their children Martin and Marianne. Went nuts when I drove through the flyover in front of Robinsons Galleria. Mababaw lang talaga kaligayahan ko... *lol* Got sweaty after playing dance maniax so I went to People are People and bought a new shirt. Haha, I made a tall cute guy smile and wave at me. Due to sexual politics I decided not to do anything or he'd think I'm too easy. Besides, my family was waiting for me at the cineplex to watch Ms. Congeniality 2. It was ok but I loved the first movie way better. After that we ate at Mongkok then got a free massage because of the movie promo.

Sunday
- Was a bit groggy because of my nephew Martin's loud snoring. Slept with my CD player and my earphones while listening to Michael Buble on repeat (which compelled me to buy the new Michael Buble album). After swimming, we declared to call it a day so I drove my mom all the way home. It was fun going up to 95 the first time. Had to stop by the mall for a little grocery shopping. Finally found LITE MAYO!!! YAY!!!

Wasn't able to get any easter eggs... unfortunately. Besides, after finally telling Rye about my feelings and intentions he said no and sorry but that's alright. Not sad about it but still disappointed about it. It would have been nice.

Listening to: How Sweet it is (Michael Buble rendition)
Mood: Out of it

Oh my bloggy, how I missed you!

2005-03-24T12:09:00.000+08:00

To celebrate my return to this blog, here's something to start things off!

See what Care Bear you are

Awfully interesting. XD

Anyway, so here's a recap of what I've been upto the past month:

- Thinking of quitting Ragnarok Online because of the irritating players and is now playing Rose Online because of the friendlier people. And it's a plus that Rye is playing there too.

- Worked my ass off for thesis which really paid off since Gerr and I got a high grade and the panelists were so impressed. Goes to show you can loosen some very tight asses through humor. :)

- Still single (sadly) *sigh*. Couldn't make any moves because of the work load.

- An old crush Eunice seemed happy that I wanted to take the same P.E. class with her. Who knows what will happen next term. Thankfully, I wont be blockmates with Alvin anymore. No matter how much I tell myself that he'ls not that bad, I still want him out of my life.

- Getting better at driving to the point that I get asked to drive my mom to prayer meetings and grocery shopping. I dont really mind since I do enjoy driving.

- Will not be using my credit card for the next 3-6 months for fasting. I realized I became too dependent on it. -_-;

That's all I could think of for now. I hope to write in again soon. Ciao!

Listening to: Till I Met you
Mood: Nervous

Vday jitters

2005-02-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

I'm currently regretting that Shakey's dinner. The bulge in my tummy is haunting me again. *shrieks in panic* Not a good sign and I should be sleeping right too. Looks like I'll be back to fiber bread and broiled chicken sandwiches.

Speaking of food, I'm trying out the non fattening baked French fries recipe and I made a nice delectable mozzarella pizza with non-fat mozzarella cheese. Sprinkle a little garlic, 3 cheese spaghetti sauce and protein bread will do you good. :)

It's almost Valentines (or the lesser known Single Awareness Day) and it's getting too hyped for its own good again. I see new motel promos coming out and we'll be expcting a bit of an earthquake in motel areas like Sta. Mesa. Hopefully I wont be wearing black this monday. *wink-wink* Milo and I are planning to go out this Saturday to buy our mothers V-day gifts. Anyone who wants to go is welcome. BJ, if you're reading this, sige alis tayo! XD Sana pwede si Clarisse. Gerr and Ace, setting the whole mother thing aside, wanna join us? :D I just found out my Quantum Power Card doesn't have an expiry date so we don't have to buy those grey cards. I just hope that idiot that makes annoying noises when you play music related games wont show up. Honestly, I would like to stick my drumsticks up his ass.

Mood: Playful

Listening to: di ko alam ang title ng kanta XD

Norah Jones CD!

2005-02-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

A bit excited about the Norah Jones this March. I wish I can go with someone. Speaking of which, I bought a copy of Norah Jones "Feels like Home" deluxe edition and for the price of a regular CD, it came with 3 bonus tracks and a special VCD with live performances, music videos and an interview. BJ will be very happy that it's original. XD

Danced Dance Maniax with Eric again with our sunday usual and saw an old classmate from Elementary to Highschool, Michael Bacalla. Eric and I checked out the car show at the trade expo at the ground floor of SM Fairview. All I can say is I want a Honda Jazz. It's small enough for tight spaces and it's uber cute. ^_^

Mood: Determined

Listening to: Creepin' In by Norah Jones

Driving!

2005-02-06T01:59:00.000+08:00

Today was a fun day. Exciting as hell but fun.

Gerr, Ace, BJ, Milo, CD and I went to Rockwell to have fun. BJ, Ace and I finally got to play session mode in Guitar freaks and Percussion freaks after a gazillion years with me on lead guitars, BJ on base and Ace on drums. I screwed up in "My Sweet Darlin'" but it was still hella fun. :) I also danced Dance Dance Revolution Extreme and Dance Maniax and I think my stamina went up a notch with all the training and workout I go through. We all tried the Taiko drums game from Namco and had fun with it espcially if the themes from One Piece, Rurouni Kenshin, Astroboy 2004 and Dragonball Z were there in the song selections.

After that, we watched Elektra. It was kinda ok. I wont spoil it for anyone who hasn't watched it but there were too many elements. Ace made an analogy with flowers, pots and stuff. Hehe.

After the movie we ate at Shakey's. My treat. :) Margherita Pizza, Pepperoni Pizza, Chicken and Mojos and Spaghetti with Meatballs made us full on the spot. Add to that sarcasm, friendly spats, straight guys, bisexuals and lesbians along with green innuendos, it's a family treat for everyone! I just hope we didn't make too much noise in the restaurant.

Oh, I got to drive too. @_@

Yeah, after a few weeks of being dormant driving-wise, the gang made me drive from Milo's place in Taft to Gerr's place in Paranaque. They guided me but it was nerve rending. All the silly pedestrians and motorists made me scream inside the pick up. Too bad the horn is not working too. But I had fun. They all said I need the experience so I'll practice until I get better.

Mood: Drained (but happy)

Listening to: Tuloy pa rin ako by Labuyo

_

2005-02-04T20:17:00.000+08:00

Today's a weird day...

I woke up quarter to 1 and I have an appointment at 2:30 at Starbucks Taft. Fortunately speed-bathing is one of my special abilities. I finally met up with Rye. No comment. ^_^ Let's just say I had fun.

Ace had an emergency thingy so I had to call her up. The emergency was kinda private so I'm keeping it between her, Gerr and me.

Had lechon kawali for dinner and it's a big no-no. I HAVE SINNED!!! I will definitelyn regret this tomorrow. I must dance Dance Dance Revolution tonight. Must get rid of 500 calories!!!! @_@

Mood: Ahihihi ^_^

Listening to: Reasons by Earth, Wind and Fire

Ah February...

2005-02-02T23:04:00.000+08:00

Wow, it's February again and as usual I dont have a date for the 14th. But I dont mind. I'll be spending Single Awareness Day with a couple of single friends. Well... that is if I dont find a date... Hehe.

*keeping fingers crossed* I hope "he" comes through.We agreed to meet tomorrow and I'm a bit nervous. I hope I make a goof... er good impression. *kamot ulo* Ehehe... It's hard asking people out. You come to a point that you have to limit yourself otherwise you'll come off desperate and it's a turnoff...

I finally finished my short animation of Yoda vs. Gollum. Jana and the others laughed at it and Rye thought it was cute. It doesn't matter really at least they think it's fun and it's not crappy. At least I'm getting paid for it and as a consolation, they thought I was an 18 year old serious introvert. They couldn't believe I was turning 25 when I told them so it kinda boosted my ego. Hehe. That's my failing, people usually see me as an unapprochable person. Of couse, always remember not to judge a book by its cover.

Well my cat died. I'm still guessing after 3 days of horsing around and getting laid he didn't eat well and he ate something bad and died. What do you expect from a cat that eats nothing but Whiskas. In a way I'm glad the meowing noises are gone but I'll miss that furball. I think I'll get a new cat. BJ suggest I pick up a stray and I think it's a good idea. Strays are good mousers and we're getting mice in the house again.

I began using the small gym above my friend's condo at Burgundy. It's near school and no one really goes there so I get my privacy. I got Milo to join me and I'm spotting for him (I term I didn't think I'd actually use). I hope we both get kick-ass bodies by the end of 6 months. I'm planning to go as a Monk from Ragnarok Online at the cosplay event on May.

Haven't played any online games for a while... but I'm very hooked on Suikoden 4. I love the suiko-series. I love Flare... she looks like Ailyn and she's hot.

Mood: Playful (as always ^_^)

Listening to: Yokoshima Color Baby by Nina

Week report

2005-01-29T22:26:00.000+08:00

Finally... some time to write here. Better change the font too... I think it's too small for my own good.

Tuesday: (evening)
-- Was very happy that Yvette and Lar came to my grandma's wake and it's the first time I experienced friends going to any of my relative's wakes. I feel happy about it. I'm now part of the official choir for my grandma's wake. Tito Badong and his wife, Tita Deng, played the guitars while my second brother Kuya Arnel and his wife, Ate Belle, Tita Sioning (the family diva) and I sang.

Wednesday:
-- Still going nuts with the entire Alvin thing. Because of that I said some nasty things at Ragnarok to Gerr, Clarisse and Milo. Had to stay up very late since Milo kinda gave me therapy. It's good actually so he can still practice the stuff he learned in psychology. I wasn't able to be part of tonight's choir because I had to attend class. Looks like they missed me and they never really thought of me as a good singer. Well, I doubt they knew I was a tenor for the parish choir. Hehe

Thursday:
-- Decided not to go to school today mainly because I'm still not ready to be in the same room with Alvin again. I stayed and helped out at the wake and resumed my duties as a member of the choir (by popular demand). My relatives from the states wanted me to sing... was too shy to go solo. LOL. Going to the wake is bad for my diet. Too much food so I had to restrain myself. I had the fish tho so it's not so bad. I had to cheat a little tho by eating some donuts and cheeserolls from Mary Grace. Tita Vivi gave me 50 dollars to buy new shoes coz my old Blue Presto shoes has a big rip in the side. It lasted me for 2 years and it was my favorite pair of shoes. Hate to part with it but I'm also excited to get my new pair. Kuya Arnel suggested Merrel because of the Kevlar bottoms and stuff.

Friday:
-- Today is the day my grandma will be placed in her final resting place. She'll be buried above my lolo and beside tito Jimmy at Manila Memorial in Sucat. While the eulogies were being said I found myself holding back the tears. This didn't really help since after the final mass my voice was already shaky so I couldn't sing properly. Tita Sioning and Kuya Arnel already stopped singing coz they both couldn't take it. I realized that time that the most painful sound ever is the sound of your mother crying. I embraced her as we both wept but life goes on. After the burial ceremony, everyone was socializing nearby and the laughter started pouring again. Tito Cesar grabbed his camera and made all the couples in the family pose for the camera as if they were paid models. Tita Cesar was calling the shots and the poses were funny. After a family photosession everyone went to my cousin's house in Las Pinas for lunch. It was a great lunch and since I'm so tired I decided to cancel my diet for that day. I know I will regret it soon. Hehe.

Before going home, I stopped by SM Fairview to buy a new pair of rubber shoes. I got a nice blue and gray pair. Can't wait to try them out. I also got a massage and it was a nice deal for 400 bucks. It came with a bath, a sauna and 2 complimentary drinks. I think I needed it after a long week.

While I was inside the sauna alone I tried out something that I think helped me over come the entire Alvin thing. I started talking to the other 6 people in me (the characters I created for my story 8 years ago) out loud and they made sense. Sure we have people in our heads but if we use them to help us than to drive us crazy then things will be a lot easier on us. I large rock was lifted from me that afternoon so I was able to leave the massage place in SM Fairview with a smile on my face.

I called Alvin and talked to him that night to apologize and to tell him that I'm not going through a great phase right now. I told him I still love him but only as a friend now and it's going to stay that way otherwise I wont be able to open my heart to the next person who will make me happier than I ever thought I'd be. Things went well after that and I played Suikoden 4 until I felt sleepy.

Saturday:
Woke up feeling great again since talking to Ailyn, Rose, Jon, Heid, Meagan and Di helped a lot. I worked on thesis and the animation clip for Jana. I think I'll take my green Nissan pickup out for a spin tomorrow. I still have to go to mass and I'll see if I can meet Eric and play dance maniax again with him.

Mood: Playful

Listening to: Memory ~for you~ Fruits Basket OST

And I'm back

2005-01-25T15:24:00.000+08:00

I woke up feeling a little better. Maybe all I needed was some rest. After eating lunch and playing Dance Dance Revolution Max2, I spent the next few minutes texting Gerr, Alvin, Ace and Milo apologetic messages.

Still have a lot to do...

Bitching about movies and stuff

2005-01-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

This is going to be one of those ultra-rare moments that I will bitch in this blog so either leave or read. Unless you want to see me dark mode, read on.

God, I'm such a mess right now and I don't know why. I've been a he-bitch to most of my friends... I texted Gerr messages on how she should have resized images and files to make things easier and I just had to lash out on Alvin because he sent a delighted text about watching Meet the Fokkers.

I dunno what it is with movies. People ask why I haven't seen this movie or why didn't I watch it when it was still on the big screen. Because no one asked me to watch it. Okay, so I ask people to watch a movie let's say The Incredibles... these are the reasons I hear most of the time.
1) No money
2) No time
3) Already seen it with other people
4) Haven't seen it but would rather watch it with other people
The last movie I saw on the big screen was White Chicks with old highschool buddies. I haven't seen Spiderman 2 and someone calls me a loser for that. Maybe I am. I mean, come on, I just eagerly await for the release of the pirated dvd and watch it in the comfort of my own home... ALONE. "At least you can pause the movie and you don't have to bear with noisy moviegoers", says Alvin. Well he completely missed the point. "And don't you watch it with your family?", he adds. What family??? My brothers have families of their own so they all watch it and sometimes they even band together to watch it as a group without informing me. My mom watches movies with her friends. There is no such thing as family when it comes to watching movies.

Heck, I doubt there's even a thing called friendship when it comes to that. I ask my ex-bestfriend Jerry before to watch Treasure Planet and I even got premier tickets but he'd rather pass and stay home after thrilling me with 2 weeks of hype. I ask another friend to watch Spiderman 2 with me but he's seen it with his mom but he "promised" to watch it again and he'll text me when he's free. Of course I wait for 1 month until the movie was no longer showing. He could have told me that it wasn't going to happen. Then there's Alvin. "Let's watch The Incredibles together", we say. Then I heard he watched it with his friends. He says that we can watch it again but it never happened. Why? Because he's too busy playing those goddamned table top rpgs. I don't mind rpgs, in fact I love them and I used to play DnD as a monk. I just hate it when it gets in the way of friendships.

Maybe I'm just too naive... As usual people abuse me for that.

So why don't I watch movies alone then? I DO NOT LIKE TO BE ALONE COZ IT SUCKS AND I'VE BEEN ALONE AND LONELY FOR 25 FUCKING YEARS.

Now what's the deal with Alvin? Sure he dumped me and all but he wants to be friends. He even claims that he's there for me. Yeah right! Call me hardened but I FIRMLY believe that actions speak louder than words. I'm very torn with him now. I hate him. I don't want to see him anymore so things will be easier on me. But half of me still wants to be friends with him. Sarcasm helps only a little...

I ask God to help me... It's one of those days I'm at my lowest. I hope this doesn't happen again. Ace and Milo want me to rest now. Maybe things will be better tomorrow.

To my friends who are reading this now, I'm sorry...

Mood: Not in the mood for anything
Listening to: Mangekyou Kirakira by Rythem

Death in the family

2005-01-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

My grandma finally passed away Friday afternoon at the age of 93. I had a fever last night so I couldn't go to the hospital no matter how I wanted to. My friends were very supportive through text and to me that's more than enough. I now officially have no more grandparents. :(

I hope I still find time to honor the commitments I made with friends, like the flash animation for Jana. I have until the 31st to finish that and it's a short flash animation of Yoda vs. Gollum. I hope I can finish it within the week along with the first 3 scenes of our thesis.

I just came home from Paz Funeral Homes and saw some of my old relatives from my mother's side. I wasn't able to see them during the holidays since there was no reunion at the mother's side. My cousins in that side of the family have fit bodies compared to those in my father's side who we're either horribly thin or uber fat. I was talking to some of my titas and I found out that homosexuality does run in the family particularly in the mother's side. It makes more sense to me now especially most of my male cousins are... well... either that or bi. At least I can talk about it more openly with mom now.

Mood: Out of it

Listening to: Harmonia by Rythem

3-day update

2005-01-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

Things were a little too hectic for me this week so I wasn't able to post anything...

Wed
-- Gerr wore a skirt to seminar class. Milo was making weird comments about it that made Gerr whine "Milo wants to rape me...". It was funny, actually, since she shocked a lot of classmates. She absolutely hated it. We won a couple of freebie CDs from one of the guest speakers who works as a DJ for a local radio station. It was hella fun.

Thur
-- Worked out my lower body and sholder area in the afternoon. My grandma was hospitalized again and looks like her brain finally gave way. It crushed me since I just saw her the other day walking in living room smiling at me. I really thought she was finally getting better. I was out of it and feelings of sadness were mixed with anger when the mrt and lrt fucked up big time making me 45 minutes late for my mulbis1 class. That cost me a +1 in my final grade for blowing my perfect attendance at the 3rd week. I told the prof about my problem and he seemed to understand what I'm going through so he went easy on me the whole night. Alvin accompanied me on the mrt going home. He's very supportive and he was trying to make me smile the whole night.

Fri
-- Woke up early to finally apply for a non-pro driver's license. My legs hurt like hell after the workout yesterday. Finally got it after a few hours since Kuya Biboy, our neighbor and driver, accompanied me through the process. The drug test was funny. I didn't think I could pee in a cup. The driver's test was easy enough as I finished the test for only a few minutes. I thought I'd spend the entire day there but it took only a few hours from 11:00 am to 2:20pm. I can't wait to show it off to my friends on tuesday but I'm not happy about my picture. I look fat in my pic -_- (but then again, who looks good in his/her driver's license?). When I got home my mom and I left for the hospital to look after my grandma. Seeing her breathing through a machine was very painful for me since I can't take it when people I love are dying... but she's practically dead already. She needs to rest and I think she deserves it.

Mood: Sad

Listening to: Workshy's rendition of It's too Late

Soul...

2005-01-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world so much so that you tend to live in your head most of the timeYou have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult
You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Multi-elemental!

2005-01-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

Now this settles it... I'm multi elemental! I'm a fire hand, air sign, water demeanor, metal monkey XD

Your Element Is Earth

You are super productive and you are able to think anything through. Focused and super charged, your instincts are a good guide for your next step.

What's Your Element?

Endorphins are your bestfriend

2005-01-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

I had another depression attack this afternoon. I dunno what triggered it but I'm beginning to miss my ex-bestfriend Jerry. I look back at the times we shared together and I wonder why I forced him to finally let me go. He was a lot of firsts for me. The first friend who defended me, who took me in his family and called me his brother, who shared his dreams with me, who I really cared about... and the first ever bestfriend in my life. He got too dependent on me and he was beginning to become impossible to handle that he was slowly morphing from bestfriend to leech. It was one of my worsts that I spent 40 minutes on my celphone talking to him saying goodbye while crying immensely. That was 8 months ago...

Eric and I started going for doubles again in Dance Maniax 2nd mix J-append. It was hellafun! It was one of those days that I felt great (amidst my cough) that Eric and I actually put on a show. It was kinda embarassing since there were a lot of people watching us... but my Libran trait kicks in. I love putting on a show. :D Eric is a gemini, however... but Librans and Geminis do well together. (It's a fact I swear! Besides, Eric is just a good friend)

I decided to text a couple of old friends about a get together. Keech, an old crush, texted me back and it's nice to know she's doing well. Too bad she can't go this sat since it's her brother's bday. That made me feel better. :) Played Dance Dance Revolution Max 2 and unlocked a couple of nice kick ass songs that are good for clubbing. I think I'll download the mp3s and use them for my portfolio exhibit next term.

A potential love life may blossom soon. I'm not gonna hope but I do wish something wonderful will happen.

Finished my workout and I feel great. Endorphins are your best friend. XD

Mood: Wonderful

Listening to: Bad Routine by DJ Spugna

2005-01-15T01:10:00.000+08:00

I just updated the class egroup (since's I'm the organizer for it...) and our prof sent us this e-mail that really made me feel lucky. The quotation at the bottom really made sense and I feel like making it into my new mantra.

"- work as if you don't need money,
- love as if
nobody had ever hurt you,
- dance, as if nobody can see you,
- sing, as if nobody can hear you,
- live, as if the Earth
was heaven."

I wish it said who quoted it...

Dubbing with Jana was really good! Gerr and I were so shocked to such talent that it inspired us so much. At least now I know who to call and dub Dianne when my work gets published and an animated series is made. She's so good you guys should hear it, she just went through a difficult line and spoke as if there was no tomorrow. One take was all it took.

Today, my driving lessons ended and I'm happy and proud to say that I can now drive. YAY! But not too well yet. I need to practice and I want to get a new car. Preferably a Blue Honda Jazz (BJ will kill me if he finds out since it's his dream car). I think I'll take the pajero and practice around the Fairview area.

My muscles are still sore but I'm happy about them. It's a sign that my workouts are effective and I should expect some actual muscles to appear in a week or so if I keep up my training. If I don't, Eric will scold me to submission and it's something I can't lie about since it's a case of "the evidence is right before your eyes".

Mood: Happy

Listening to: Brazilian Anthem by Berimbau '66

Sick, sick, sick...

2005-01-14T13:00:00.000+08:00

I'm sick right now... *sigh*. Throat hurts a bit, feeling feverish and a bit dizzy. The other night I didn't get any sleep at all. It was one of those Donald Duck nights when external forces made noise. It was absolutely annoying. If it's not the cat it's the dog, if it's not the neighbor fixing his motorcycle at 3 AM it's the nearby factory.

My arm and chest muscles are aching too. That really did it. Lack of sleep and the weather and classroom being very cold didn't help at all. Good thing Alvin was supportive. Maybe he really does need a friend and I need to accept that being friends aren't that bad. Gave him a hug and I told him I missed him. He replied "I'm always here just waiting for you". Things went nicely after that and it gave me a good night's sleep. Too bad I'm sick now when I woke up.

I have to be in Driving Class in 40 minutes. It's my last session and a bit very excited. Can't wait to get a license soon, YAY! Then I have to bring my laptop to school and meet with my friend Jana who's doing Dianne's voice for thesis. I hope things turn out well. Good thing Elaigh cancelled her dubbing session for Rose since she's sick too. I hope she gets well soon. I wanna go home soon afterwards and rest.

Haven't played Ragnarok in 5 days... Strangely, I don't miss the game that much. :)

Mood: Sick

Listening to: Sounds from the TV (my brother's watching NBA)

Driving vampires in dreams

2005-01-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

Driving lessons today weren't so bad. I was happy to see that Mang Boy was the one that taught me today. Maneuvering and going reverse were pretty easy since I used to practice before. Friday's gonna be my last day and will very soon be a licensed driver! YAY! :D Too bad I can't get a new car since I asked for a laptop late last year and it's one of those things that's "it's either this or that".

I just realized that I wont be able to spend time with Milo, Mark, Ton, BJ and the others at Mike's condo like before because of my schedule. Maybe it's for the best since my cleansing period isn't finished yet. Actually it's more like it just began. It's like I'm going into a cocoon to focus on other things that I neglected last year. I'm avoiding people that became emotional vampires to me until I get things settled with myself since I'm turning into an emotional vampire myself. I don't want to be that type of person...

I had a weird dream last night... it's been a while since I had one so it was kinda fun. I dreamnt I was in Benilde and there's this cute girl that seemed to like me. I think she's hot and it's rare that I fall for a girl with short hair. I asked myself why not go for it and others were like telling me to ask her out. So there we we're, this nameless girl and I, embracing in a secluded hall at school and I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend. She said yes so I was like WOOHOO!! I wanted to text everyone I knew that I now have a wonderful girlfriend. But me being bisexual thought if this was what I wanted. I felt restless until I wished I didn't ask her out. Then there's this scene that we we're at the park and it was a magical moment where clouds and sparkling lights were around and for the first time I saw my girlfriend to be so beautiful that it made me cry.. and I fell IN love and this time it was real and I didn't want to let her go. Weird thing is, I soon find out she's pregnant and it wasn't mine but her ex's. To take the responsibility or not was the question... will I be able to take care of a child that wasn't mine? Then I woke up.

It was nice to be in a relationship even if it was a dream. It's sad when I think about it. It also raised a lot of questions about myself. Am I really bisexual? Am I gay, queer or straight? Only I can answer that of course but my friend Rojine told me that all I needed to do was pray and God will direct me to my true self. I'll still go with being bisexual until I find THE ONE I guess...

Mood: Mixed

Listening to: You are the Universe by The Brand New Heavies

2005-01-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

Finished Megaman X8 the other night. It's actually easier than the rest of the megaman x games out there. So there I was, beat the game and after a huge sigh of relief I eagerly await the ending cg animation. BAM! It hung. Pucha, badtrip ako sobra. So this time I decided to play it again and beat it. I tried tilting the ps2 hoping it would work and it hangs again... Out of frustration, I decided to try it one last time but with me frivolously mashing the start button so the cg scene will skip and the game will continue so I can access and use the female counterparts of X, Zero and Axl. Fortunately it did and I'm now trying to play the game in hard mode. Kaso I wanted to see that cg so bad... Wawa naman si Axl... *sniff* sya pa naman fave ko.

Met with Yvette earlier and had merienda at Deli France in Greenhills. I had to give her something for her job interview for San Miguel Corp and to plan that mini-reunion. I was trying to see if she can find me a great voice actor for Jon's role in thesis. I hope meeting with my old friends from DLSU main can be fulfilling. Honeylette's good with music... maybe she can help me compose stuff on my organ... er.. keyboard.

Let my cat out the other day and to my surprise, other cats came flocking in the backyard. It's like a kitty dating convention. Buti pa pusa ko. He's getting all the action and pussy he can get! Maybe now the damn thing will pipe down at night.

Still have to do stuff for thesis. Ciao!

Mood: Busy

Listening to: For Fruits Basket - Fruits Basket Opening Song

Must get motivated

2005-01-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

Didn't go to driving school today because I had to record something for Yvette. Honestly, I wish I get Man Boy again tomorrow... either that or I'll quit and practice on my own. I have brains. I'll use them!

Met with Eric at SM Fairview again and had dinner at Chef de Angelo. Since he bodybuilds and since he's the one who suggested the Body Sculpting Bible for Men book, we discussed it and he gave me great tips and advice. He even kept me from going for the cheesecake. Sob. Oh well, the end result means more to me than quick fixes.

We decided to play Dance Maniax at the arcade much to our annoyance, Topet is back. Eric hates the guy with a passion so much that he got a full combo of 1575 from all 5 songs. Whee! I'm so proud of Eric! XD I treated him to Starbucks to celebrate. :) We saw Charlou, an old classmate from Highschool, and her husband. She's already 8 months pregnant and she's expecting a girl. I almost slapped her when she said I became fat. -_-

Got into a pit of depression but Eric lifted me from it. Spent the last few minutes in SM at Chris Sports Plaza and bought myself 4 5-kilo weight plates and 2 dumbell handle bars. Tomorrow my new life begins so I need to sleep early too. I'll see if I can get the body same as the male Whitesmith's. Hehe...

Mood: Determined

Listening to: Everlasting Love by Gloria Estefan

Sucks to be single...

2005-01-09T01:37:00.000+08:00

I didn't go to driving lessons this morning since I woke up at 9:15 and my class started at 9... @_@

Yvette texted and asked for help if I can record cooking shows on the Lifestyle Network for her application in San Miguel Corp. It took a great deal of willpower for me not to go gaga and run towards SM Fairview and binge at Congo Grille. How was I able to stop myself?
1) I'm on a diet
2) I feel like a loser eating alone... *sniff*
3) The money I'm gonna use on the food there should go to my date funds (if I find a date)

Yvette's been asking me when our next get together will be. I miss my friends from DLSU Main and it's kinda sad that they're all working now while I'm still stuck in my last year in CSB. She gave me Mel, Keech and Pam's cel numbers and I can't wait to contact them once I find a good place to meet. I'm happy for Lar that she's a DJ now on Magic. At least she's doing something fun and I'm very happy for her. Honeylette's doing gigs now and I hope she'll have time. I get to handle the girls while Yvette will round up the boys. I miss the guys too.... JP, Phil, Red, Brian and Alvin Limon (another Alvin). I just feel intimidated since they all have jobs now. I'll get there, I know I will. It's my fault for slacking off but then again the course I'm in now is something I genuinely love.

I met with Ace and Gerr at school at 1 PM for thesis. Ace was to do one of my character's voices "Ailyn" (the intellectual) and she did her job rather well and it was an experience for her since it involved A LOT of exasperated screaming and sarcastic retorts with flaming emotional comedy. Recorded a lot of outtakes too so it's gonna be fun listening to them. I have to do three voices for the thesis tho... the roles of Nick (it's me 17 years old), Jon (the laid back athlete) and Heidrian (the witty brat). I'll see if I can find someone to do Jon's voice tho...

After a tiring recording session we ate at Red Ribbon. It's a place of sin, I tell you. Their grilled ensaymada with melted butter was purely evil and with me being a lowly human being ate a small portion of it. -_- So much for willpower.

Ace and I went to Shangri La to unwind. Got to play Percussion Freaks 9th mix again after a long time and I got a bit rusty. Hehe, at least I was able to finish a level 67 song (Tamayura in Advanced mode on 2.5 speed and auto-bass). I missed the songs there and for a song named "I'm a loser", the song is pretty good stuff.

I wanna make my move on someone now but I dunno if it's something I need to do now or if things need to settle down first. Ace advised me not to do anything for the mean time but be a friend. I'd like to be friends with that person although time isn't really make it easy on me. Sucks to be single. *sigh*

Mood: Down

Listening to: Dreams in the night

Mixed...

2005-01-08T01:51:00.000+08:00

Just finished finalizing the scripting in Flash for the arguments for our thesis. MAN ALIVE, I love my work :D

I DID NOT like the instructor I had in Driving lessons earlier. I was hoping it was Mang Boy but they give me this schmuck. I didn't even try to get to know his name. I hope I get someone different tomorrow morning. I had half the mind to walk out that hour. But I have to admit, he made things clearer. I just didn't like the way he taught. Too maangas... and I hate maangas people. >_<

Finally got good downloads tonight. I've been downloading mp3s from Final Fantasy Advent Children in hopes of getting the piano version of the main theme and I did! WHEEEE!!! Now to copy it into my mp3 player and try to copy it in the keyboard. It's been a while since I played something GREAT on my keyboard. I should start playing at least once a week again... I used to play all the themes from Final Fantasy 6 to X-2 dunno if I can still tho @_@

I wanna make someone happy nowadays. I miss treating someone out to lunch or dinner. *sigh* I hate being single but I have no choice. Just because I'm not finding the right person right now doesn't mean I wont find him/her in the future. Maybe being single right now is a blessing since I'm working on thesis right now... but then again I hate going out alone and eating alone... and what Mark told me makes sense:

"It's not the question whether you are ready
for the relationship or not, the question is will you act on it..."

Mood: Mixed

Listening to: Final Fantasy Advent Children - Final Fantasy VII Main Theme (Piano Version) XD

Praying...

2005-01-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

So gosh-darned tired.

I read a few chapters of that Body Sculpting Bible and it's an amazing book! Not only does it focus on getting a good body but it also focuses on health and discipline. I hope I'll say hello to new me before the june starts. XD

Ate at Wendy's with Mark and I had a great time. (He just saved me from an afternoon with Alvin, of course I had a great time). We talked about gym, experiences with relationships and ragnarok (always the geeky moment). He gave me good advice about relationships and he's actually good company. Despite his irrationality lies a good friend that shows his heart differently.

Made myself 20 minutes late for Mulbis class so I don't have to sit beside Alvin. Got to sit beside his blockmates and for the first day meeting them things went fine. Looks like I have PR skills that I didn't know existed. Hehe.

Received a text from my sis in law. My eldest bro needs to relax more and work less or else his right side will become paralyzed or even worse. I'm very worried about my brother since he's the one who really inherited dad's explosive temper. I've been praying all throughout the mrt ride back to Quezon Ave station. I don't want another person in my family to die...

Mood: Worried

Listening to: Paper Clouds by S.E.N.S.

Second day of school

2005-01-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

Before anything else, i'd like to share this picture:

This is a picture of a character class is Ragnarok: the Whitesmith. It's the true testament that I'm bisexual since I cried myself to sleep looking at this picture and I enjoyed it 200%. ]

*Ahem*

I hate my cat. I feel like putting him in a pot with a heavy lid or something. It kept on yowling last night so I didn't get any sleep until I realized that the sky was already changing to sky blue. It wants to go inside the house but no. My brother brings his 2-year-old daughter, a little bundle of joy and kitties and toddlers do not mix. Second, the cat peed on my bed. For two weeks I had to sleep on the floor since the stink didn't go away after 6 washes. I think I'll let it out tonight. The thing must be sexually deprived and he needs to find kitty playmates or something.

This afternoon I was panicking on my first day in Driving school. My instructor is this middle-aged man named Mang Boy. He was silent, subtle and the type that will hit you with a heavy plank if you annoyed him with a single mistake. I had to be frank with him so I told him halfway towards the tutorial that I was nervous. Haha, Mang Boy didn't seem evil as I thought he'd be. 5 minutes before the lesson ended I already made him laugh with an old experience about a guy who wanted to apply as a driver at our company. The guy drove from Quezon City to Bulacan and back with the hand brake up! His excuse to that? "Kasi po nasanay ako magpasada ng right hand drive fx sa monumento". AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Utot nya. Things didn't seem so bleak and I'm looking forward to my next lesson on friday.

Before going to school I decided to look for that book my friend Eric wanted me to buy. Since I'm in my desperate search for the lean body + 6 pack abs, he told me (not suggest but told) to buy "Body Sculpting Bible for men" by Villepigue and Rivera. The book cost me 900 bucks at A Different Bookstore in Glorietta 3 and prayed it was worth it and it should! (I was running around G3 like a moron trying to find the place).

Big surprise when I stepped into school and I saw Milo there with Gerr at the huts. I ran like a chipmunk on high and hugged Milo (after I penetrated his hard case shield). We had to part ways after a while since Gerr and I had seminar class that day. Hoo boy, I thought to myself since seminar classes would be those 3 hour blah blah festivals. Wow, am I in a big surprise. The class was a hoot! JR, Mecca, Christine, Carlo, Jason and Krissy (the official transvestite of the MMA student body) was there. The prof, Miss Geray, was funny too so I had one of the best 2 hours of my life. It's like I never had so much fun in a class before. She asked us to write names of people we want to appear in talks so I suggested the following:

Carlo Vergara author of Zhazha Zaturnnah and One Night in Purgatory
Jessica Zafra ... twisted (nuff said)
Maverick and Ariel (Miss Geray LOVED the idea LOL) for the purpose of aesthetics and there is a possibility they bring a camera and include it as an episode for one of their shows XD Now who doesn't want a little TV down time?
Melanie Marquez (3 hours of her speaking in English is a treasure)

Someone suggested Sharon Cuneta. LOL. I'm gonna bring my CDs of her and have them autographed instantly (me being a Sharonian XD)

After the class, I made Mecca and JR listen to "Three Little Maids from School". At least THAT brightened up their evening a bit more. Gerr and I met up with Ton and Milo in front of the Multimedia Labs. We we're talking and suddenly Justin comes walking near us. Gerr was so happy since she finally got Justin to see that Milo is our friend once more. I just found it funny that she was doing bellydances with her middle fingers raised up while chanting "fuck you bastard" at Justin.

I hope my class with Alvin wont be bad. I wish there are people there I knew so I can hang with them than listen to Alvin talk about how funny his other friends are, sick sick doujinshis and meaningless anime.

Mood: Ecstatic

Listening to: Twinkle Star (forgot the artist) from Percussion Freaks 9th mix

First day of school for the 3rd term!

2005-01-04T22:19:00.000+08:00

@_@

That is my expression for the day! @_@

I was supposed to get my hair done at David's Salon but the guy who usually does my hair is out. I thought wednesdays was his day off... must have changed it. I could have my hair done tomorrow before my first lesson in driving. A bit nervous about but WHOOEEE!!! My first official driving lesson! @_@

Question is should I get my hair done coz Gerr think it's already fine. I'm wondering if she was sincere since she just drank a bottle of San Mig Strong Ice... @_@

Gerr and I had our first class in Multim3, our last thesis subject and after that it's supposed to be smooth sailing. This is supposed to be her last term too and boy am I gonna miss her. :( We were dismissed early since we didn't bring our stuff to present so we have to be prepared for next week. We just went down the "huts" and talked. Man, I really don't want to be blockmates with Alvin this thursday but I have to stop running away from it. Maybe there really is no problem and I'm just making a big deal out of it. @_@

We're a bit worried about Milo tho since he should have been back in the country by now. I'm just telling myself that his flight was delayed or flights are prioritizing tsunami related problems. Anything could happen... it's Bahrain after all. @_@

I went dizzy after eating at Tropical Hut for a snack. Dang. My body's not used to it anymore since I didn't eat at a fast food place the entire break. I must lay off fast foods now I guess. For my last attempt to eat fast food, I tried out the Beef Prosperity burger at McDo. It's GOOD YA! UND YUMMY! Unfortunately I can eat that anymore... okay fine, once or twice a month. It's not good for my diet. @_@

Oh and I almost forgot: @_@

Mood: Playful

Listening to: Mr. Bobby from Percussion Freaks 9th mix

Dazed

2005-01-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

Today is the official last day of my vacation and I dunno why I'm so tired and my back is killing me. I feel like sleeping early and try jogging tomorrow morning at 6 AM.

Gerr texted and she's pissed to find out Justin is her blockmate. I don't blame her. If I was in her place I'd freak too. The guy just screwed the us over 2 years ago. It's funny tho, Like what Jannie said when we had pre-Christmas lunch the other day at Itallianis in Glorietta. "My God it's been two to three years at si Justin pa rin pinaguusapan natin!".It's a perpetual compulsion like a Magic card "Discuss and bad mouth Justin when 3 or more players in the field WAS his friend". Haha, and we did. CD, Ace, Gerr, Jannie and I just HAD to talk about all the inane stupidity the guy did and how he almost destroyed our friendship. I just hope Gerr can take it. It took us a year to repair the damage Justin did.

I'll probably freak out on Thursday tho. Alvin is my blockmate in Mulbis1 and I dunno if I can take it after what happened to us. Maybe I can transfer to a different time slot. Agh... I feel like I can't see him yet until I've finally become secure. Just dunno with what. Until I found a good relationship? Until I got a kick-ass job? I guess I just need a little more time to let it go.

I bought myself a new pair of glasses since the old one got broken and my eyes got worse. I was beginning to read "bawal ang matulog dito" to "bawal ang mangitlog dito"; and I was beginning to confuse people from afar. -_- Almost got me into trouble at the office.

Oh, I colored a new artwork and posted it in Deviantart. The link there is in the links section of my blog so please check it out if you have the time. It's been a while since I colored in photoshop after all the flat 2D animations I've been doing for thesis. I was bugging Clarisse in YM while Rye was motivating me while coloring. Aquarians are so good when it comes to arts.

Mood: Tired

Listening to: Robinson by Spitz

Spring cleaning!

2005-01-02T13:55:00.000+08:00

Here I am taking a break from cleaning my room. One nice thing about cleaning a room is that you unearth stuff that you thought you'd lost ages ago! Like my CDs for example. Right now I'm listening to Bust a Move 1 OST (Bust a Groove in english... that ultra cool dancing game). I really wanted to play the PS2 version, Dance Summit but never got a copy of it. I doubt it was pirated so I ought to buy one online. ^_^

*Sigh* Want to play the first 2 ps2 games again... too bad they don't work with my PS2 anymore. An online friend has a working copy of it, I hope he lets me play with it when I visit him one of these days :D

I'm still trying to find my best yoyo but I did find my old boomerang! YAY! It's a nice boomerang my Ate Cecel got for me from Australia (which I thought our old house boy stole). Now if only I had a yard big enough... I think I'll ask a couple of friends to accompany me to the huge fields of Ateneo, UP or UST to play with it. XD

Well, that's it for now. Better go back to cleaning. Ciao!

Mood: Playful

Listening to: Waratte Pon (Shorty and the EZ Mouse in English) "Shorty's theme" - Bust a Move OST

I wanted things to be simple again...

2005-01-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

I decided to use my last 2 days of freedom for some serious bumming. Shaman king for the ps2 is a hoot! I just don't like the battle sequences... but the cut scenes are a hoot. XD

I woke up this morning to the sound of my celphone doing the message alert tone with weird laughter. BJ texted and he wanted me to join his new guild in Ragnarok, Knights Immortal where he is the guild master. I had it with all the politics and let's make new guilds that will eventually lead nowhere and destroy friendships. I don't think I wanna join that since I don't think I have enough time to play this coming term.

The sentai hasn't been doing very well for the past few years. First there was 6 of us and everything was so simple then. Richard's the goofy Chinese guy, Ace's the bright and multi-talented lady, Gerr's the sarcastic tomboy, BJ's the abraisive and official pilot of the gang, Alvin's the weird anime otaku and I'm the fruity backbone of the group.

That was two years ago.

Richard left coz we got into a big fight. What did I say about do not irritate librans under pressure. Well, Richard is also Libra and he's taking his thesis and I bugged him too much. Took me a year to get over that. I think he's starting to forgive me tho. He's replying to my messages now. Then Gerr and Ace became a couple and they sometimes drift into their own little world. I don't blame them but I do envy them. What can we do? They are so much in-love with each other and I think it's beautiful. I just wish I can find someone too and I'd ask if we can double date. Alvin is.. well... Alvin. He's stll a kid and he'd rather hang out with his gaming friends... and besides, something happened to us just 2 months ago so he's not the person I'd like to see right now. BJ gets too moody and I can't handle it since I'm worrying about a lot of stuff myself.

I think the group already decayed and it's like everyone has their own agenda. It's a good thing the honorary members like Nix, Gail, CD, Milo, etc aren't involved. I wonder how they are doing. Milo's supposed to come back from Bahrain on monday. I missed that guy. :)

I wanted things to be simple again.

This year, SCREW THE POLITICS!!! I just wanna be my own person and be more free willed. So LO AND BEHOLD MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION!!!! (yeah, I know this has a 70% chance of not happening but I wanna be determined too)

1) I will be fit and much healthier than last year
2) I will procrastinate less... (eventually... joke XD)
3) I will finish college this December
4) I will be a good driver
5) I WILL find a great guy/girl (which ever comes first)

Mood: Determined

Listening to: We are the Stars (full version) - Opening song of Ragnarok the Animation (Oh God, NOT THE SCQ VERSION! Pls. LANG, UTANG NA LOOB! @_@ )

Happy New Year y'all!!!

2004-12-31T22:12:00.000+08:00

A few hours and it's the start of the new year. I wonder what's in store for me in the next 364 days?

I'd better thank God for the things that happened to me last year.
1. Thanks for all the emotional turmoil that happened to me with the added bonus of watching Fruits Basket so I will have the ability to convert this emotional crap to strength.
2. Thanks for the friends that may not be there always but I know they'll support me when I'm down. You guys know who you are. :)
3. Thanks for all the chances that came up to me so my talents will improve.
4. Thanks for still being intact after 24 years of loneliness. I know I'll find THE ONE one of these days.
5. Thanks for the good health with me and the ones I love. Fortunately no one in the range of people I love still hasn't died.
6. Thanks for the good fortune and the fact that the family business still hasn't gone under. So to those reading this if you need to paint your house or as long as it has anything to do with paints, LET ME KNOW!!! We'll talk business :D
7. Thanks for giving me another chance at life this year so I can change all the crap that I have and maybe become a better person.

I'd better get over this depression about my body. I hate it. It's gonna be tough burning all the fat but I'll endure it. I had enough of people greeting me "Tumaba ka!" or "Ang taba mo!" than "Merry Christmas".

To those reading this, PLEASE give me tips on getting a great body.

It's been a hell of year. Hopefully next year will make me stronger. (I hope I get into a relationship soon too... *sigh*)

Mood: Hopeful

Listening to: Sunlit Garden from Revolutionary Girl Utena

What happened last night

2004-12-31T17:28:00.000+08:00

So last night was a blast. Unfortunately the gang was incomplete. Bunny didn't feel well (or so we think), Rei went to EK with her brothers, Ami was resting (dunno why). So it was only me, Minako, Chibiusa and Mako who met at SM Fairview.

The four of us tried out that new karaoke place. Mako and CHibiusa treated :D. Forgot it's name but it was kinda ok. Mako suggested that the one in SM North was much better. I mean, so much for sound proof rooms! I got to sing Weekend in New England and How Deep is Your Love. Kinda old fashioned, ne? ^_^ Everyone was singing depressing love songs so I decided to throw in Babae Po Ako by Tuesday Vargas. THAT lightened the mood but then I had to crouch from plain sight so I wouldn't embarass myself with the public. But then I realized, the rooms WEREN'T 100% sound proof. Good thing nobody cared outside the room XD

After that we went over to Super Bowl of China. I was greeted by the people there with "Nice of you to visit us again sir". HAHA! They must love me there. I'm probably one of their loyal customers. XD We feasted on 2 plates of Yang Chow Fried Rice, Brocolli and Beef and Lemon Chicken. It's was uber yummy!! While we dined, we talked about these subjects:
- Why I can't go back together with Bunny
- Mako's test to Guam (it's not Brunei, my mistake)
- Minako's new hairdo
- How Rei and her boyfriend can spend 1,200 pesos on a meal for two
- How Bunny seemed immature and detached from the group which was clearly pointed out by Chibiusa

After the wonderful dinner care of Minako and me, Minako and Chibiusa (They are twins in real life btw) gave Mako and me our gifts. I got this cute gel candle thingy. :D I bought Shaman King for the ps2 and it was a riot. Horohoro sure is cute (wish I had a huggy plush doll of him) XD

Went I walked back home, I realized that the friendship we share now is no longer just about anime like back in high-school. We start talking about ourselves now and what goes on with out lives and I think it's great. I never really felt a connection with the Sailorteam until just recently. However, like what Chibiusa said... Bunny does seem detached and she never does talk to anyone really. Could it be because of our past together or is it just because our interests as a group changed and she can't keep up with the rest of us? I guess some of us in the team stay together out of friendship and some stay just for the icon of Sailorteam. I sure do hope everyone is in it because we ARE friends.

Mood: Ecstatic

Listening to: Precious Love by Park Ji Yoon

Peace within our ranks...

2004-12-30T13:19:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to organize a get together with my highschool barkada so we can patch up that turmoil that's been plaguing us for the past 3 weeks. I hope it pushes through today but some of them doesnt seem intrested at all. So far only 1 has replied to my text message.

About my barkada, we call the group Sailorteam. Yeah, when we were in high-school our love for anime and Sailormoon brought us together and each member had a role in it. I was Mamoru Chiba aka Tuxedo Mask (since I'm the only boy in the group).

Anyway, every year every December we go out of town as what Phoebe coined in Friends "Freinessance". Last year we went to Baguio and had a great 4 day stay there in the cld cold mountains. Of course, Rei's aka Sailormars' boyfriend Mike went along with us but it's ok. The guy used to be my best-friend in 2nd year high-school so I don't mind getting together with him too.

This year, I was the host. I organized and called in City of Springs resort in Laguna for an overnight stay in a luxurious resort with hotsprings in it. Suddenly 5 days before the excursion, Minako and Chibiusa texted that they can't go for some obscure reason. Makoto can't go too but she's off the hook since she has an international exam coming up and she has to go to Brunei sometime 1st quarter next year. This is something she CAN'T afford to fail. Mike suggested that we push through with it even if it was just me, Ami, Bunny, Rei and him but then Bunny calls Rei and tells her that she can't make it as well.

I think Rei blew her top. Actually me too. It took a lot of trouble to set and plan that trip especially during my 2nd phase of thesis and you NEVER IRRITATE A LIBRAN UNDER PRESSURE. Rei said some things to Bunny while Minako thinks that it's all her fault. The damage has been made and now I'm taking the liberty of patching the girls up. Girls are so HARD to talk into these things. One of the reasons why I'd rather go our with a guy sometimes. No one seems intrested to fix things anyway so I might as well.

The year is about to end and I don't want the Sailorteam to go into shambles because of one little set back. Honestly this i the first time this happened to our group... or so I think. Sometimes they don't say anything to me because of gender gap. I hope there will be peace within our ranks before the year ends. :(

Mood: Downhearted

Listening to: "We could be in Love" by Brad Kane and Lea Salonga

six days left to live... sigh

2004-12-29T13:24:00.000+08:00

Like what the title says, I only have six days left to live. Yes that's right! Christmas vacation is coming to an end!!! - Insert desired scream of terror -
Do I panic??? Do I start baying at the moon now??? Seriously I hate it when all my plans for the break do not push through. I think I only did around 70% of the things I planned to do that will take it all out of my system.

Le'see what did I plan to do in the first place:
1. Play ALOT of playstation 2 games (yes I'm doing it right now)
2. Clean and rearrange the furniture in my room (... let's not go there right now)
3. Shop (I just bought 2 shirts from GQ that's 2 sizes smaller than my regular size and I'll make my body worthy of wearing them!!!)
4. Compose Music (My finger presses one key on the keyboard and my mind turns blank)
5. Make a shrine to Suetake and Kudo (2 guys from sensei no ojikan... yes I like yaoi thank you very much)
6. Learn how to drive (That starts next week. Yes, I'm 24 and I'm just learning)
7. Bake (I got to bake kick-ass peanut butter white chocochip cookies for Christmas but I still wanna learn how to make Cheesecake)
8. Work on Thesis (Please God, not now... I just had a handful last term. Ooohhh But I have to! My groupmate will sing bad songs to me as punishment)
9. Post new stuff on Deviantart (AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... *sigh*)
10. Finish Websites for the Non-Government Offices (I am NOT getting paid so I'm a bit out of it with them)
11. Workout (my eternal battle for the washboard stomach is STILL on going)
12. Go on dates (I just spent Christmas eating popcorn while flirting on YM and Downelink... a miracle WILL happen)

Well, there's that for the mean time. I wanted to go places tho like Market-Market. I wanted to explore this huge mall that's half Bargain stalls and half Urban glory. Last time I went there is with my friend Elaigh. We had fun but because of me being late for 1 hour and 45 minutes we didn't get to stay there very long. I'd ask my other friends in the sentai but BJ's first step in that place was during one of his dark days so I'd rather have fun and not gloom, Ace is working but we will find time to go there eventually, Gerr will probably have time to go there with me but this experience is best served when she's with Ace. I'll just tell Gerr that they have sandals, shoes and bags there and she might even drive for us! Hehe.

Whew! Not bad for a first post. Hope this will turn into a habit. XD Ciao

Mood: Playful

Currently Listening to: Dance Dance Revolution 2nd mix OSt: Stomp to my Beat

2004-12-29T02:13:00.000+08:00

First time here and hopefully I'll maintain this blog. I'm still unpacking... this is my first test post. Will write something new later :D